I just realized my brother thinks he's made himself nothing to prove that I'm nothing, that that's "what he is."
I keep getting messages from others about my grandma and dad, too. How perverted, lame, babyish! :p Hmph. It is. I got the feeling that I just couldn't take it and pretty much had to protect myself. How would I do that? Pretty much you have to roughhouse others because it doesn't seem they are rough enough themselves.
I thought I got a message and couldn't handle it for some reason, the reverberations and the fact I was looking for it.
I'm worried because when I think these things my grandma gets mad. Maybe, it's not her fault, but I dunno, seems like it. I'll just go with that she does that, but usually it shouldn't be like that. I can't believe my mom thinks I have to listen to everyone about everything, like psychopathically, because I'm always good, actually.
So, obviously, it's not just my grandma's fault. My dad just has a weak bladder, so-to-speak, and she gets infued on me so I'll go crazy. :p I think she's always mad at him but close, still. :|
I just "forgot how to dance." My singing got worse from not working out as much, too, and I'm looking worse.
Monday, October 8, 2012
How to Get My Dad to Stop Bothering You
Isn't he irritating and ridiculous? I mean you claim he'll like hurt you if you're not bad to me.
Mad
I don't want my dad probing his nose in my life. He's being suggestive and trying to take over. I don't want him taking over. I just don't want to hear what no one else has to. I don't want to be told I don't deserve anything because other people are jealous of the intelligence I accumulated.
Can someone like psych in a mortal finish to my family?
I am to experience my full life without relatives getting in the way.
Unimportant
Some people keep snubbing in for attention like it has to be without thinking, just acting like an animal. They think everything is a suggestion to them and blame people who weren't the ones who "said it" nor meant to ever say it because it didn't mean anything... I am not really mean. }:( Please stop bothering me, you stupid people!
Machine
I just get thoughts ... I had some harsh ones but then something concrete.
I don't know if my dad is capable of knocking me out. He might be bossy like his family. I know I'm capable of bothering my mom.
I don't know if my dad is capable of knocking me out. He might be bossy like his family. I know I'm capable of bothering my mom.
The messages won't stop.
I keep getting people I don't like inflicted on me. They should know those who are special to them, but some parents are incompetent cretins.
Frankenweenie
I noticed that maybe Tim Burton has taken like hints from me in his movie. I wonder how that goes over? It's not my fault. I don't think he cares. He's been harsh, lately.
It'll probably get more and more interesting as more people see it.
It'll probably get more and more interesting as more people see it.
Leave me alone!
Stop giving me hidden messages. Don't you know no one will like you for coming on like you're something you're simply ... er ... not? I'm reading it in the signals! I don't like to be molested in private like that, neither. Please, don't go on in German all clunky like a nigger. Hey, my nose on the other side just got wider when I turned my head some. The right side had an indent, and the other side just got bigger. Why don't you do something sutpid like this instead of cause it on me? I'm not gonna do what you do. Pretty much, I've kept my rapport about the Nell Burton incidence, but IW ill not change anything from befroe.
Like a Machine
Sometimes, the cars go by and I think of things that might be the cause of my parents and I get upset. Sometimes, in private, I think of things with other people that are bad by accident, but it's their fault it comes up.
I keep feeling so much pressure by my egg sacks.
I'm pretty sure this is all bad. I'm tired of complaining for now and wanted to relax at home.
Well, this morning I felt my nails kinda go out on the left hand when my dad left for work. I met him at the corner. I had met my mom at the other corner.
It's funny I used to draw toenails on the TV and pimples, for my brother and of my dad. I wonder what that means...
People keep picking on me like they can. It's not really funny I was made vulnerable, but I know a lot. I'm like a machine!
I'm tired of being stimulated in perverted ways. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is why you need to be ******.
I keep feeling so much pressure by my egg sacks.
I'm pretty sure this is all bad. I'm tired of complaining for now and wanted to relax at home.
Well, this morning I felt my nails kinda go out on the left hand when my dad left for work. I met him at the corner. I had met my mom at the other corner.
It's funny I used to draw toenails on the TV and pimples, for my brother and of my dad. I wonder what that means...
People keep picking on me like they can. It's not really funny I was made vulnerable, but I know a lot. I'm like a machine!
I'm tired of being stimulated in perverted ways. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is why you need to be ******.
Johnny Depp is so perverted.
Definitely, so is my dad. They just think of every possible thing you could do because people are niggers. Then, they go through it with you rather than let you live your life you let these things happen to you. I don't think they have anything to teach me.
Something Unexciting
I felt like the right cheek, which I've felt swirling around, rip at the nose crack.
Also, I noticed I have a line on my eyelid like a cousin's baby. The right one. Well, the baby used to look like that.
Also, I noticed I have a line on my eyelid like a cousin's baby. The right one. Well, the baby used to look like that.
My Dad or Johnny Depp
So, what, should I really like be "onto" my dad literally, physically knowing him, or is Johnny Depp just listening to what our parents want?
I hate Johnny Depp. Not Really. But-
He's rude to me. Wait, is he?
I just got the idea of him torturing my future son.
That's so lame the way he "says it."
I just got the idea of him torturing my future son.
That's so lame the way he "says it."
Why should...
Why should only people born around 1960 be babied to people born around 1950 as less disgusting and more like cute and rubbery-fluffy or like solid in a good way, and like juicy from eating right?
Shorter and Shorter
I guess, I feel I'm solidifying my figure but want longer legs. So, we'll see what happens. It's because of the medicine. My life was okay before the "n" word thing. My periods are bad and my egg sacks are stimulated. They had gotten so heavy and rich! I was dripping blood when I woke up, though. Maybe, I need to eat more and wait another year.
Wrong Steps
I don't think you need to go through being perverted to come out how you were to begin with...
Gay
So, if you're wondering why I'm happy I'm getting shorter it's because I think I've been stretching my spine too much and not my legs, hopefully which will ... also I need to be stimulated in my crotch because all these years, since I was 11, I've not been since seeing that girl from L.A. who looked so good, was slim, yet seemed so fat, with white hair ... because I took medicine that seems to have made me taller whereas I was trying to get taller in the right way before and didn't. I don't know why I seem taller now.
I thought about it ... somehow people putting their arm around me while I'm sitting down would stimulate me... depending on who and how I react. So, I was thinking, I don't need to be reassured on rides because I feel dead and am assuming that most people if not would need to be reassured by their boyfriends, etc... How3ever, I discovered something interesting. I don't know if I'd really ever go on a ferris wheel again, which kinda interested me ... so, I think I would like to. I mean it's not that boat ride that swings back and forth? Imagine some people would really get scared... I'm also upset because my neck got hurt on a log ride like Splash Mountain. I thought I'd have fun. When I wanted to do hurtles in P.E. when I moved, I couldn't do any. I was 12.
I think some people can really get scared, and it's funny if it happens. I mean, you can get in pain, too. :S My aunt was a police, but I know she gets like agitated. More than me in a way. She's younger than my dad.
Think about how some people react to gatherings like campfires. I guess it gets me sappy. I love going on the hikes, though, now that is cool! I do feel a lot, but I'd prefer a reeal hike.
Festivals are the biggest thing for me. You get dressed up in modern clothes. I think the peak for me was thinking someone older would notice me, like an adult, but that's not where the fun was but where the hype was, shouldn't be something you have to mull over. I always liked festivals, guess it sorta echoed what was to come.
I thought of something. My dad did the kiddie games at the festivals at 2 different schools. He had to get surgery on his knee I thik at the 3rd school... He got surgery again, later. He even remembers today and so do I, something I don't remember, too, that the car like exploded at the gas station then. After his second surgery I used store cards to buy stuff and put up Alice in Wonderland stuff on the walls. My grandma got some sort of surgery years ago and was fired by an older brother, where she worked at a craft store. I remember there was a lady there, not older than her, who was obese and tall but not like plump who cried when I was there. There were lots of things. Also, she took me to the store and there was a lady she knew working at a place like for popcorn. When I talked to a relative, she talked about her flabby arms and mine got flabby. I saw in a video someone who looked like her got like African-looking hands, with short curly hair. What else? My grandma acted like I was a problem in how I didn't always respond as assertively when we were out. Hm.
I feel killed, really, and made to be the opposite of all that was accomplished for people born in 1960, and it's probably very outwardly taxing.
Also, I'm like an active sperm and will attack any other sperms that are no good, even if I die!
I thought about it ... somehow people putting their arm around me while I'm sitting down would stimulate me... depending on who and how I react. So, I was thinking, I don't need to be reassured on rides because I feel dead and am assuming that most people if not would need to be reassured by their boyfriends, etc... How3ever, I discovered something interesting. I don't know if I'd really ever go on a ferris wheel again, which kinda interested me ... so, I think I would like to. I mean it's not that boat ride that swings back and forth? Imagine some people would really get scared... I'm also upset because my neck got hurt on a log ride like Splash Mountain. I thought I'd have fun. When I wanted to do hurtles in P.E. when I moved, I couldn't do any. I was 12.
I think some people can really get scared, and it's funny if it happens. I mean, you can get in pain, too. :S My aunt was a police, but I know she gets like agitated. More than me in a way. She's younger than my dad.
Think about how some people react to gatherings like campfires. I guess it gets me sappy. I love going on the hikes, though, now that is cool! I do feel a lot, but I'd prefer a reeal hike.
Festivals are the biggest thing for me. You get dressed up in modern clothes. I think the peak for me was thinking someone older would notice me, like an adult, but that's not where the fun was but where the hype was, shouldn't be something you have to mull over. I always liked festivals, guess it sorta echoed what was to come.
I thought of something. My dad did the kiddie games at the festivals at 2 different schools. He had to get surgery on his knee I thik at the 3rd school... He got surgery again, later. He even remembers today and so do I, something I don't remember, too, that the car like exploded at the gas station then. After his second surgery I used store cards to buy stuff and put up Alice in Wonderland stuff on the walls. My grandma got some sort of surgery years ago and was fired by an older brother, where she worked at a craft store. I remember there was a lady there, not older than her, who was obese and tall but not like plump who cried when I was there. There were lots of things. Also, she took me to the store and there was a lady she knew working at a place like for popcorn. When I talked to a relative, she talked about her flabby arms and mine got flabby. I saw in a video someone who looked like her got like African-looking hands, with short curly hair. What else? My grandma acted like I was a problem in how I didn't always respond as assertively when we were out. Hm.
I feel killed, really, and made to be the opposite of all that was accomplished for people born in 1960, and it's probably very outwardly taxing.
Also, I'm like an active sperm and will attack any other sperms that are no good, even if I die!
My Aunt
I was upset because I was feeling bad and I saw a picture of my lips on Facebook talking to her, and my face was hard to control. Since then, my dad's been like not being as courteous to me and like trying to stretch out acting like he's punishing me. I don't know where I can safely turn. He has a lot of power but shouldn't! Why not have power over people he can handle?
Dream
I remember the first one was like a locker in like a mental hospital all dark, there was like this big machine that was all dark and shiny. I guess it had doors in it. It was probably like a place where kids stayed and got tortured. There weren't many people there that I remember. I think someone was there I wanted to put my arm around at the mall or something. I remember now kinda. There were other people in it.
The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa. There was this ride. First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me. It was about how I didn't like big drops. So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles. I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos. Then we were to go on the ride. Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride. I remember my mom was outside waiting, too. My friend was there. I made a new friend. A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny. So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.
I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams. It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.
I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice. The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now. I was trying to feel okay but things happened. It did feel pushed on me. I blame the thing with Johnny Depp. I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting. I felt better last night in some ways. It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess. I just feel like it in bed, though. I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance. I do need new bed covers... I don't know if I will get them. My room is messy in a way, for some reason. I know I need to ORDER ear plus. It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me. I woke up and turned off the music. Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.
Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed. I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit. A bit stimulated. It should cease. I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it. See, people are really bad. Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected. I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others! I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably. It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.
So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food. I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat. I need to learn to cook, too.
I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk. Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.
The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa. There was this ride. First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me. It was about how I didn't like big drops. So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles. I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos. Then we were to go on the ride. Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride. I remember my mom was outside waiting, too. My friend was there. I made a new friend. A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny. So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.
I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams. It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.
I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice. The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now. I was trying to feel okay but things happened. It did feel pushed on me. I blame the thing with Johnny Depp. I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting. I felt better last night in some ways. It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess. I just feel like it in bed, though. I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance. I do need new bed covers... I don't know if I will get them. My room is messy in a way, for some reason. I know I need to ORDER ear plus. It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me. I woke up and turned off the music. Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.
Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed. I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit. A bit stimulated. It should cease. I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it. See, people are really bad. Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected. I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others! I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably. It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.
So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food. I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat. I need to learn to cook, too.
I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk. Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Ellen DeGeneres
So, are you mean to me because of weakness and pressure you feel from others or because ... wait, why are you like that?
Ellen DeGeneres
I realize she's uptight like her brother and a bit perverted with no real will. I just had to say that. So, I'm feeling the after-effects of watching her in the 80s just for not being comfortable and not having an answer to what I was thinking of her because my mind was already made up and I guess she doesn't figure anything out for good. I'm sure Florida is Spanish, even Disney, which is good in some ways but in this way too bad.
I guess people in the South can be cliquey. They're just defending how their culture can be worthless. They're dirty and rebellious because they don't get as much snow and cold as the rest of the U.S., forgetting their assets, which I know of from living there. It's not 0 but could be worthless. Also, they're sissies to the cold and pressure. I don't think it's very cold where my family lives, though. It's definitely cold but a bit unpleasant. I've been there, near the top of the country, in Christmas, and it's definitely freezing but not like the most chill feeling you could get.
I guess people in the South can be cliquey. They're just defending how their culture can be worthless. They're dirty and rebellious because they don't get as much snow and cold as the rest of the U.S., forgetting their assets, which I know of from living there. It's not 0 but could be worthless. Also, they're sissies to the cold and pressure. I don't think it's very cold where my family lives, though. It's definitely cold but a bit unpleasant. I've been there, near the top of the country, in Christmas, and it's definitely freezing but not like the most chill feeling you could get.
Johnny Depp
He's like an animal, always mean, mainly racist, which is dumb. When he meets a challenge, he finds out if they're all Caucasian. Had a family in France but left it.
Just because I got mad and he like ruined my reputation, which could probably literally kill me, and said I didn't really care if he ***** because I guess I was talking about like other people getting hurt and ****** constantly, I guess my perspective came up ... I awoke to the idea of him having, after ignoring the thoughts, and listenting to Baroque music on iTunes, of him having spun like my youngest daughter in the most pain you could think, like way up in the sky, for like maybe an hour or so, like all wound up. That's a reverberation of him, and I'd like to *beep*
He's just so racist and I keep getting the idea he keeps coming round and not caring if I live. I think he made me mad and start cursing, made me masturbate a lot, made me get in trouble with my parents forever for no good reason, and then made people, the whole world literally, want to kill me, hate on me 24/7, and spoil my reputation and the functioning of the world, for me. It's gotten me into a bad mental hospital and made me irritated for years.
I cannot believe what I awoke to. >^..^< ~ He almost killed me. I wasn't being totally serious. I was mad. He's, well, quite a joke. He's a movie star, doesn't need to be an uptight, disgusting perv. Always coming round with an insult like I deserve something bad. He doeesn't literally do that, which is why you don't see me seething at him, on YouTube... Stop picking on me because I'm maybe Native American!!!
NOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO? EVER EXPERIENCE A LOT OF PAIN LIKE THAT? WHAT ABOUT THE EGGS IN MY BODY AND MY FUTURE DAUGHTER?
What is Johnny Depp? That is of course worthless... Totally stupid. A racist ANIMAL. I don't act non-Caucasian.
I could delete it, but I was just mad and lots of people get mad worse ways, so, I guess you're all really just stupid and worthless.
Just because I got mad and he like ruined my reputation, which could probably literally kill me, and said I didn't really care if he ***** because I guess I was talking about like other people getting hurt and ****** constantly, I guess my perspective came up ... I awoke to the idea of him having, after ignoring the thoughts, and listenting to Baroque music on iTunes, of him having spun like my youngest daughter in the most pain you could think, like way up in the sky, for like maybe an hour or so, like all wound up. That's a reverberation of him, and I'd like to *beep*
He's just so racist and I keep getting the idea he keeps coming round and not caring if I live. I think he made me mad and start cursing, made me masturbate a lot, made me get in trouble with my parents forever for no good reason, and then made people, the whole world literally, want to kill me, hate on me 24/7, and spoil my reputation and the functioning of the world, for me. It's gotten me into a bad mental hospital and made me irritated for years.
I cannot believe what I awoke to. >^..^< ~ He almost killed me. I wasn't being totally serious. I was mad. He's, well, quite a joke. He's a movie star, doesn't need to be an uptight, disgusting perv. Always coming round with an insult like I deserve something bad. He doeesn't literally do that, which is why you don't see me seething at him, on YouTube... Stop picking on me because I'm maybe Native American!!!
NOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO? EVER EXPERIENCE A LOT OF PAIN LIKE THAT? WHAT ABOUT THE EGGS IN MY BODY AND MY FUTURE DAUGHTER?
What is Johnny Depp? That is of course worthless... Totally stupid. A racist ANIMAL. I don't act non-Caucasian.
I could delete it, but I was just mad and lots of people get mad worse ways, so, I guess you're all really just stupid and worthless.
Moms
So, what's it like having a mom who's born at a certain time, usually compare it to moms of other ages?
I mean how the people born around 1960, especially 1957-1961, are idealized.
I just explained how like it was your actual age and that like younger kids are younger in the style of their moms. I think it's sentimental and in a way you have choices.
I mean how the people born around 1960, especially 1957-1961, are idealized.
I just explained how like it was your actual age and that like younger kids are younger in the style of their moms. I think it's sentimental and in a way you have choices.
Get your nose outta my face!
Why don't people get their nose out of how my family eats? Do they want my dad to overeat over me, in the end?
Ellen With Kids 2
I really, like everyone else, like people born around 1957-1961. I mean the girls, dunno about guys, guys from 1949 or 1950 are cool.
So, I'm older but attached to my mom's generation|age but still am older. I like other women, too, but I just get so mad that Ellen is like not old enough to be my mom! I watch her show!
Anyway, I would indeed like to see the 15-year-olds be a fan of her, but now I feel a bit desensitized to it, like no one's out there, like no one my mom's age had a baby ... wait, they did! 8o It should work out, but for some reason my brother seems older. I don't know why. :| Probably because my mom moved to the U.S., plus my dad is older, but Nell Burton's dad was old but the same generation and class as Ellen.
I'm kinda sad. D*= I mean, since the "n" word thing, no one has accepted my kindness and I get rage on the internet. Thanks a lot, Nell Burton or Helena Bonham Carter! Not sure whose decision it was, maybe blame my dad, as well as maybe Johnny Depp??
I feel I hurt someone's feelings by saying that about Ellen, that she's not old enough to be my mom, that she will never have kids. I don't really understand. My aunt had a kid, but she's not like her and she's Italian, and my grandma doesn't like Italian.
So, she saw Zoey Deschanel, but isn't she like 20?
Hm. How old is Chloë Moretz? I dunno... I gotta find out... Oh, so she's }:D ... 16? No, she's 15! :D I wonder if she's looking for someone even younger. I don't know who's younger. Maybe, Chloë Moretz is ... shy. Chloë Moretz is just different, but I thought she was German and maybe French. She's definitely German, which is scary, so I wonder if she really is. Oh wow, it's not really funny. I think kids with parents a little younger than my dad are the counter to Ellen's generation, but I'm like over and above that so more like "what" she thinks she is. So, Chloë might be like German, Dutch, French, East German, or Swedish?
I just realized that people who are older can tickle you, pretty much, works out for people like born in like 1975 with people born in 1960. I guess the same goes for people born in 1970.
I used to think that people born in 1970 would be nice to see as parents, but I guess that I would feel kinda authoritative.
It seems like my generation and my brother's generation and around and in between are like too old for her and like of another generation's parents. Even the others with moms my age.
I'm wondering now about kids born in like 1997-2004.
I'm kinda special, like Chloë, I kinda act like I'm older.
I guess Ellen's kid would be born in 1997.
;| Now shutting down.
What will we do now? 8|
When I was 11, I felt I was old enough to parent kids. Hm, I moved in 1998, though, and that actually was my big time. :| I saw Kate Bush, though, and that's not like Ellen nor my mom but more like Tim Burton for some reason. I don't get it. Why is Tim Burton like Kate Bush and I gues other women born around that time? Just a different generation, kinda like Jodie Foster. Hm. I guess it's the people themselves that matter.
I wonder why some people as a baby are more like babies and others like grow to mature in how they feel instead of like feeling less. Shouldn't you have a peak of your life in the middle?
I don't think I ever would have submitted to someone. I felt like I wanted to but "never did." Wait, not in a bad way, though!
I'm trying to accept how older people are much older.
So, I hope my life gets better and better soon.
I'm still looking out for kids out there who are like ... 19. Or 15 for Ellen DeGeneres, the age her kids would be!
I'm confused, what kids "were supposed to watch her show" in the 2000s? The ones who were mean to people like me?
So, I'm older but attached to my mom's generation|age but still am older. I like other women, too, but I just get so mad that Ellen is like not old enough to be my mom! I watch her show!
Anyway, I would indeed like to see the 15-year-olds be a fan of her, but now I feel a bit desensitized to it, like no one's out there, like no one my mom's age had a baby ... wait, they did! 8o It should work out, but for some reason my brother seems older. I don't know why. :| Probably because my mom moved to the U.S., plus my dad is older, but Nell Burton's dad was old but the same generation and class as Ellen.
I'm kinda sad. D*= I mean, since the "n" word thing, no one has accepted my kindness and I get rage on the internet. Thanks a lot, Nell Burton or Helena Bonham Carter! Not sure whose decision it was, maybe blame my dad, as well as maybe Johnny Depp??
I feel I hurt someone's feelings by saying that about Ellen, that she's not old enough to be my mom, that she will never have kids. I don't really understand. My aunt had a kid, but she's not like her and she's Italian, and my grandma doesn't like Italian.
So, she saw Zoey Deschanel, but isn't she like 20?
Hm. How old is Chloë Moretz? I dunno... I gotta find out... Oh, so she's }:D ... 16? No, she's 15! :D I wonder if she's looking for someone even younger. I don't know who's younger. Maybe, Chloë Moretz is ... shy. Chloë Moretz is just different, but I thought she was German and maybe French. She's definitely German, which is scary, so I wonder if she really is. Oh wow, it's not really funny. I think kids with parents a little younger than my dad are the counter to Ellen's generation, but I'm like over and above that so more like "what" she thinks she is. So, Chloë might be like German, Dutch, French, East German, or Swedish?
I just realized that people who are older can tickle you, pretty much, works out for people like born in like 1975 with people born in 1960. I guess the same goes for people born in 1970.
I used to think that people born in 1970 would be nice to see as parents, but I guess that I would feel kinda authoritative.
It seems like my generation and my brother's generation and around and in between are like too old for her and like of another generation's parents. Even the others with moms my age.
I'm wondering now about kids born in like 1997-2004.
I'm kinda special, like Chloë, I kinda act like I'm older.
I guess Ellen's kid would be born in 1997.
;| Now shutting down.
What will we do now? 8|
When I was 11, I felt I was old enough to parent kids. Hm, I moved in 1998, though, and that actually was my big time. :| I saw Kate Bush, though, and that's not like Ellen nor my mom but more like Tim Burton for some reason. I don't get it. Why is Tim Burton like Kate Bush and I gues other women born around that time? Just a different generation, kinda like Jodie Foster. Hm. I guess it's the people themselves that matter.
I wonder why some people as a baby are more like babies and others like grow to mature in how they feel instead of like feeling less. Shouldn't you have a peak of your life in the middle?
I don't think I ever would have submitted to someone. I felt like I wanted to but "never did." Wait, not in a bad way, though!
I'm trying to accept how older people are much older.
So, I hope my life gets better and better soon.
I'm still looking out for kids out there who are like ... 19. Or 15 for Ellen DeGeneres, the age her kids would be!
I'm confused, what kids "were supposed to watch her show" in the 2000s? The ones who were mean to people like me?
Niggers, Again :}
Why does my dad react like an animal? Like you stupid nigger kids. I say something logical, and you grunt and sqeuak and squack and talk like an animal and walk like an animal...
Ellen With Kids
I guess she likes kids slightly younger than me for some odd reason ... let's see ... she is 28 1|2 years older than me. Also, my mom's age might make me different and I'm not sure about my dad's age. He's a lot older. I think younger kids generally get knocked out more but come out more tough later on... I am open to interacting with people. I'm not sure what style or generation I'd like to think of as parents, but it's nice to see pretty much the generation or so after have kids... 8| I guess I'm worried about that a lot of people younger than me that Ellen likes, not sure how old they'd be at this point, 15? I was thinking like a little younger than me, but I'm 26 now. :| I don't deny my mom's style. I think I'm a certain generation. I guess that's true. I don't know about the age of my egg. I guess that makes a difference, but I'm still younger. It definitely makes a difference how old you are! 80 That's what, the main thing, I think... It seems like it. I get along with women born around my mom's age well, as well as pretty much any older ladies. Let's think about this, though. If she likes kids who are 15, now, that means they would be ... she's born ... she's ... 54? So, she would have been 39 when they were born? When I was 15, I don't know, but I didn't watch TV! D8 I watched cartoons as a kid, well, mostly I watched all the episodes of "Doug" and "Rugrats." My brother is 21? I connect with other kids his age, though. Like, the ones with white hair are cute, but I think they got old and fat. Then, what about the kids who are like ... born 1993. They'd be 19, first year of college. I don't really get it. Well, my grandma is 2 years older than her mom. So, I guess she'd maybe have kids 2 years ltaer, 1995? That's when she did the ride at Disney. Those kids would be 17, though. So, if you're 16, she'd have been ... 37 for the other kids ... and 39 for if you're 15 now. Makes sense. So, who's 15???? 8|
What age would my mom be? That's a scary thought. My dad is born July 1950. Hm... The problem is I get on pretty well with ladies who are just a little younger than my dad and even older, so I dunno. Maybe, someone born in 1955? That's just 3 years before Ellen was born. So, that means that if I was born 3 years later, I'd now be 23 1|2 almost. The "n" word thing happened when I was 23 1|2. :| So, if I was 2 years younger, I'd be the age of my last year of college, like my brother, not a good time. If I was a little younger than that, I'd be the other ages I mentioned. :| I wonder what kinds of ages of moms she likes. Maybe, she likes that youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch." It seems the style went out of style after that, seeing as Jodie Foster was so different and I've seen other women, too. Also, my aunt is born a year before that, and my mom is born before that, so it's weird. I wish I could settle down and like relate to people with a style I like. I've seen women a bit younger than my mom, a bit older than my aunt, and it's an interesting experience. I guess I'm just used to other people.
I see she started at 27. :) I'm 26 1|2. YouTube. It seems my mom was more mature, but I seem to be able to be as mature as she was. :| I didn't try to be little to her, but I tried to be like her. I feel that women older than my father are too old for me, but I like a lot of them a lot. I somehow slip away or something and go on. My other aunt is just a few years younger than my dad. Late 1953. :| She always seemed too young for me because I was with my dad. I guess I did like the lady in Grease who was born in 1951, the one who did the TV show with the trains.
What age would my mom be? That's a scary thought. My dad is born July 1950. Hm... The problem is I get on pretty well with ladies who are just a little younger than my dad and even older, so I dunno. Maybe, someone born in 1955? That's just 3 years before Ellen was born. So, that means that if I was born 3 years later, I'd now be 23 1|2 almost. The "n" word thing happened when I was 23 1|2. :| So, if I was 2 years younger, I'd be the age of my last year of college, like my brother, not a good time. If I was a little younger than that, I'd be the other ages I mentioned. :| I wonder what kinds of ages of moms she likes. Maybe, she likes that youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch." It seems the style went out of style after that, seeing as Jodie Foster was so different and I've seen other women, too. Also, my aunt is born a year before that, and my mom is born before that, so it's weird. I wish I could settle down and like relate to people with a style I like. I've seen women a bit younger than my mom, a bit older than my aunt, and it's an interesting experience. I guess I'm just used to other people.
I see she started at 27. :) I'm 26 1|2. YouTube. It seems my mom was more mature, but I seem to be able to be as mature as she was. :| I didn't try to be little to her, but I tried to be like her. I feel that women older than my father are too old for me, but I like a lot of them a lot. I somehow slip away or something and go on. My other aunt is just a few years younger than my dad. Late 1953. :| She always seemed too young for me because I was with my dad. I guess I did like the lady in Grease who was born in 1951, the one who did the TV show with the trains.
Bad People
Do you know people are made to feel happy for no reason, at all?
Everything in the world is morally being fought for them!
Everything in the world is morally being fought for them!
Weirdos|Monsters
Do you know people who at any odds will test someone? Just because of something that happened, just go around being mean to everyone about anything?
Do you know people who have others take your place in the kind of relationship and distance you had?
Do you know people who have others take your place in the kind of relationship and distance you had?
Ellen DeGeneres
Do you really think she knows what she's doing? She like makes things go downhill for me. Like, I'm alone and suddenly I'll think of something.
Ellen DeGeneres
I was thinking it was funny, like Tim Burton, sometimes it seems so much like it's all about Portia, like in theory.
I just got upset. It's funny more people don't post online.
I know, with me, people like say I'm all that and then get mad when they don't get any attention. They try to rub it in. I know a lot of times I'm a favorite but not a teacher's pet. I'm that star that twinkles in the distance out of the corner of your eye. Like my dad said on his website he took down, with a story, too, and quotes and stuff I think, when it gets darker outside or something you can see the furthest stars the brightest.
I guess I should have kept my head from spinning or something and realized that Ellen is dedicated to everyone and that you have to respond, but I guess I was confused because of the "n" word thing, and it's like things have been taken away from me.
I'm beginning to think Tim Burton and his girlfriend think nothing matters that they do, but they need to QUIT GETTING MAD AT WHAT I DO AND WHAT MY MOM DOES AND AT MY DAD LIKE WE'RE NIGGERS! They're probably jealous they're not smart like the Chinese. Neither is Ellen DeGeneres. Why? Duh, they aren't Chinese nor do they wish to be nor should they. Except, Ellen seems to have a fetish with her mom's last name. I don't have a fetish with my mom's last name, at all, though. I guess I used to have a fetish with her traits from her dad, but I think that's gone now. Not sure why. It's just not there. Also, Helena Bonham Carter's mom's last name is Spanish, but her mom is mostly Jewish.
I just got upset. It's funny more people don't post online.
I know, with me, people like say I'm all that and then get mad when they don't get any attention. They try to rub it in. I know a lot of times I'm a favorite but not a teacher's pet. I'm that star that twinkles in the distance out of the corner of your eye. Like my dad said on his website he took down, with a story, too, and quotes and stuff I think, when it gets darker outside or something you can see the furthest stars the brightest.
I guess I should have kept my head from spinning or something and realized that Ellen is dedicated to everyone and that you have to respond, but I guess I was confused because of the "n" word thing, and it's like things have been taken away from me.
I'm beginning to think Tim Burton and his girlfriend think nothing matters that they do, but they need to QUIT GETTING MAD AT WHAT I DO AND WHAT MY MOM DOES AND AT MY DAD LIKE WE'RE NIGGERS! They're probably jealous they're not smart like the Chinese. Neither is Ellen DeGeneres. Why? Duh, they aren't Chinese nor do they wish to be nor should they. Except, Ellen seems to have a fetish with her mom's last name. I don't have a fetish with my mom's last name, at all, though. I guess I used to have a fetish with her traits from her dad, but I think that's gone now. Not sure why. It's just not there. Also, Helena Bonham Carter's mom's last name is Spanish, but her mom is mostly Jewish.
Picture in Background
For some reason, I couldn't get it down to a small size and so it's small. I mean the file size!!!!
My Grandma needs to, like, get the Hell away!
She's affected my relationship with my parents, and I don't know why.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Feelings
Aw, I know you're schizophrenic. Did I hurt your feelings? Because I want to torture people? You shouldn't be worried because I didn't really mean anything yet. I just mean that I will not be humiliated. I guess I can't change it, but it's how I will treat you. I won't really be mean to you, but I do not accept. You think I don't do anything at all, but you make yourself go in convulsions all over me? I want to know who and what caused it. Oooh, ha, I already know. So, why are you asking me a stupid questions?
Dream
So, I was in bed and feeling good and not feeling like anyone was doing it to me, but I "felt it in the sheets," I mean, like I felt like I was all my sheets, too. However, I think like dreaming, I was thinking of being like at a crack of a wall and like going over to it and facing it. Like kinda on the side. Imagining it was a person, and that person like ot me off and told me to stop.
I had a harsh dream I don't remember.
Well, I kinda remember the nature of it but feel tired from growing and eating. :|
I had a harsh dream I don't remember.
Well, I kinda remember the nature of it but feel tired from growing and eating. :|
Wow
Supposedly, my dad was mean to me and so people don't like him like before, but it's all Nell Burton's fault, Tim Burton, you selfish father!
Why should I sit here and figure out how to feed my dad when I'm sick and hungry myself?
Is there something wrong with my mom? Why does she think she feeds my dad well enough? I hate her stupid food. I don't even eat with them, now.
I really hate Nell Burton. I feel all sorts of things inflicted on me because of her. Her msideeds. Alls he is is hatred toward me. What use is that? At hermometeor.
How is my dad supposed to be alert to her whims and desires? She doesn't want to be Chinese? Fine. Then, don't eat Chinese food! Dummy! :^{
I don't want to mess up along the way.
Oh my God. Is my dad a martyr to bad food? My brother had chicken wings. He also started liking steak. I dunno, he had a noodle and other fixations. Early on.
This food is stupid. I like it, but I don't want to eat with my dad at home.
I don't like rice and shredded chicken. I want beef, soup, prepared vegetables, starches, some potatos, different kinds of noodles and things, European food, spicy food. There's no good soup at the store. I don't know how I'll have the time to make it. I'm not into cooking right now. My mom is busy, but she wasn't busy before. My dad is more questionable to me about food. He riles me up at the grocery store. Go rile up your sisters, you bastard.
My dad is mean to me. He wants to think I'm insignificant.
Why doesn't he get a grill and grill some steaks? I know he's on a diet, but a little beef should be good. That's what he eats out. My mom doesn't cook the cauliflower anymore, and I don't really know why but think that she should.
I really hate Nell Burton. I feel all sorts of things inflicted on me because of her. Her msideeds. Alls he is is hatred toward me. What use is that? At hermometeor.
How is my dad supposed to be alert to her whims and desires? She doesn't want to be Chinese? Fine. Then, don't eat Chinese food! Dummy! :^{
I don't want to mess up along the way.
Oh my God. Is my dad a martyr to bad food? My brother had chicken wings. He also started liking steak. I dunno, he had a noodle and other fixations. Early on.
This food is stupid. I like it, but I don't want to eat with my dad at home.
I don't like rice and shredded chicken. I want beef, soup, prepared vegetables, starches, some potatos, different kinds of noodles and things, European food, spicy food. There's no good soup at the store. I don't know how I'll have the time to make it. I'm not into cooking right now. My mom is busy, but she wasn't busy before. My dad is more questionable to me about food. He riles me up at the grocery store. Go rile up your sisters, you bastard.
My dad is mean to me. He wants to think I'm insignificant.
Why doesn't he get a grill and grill some steaks? I know he's on a diet, but a little beef should be good. That's what he eats out. My mom doesn't cook the cauliflower anymore, and I don't really know why but think that she should.
I *BEEEP*
It seems Ellen DeGeneres thinks she has something against me. She's not very nice, herself, really. She's just not that much of an honest person who deserves to know the truth of what can happen to her. As long as I'm around.
I can say whatever I want. I'm not some uptight hokey. You're not in the world. You don't even know what life is. That's probably why no one watches, WHAT THEY SAY WHAT YOU THINK IS OKAY FOR OTHER PEOPLE TO SAY WHO KNOW ABOUT YOU... your "stupid" show.
My dad is better off ****. I can really h... him. I wanna wipe that ... "silly" grin off his FACE!
I don't care "what" you say. I'll corner you and hunt you down and then t... you.
I can say whatever I want. I'm not some uptight hokey. You're not in the world. You don't even know what life is. That's probably why no one watches, WHAT THEY SAY WHAT YOU THINK IS OKAY FOR OTHER PEOPLE TO SAY WHO KNOW ABOUT YOU... your "stupid" show.
My dad is better off ****. I can really h... him. I wanna wipe that ... "silly" grin off his FACE!
I don't care "what" you say. I'll corner you and hunt you down and then t... you.
I want to *beep*
I just felt something unpleasant in my egg sacks. I caught on something. Anyway, it felt like the whites of toenails or fingernails and not in a good way. I felt it more prominently. I don't think that had to happen. Hm. I hope you all never have babies! I'm mad beyond belief. I want to **** my psychiatrist, too.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, my dad is just a nigger, a disgusting failure of a human being who can't shut up and leave me be like my mom, same with my aunts, they're just brats.
Thanks to the niggers in England for their saucy, dirty, stupid influence. Go put yourselves together and stop seeking out successes in the U.S. to correct.
I'm tired of this Irish shit, too.
Don't even get me started with "Scottish" Americans.
I can do whatever I want. Stop playing games.
I don't CARE ABOUT MY DAD'S STUPID SISTERS. I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO SAY THAT THIS IS WORTHLESS.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, my dad is just a nigger, a disgusting failure of a human being who can't shut up and leave me be like my mom, same with my aunts, they're just brats.
Thanks to the niggers in England for their saucy, dirty, stupid influence. Go put yourselves together and stop seeking out successes in the U.S. to correct.
I'm tired of this Irish shit, too.
Don't even get me started with "Scottish" Americans.
I can do whatever I want. Stop playing games.
I don't CARE ABOUT MY DAD'S STUPID SISTERS. I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO SAY THAT THIS IS WORTHLESS.
Don't start.
Some people with Native American are really forward with Europeans. Don't think we can't like do what we want and even be mean to you without you getting back at us until you go mad.
ELLEN DEGENERES
I AM NOT PORTIA. I AM NOT ITALIAN. I AM NOT AUSTRALIAN. WHY ARE YOU INFLUENCING MY PARENTS TO BE MEAN TO WONE ANOTHER?
MY DAD REALLY IS RETARDED
BUT THERE ISN'T ANY GOOD MEDICINE OUT THERE!!!!
He thinks we need to get ready for the world, but lets just hurt other people.
He thinks we need to get ready for the world, but lets just hurt other people.
Stop treating me like a nigger.
You can't say I can't do something.
What else was I thinking?
Well, I can sense jealousy seeping in. Why do you think you're the only one who can be jealous of me? What do you think I am, your VooDoo doll? I'm not a nigger, at any rate!
What else was I thinking?
Well, I can sense jealousy seeping in. Why do you think you're the only one who can be jealous of me? What do you think I am, your VooDoo doll? I'm not a nigger, at any rate!
My dad is weak..
Wow, I must make my dad collapse to his knees. I already am way smarter than my mom, you niggers. My mom has made me strong, my whole life, but my brother is a weakling..
YOU STUPID NIGGERS
There's this boy online who's dad, who is about 5 years older than my dad died, and it seems that people want my dad to die. Wow, go **** your own dads, you stupid niggers.
ELLEN DEGENERES
STOP PAYING ATTENTION TO OLD PEOPLE AND PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME! WHY DON'T YOU EVER TALK? D*:
Tim Burton is a *beep*
Why doesn't he just pick one side? He's a weakling. He is a bad man. He shouldn't have a daughter.
I care about my dad you stupid niggers.
If I don't DIE and go to Hell I could torture you slowly because I am the most powerful woman in the whole world and caused things like Hurricane Katrina.
My grandma is so stupid.
I don't want to say that, but she is like skirting around issues like that's my life, picking on my family all the time in hidden ways! What a sick grandma. The world is at her feet. A nation waits, and how it hates to be cheated.
JOHNNY DEPP
NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR STUPID, SICK, MISERABLE LIFE AND YOUR FAILURES IN YOUR FAMILY AFFAIR. I DON'T CARE IF *deleted*! BECAUSE YOU SUCK UP TO PEOPLE LIKE MY DAD.
I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT TO YOU NIGGER
STOP PICKING ON MY MOM. YOU RUINED MY LIFE. GO BACK TO HELL.
SHUT UP DAD, YOU STUPID, GOOD FOR NOTHING AMERICAN.
YOU CAN'T MAKE A HOME. GO **** YOURSELF FOR MAKING ME LIKE MICHAEL!
SHUT UP DAD, YOU STUPID, GOOD FOR NOTHING AMERICAN.
YOU CAN'T MAKE A HOME. GO **** YOURSELF FOR MAKING ME LIKE MICHAEL!
I'll just sit here and post hate messages to my disgusting, sick, nigger dad.
I don't have a dad.
I have an idiot who abuses women.
All I see is his shit around the house for thinking he had nothing to do with getting me to call someone the "n" word, which doesn't matter, except it may have hurt this person, though I was asked to do it and this person wanted me to do it.
His life is not even worth living or something. I don't know what I'm thinking.
Oh, and fucking **** his sister for mimicking me like a retard. He's influenced him too much. I'm kidding. I didn't say anything out loud. :| I have a right to for the suggestions she's had me sit with throughout the past 15 years. I just don't know what to say. I don't mean it literally, retards!
I have an idiot who abuses women.
All I see is his shit around the house for thinking he had nothing to do with getting me to call someone the "n" word, which doesn't matter, except it may have hurt this person, though I was asked to do it and this person wanted me to do it.
His life is not even worth living or something. I don't know what I'm thinking.
Oh, and fucking **** his sister for mimicking me like a retard. He's influenced him too much. I'm kidding. I didn't say anything out loud. :| I have a right to for the suggestions she's had me sit with throughout the past 15 years. I just don't know what to say. I don't mean it literally, retards!
My dad is the most retarded person in the world.
I'm really hurt. How else can I say something like this?
He is so stupid and sucks up to his mom at age 60 something, and he says she should be dead. Go **** yourself.
He is so stupid and sucks up to his mom at age 60 something, and he says she should be dead. Go **** yourself.
HIT }:{
Now, I'm imagining shit from someone else.
Don't do it. I kinda don't mind if it happened to you.
Don't do it. I kinda don't mind if it happened to you.
>^,,^<~ meow
Stop acting like you're "what" because you're not good enough, like you "did it" to make us not look as bad. Don't get into my wording, too much for me to think about right now. You're just racist and categorical.
Visions
I have bad visions caused by the interest of multiple people when I'm trying to settle in.
People don't have what they think they can offer. That's the problem to begin with, hard to think of again and getting tired of doing this. Maybe later, though? Dunno if it's the best idea, though...
Ever since the "n" word thing, I've been like tortured mentally constantly and been unable to function, like I don't care about anyone and want all the attention, which I don't even GET!
I didn't get it all my life, in a way, it seemed, well, not for large portions of it, constantly, like never a totally ideal life, well maybe once... And, now, how would you like to be told you're wrong because other people have families and like make a big deal of it and stuff... Like, don't get into what's not there. How would you like to be the one people are mean to? Like, it's because you're not white or something? It's just what everyone's been doing.
People don't have what they think they can offer. That's the problem to begin with, hard to think of again and getting tired of doing this. Maybe later, though? Dunno if it's the best idea, though...
Ever since the "n" word thing, I've been like tortured mentally constantly and been unable to function, like I don't care about anyone and want all the attention, which I don't even GET!
I didn't get it all my life, in a way, it seemed, well, not for large portions of it, constantly, like never a totally ideal life, well maybe once... And, now, how would you like to be told you're wrong because other people have families and like make a big deal of it and stuff... Like, don't get into what's not there. How would you like to be the one people are mean to? Like, it's because you're not white or something? It's just what everyone's been doing.
Can't Hide Anything
I just can't hide anything, can I? Do you have to be rich and famous to be happy? :6 LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Did not count.)
Problem?
You think I was messed up in the womb. Well, I probably have the same desires and goals to surmount. I bet you'd come out looking like a retarded Asian if you were me, I'm almost 100% sure of it all the time. I've seen living proof and online. I'm sure of this. Now I don't care about your sperm. I'm not my dad. I'm another person. He has faults I don't have. I'm another WHITE PERSON, YOU BLOOMIN IDIOTS. WHITE PEOPLE ARE JUDGED AS INDIVIDUALS. EVERYONE KNOWS THAT. PEOPLE OF OTHER RACES ARE CATEGORIZED TO BE UNDERSTOOD. This is an idea that has been going around since the 80s and maybe before I was born! It was constant, a big deal, not always spoken of but I think I've heard of it enough it seems, maybe in those tacky influxes of the voice, those nasal, tacky, mellow suck ups of the 80s, 90s, 00s, and the present!
Imperfect, Unaccomplished, and Lazy
You're just racist, mad someone else will do something dramatic.
It's very suggestive, indeed. It's something to try to formulate a thought on. Probably not worth it.
You think it's not about what you do but how spoiled you are, that you don't get "that feeling" taken away from you, that you get mad if something good happens to someone else, something I've felt, though I didn't hurt anyone for it. :| :6
It's very suggestive, indeed. It's something to try to formulate a thought on. Probably not worth it.
You think it's not about what you do but how spoiled you are, that you don't get "that feeling" taken away from you, that you get mad if something good happens to someone else, something I've felt, though I didn't hurt anyone for it. :| :6
Niggers
You think you're so saucy, mimicking me. Going behind my back like you were scared away and then still being mean to me, like I can't be mean to you and taking me of my dignity.
Also, do not hold me accountable for deciding to do this. I feel very irritated. It's affecting me and putting disturbing images in my mind's eye.
Also, do not hold me accountable for deciding to do this. I feel very irritated. It's affecting me and putting disturbing images in my mind's eye.
Leave me alone!
All you'll come back to is getting mad for putting curse words concretely in my head.
Also, I don't care about your queasiness. Get out of my life!
Also, I don't care about your queasiness. Get out of my life!
Oh wow
Have fun making the same mistakes again and being mean to me because you're not white, being mean to me like that wasn't what got you in trouble in the first place.
Also, you pushed me to think of curse words, and now I can't get them out of my head. So, don't BE MEAN TO ME FOR SHIT LIKE THAT. I'm trying to get rid of the thoughts, but curse words aren't that bad. It's what you do, and I used to not curse.
Also, you pushed me to think of curse words, and now I can't get them out of my head. So, don't BE MEAN TO ME FOR SHIT LIKE THAT. I'm trying to get rid of the thoughts, but curse words aren't that bad. It's what you do, and I used to not curse.
My Grandma
She's pretty harsh now, but so are other people, really, it's okay for them to be mean to me but not the other way around.
REALLY MAD
I keep feeling a swirling, well more of a shifting around of pressure, like where I think my egg sacks are. Ever since I talked to my grandma every day to read the Bible, it's been happening. I think I was sensitive to it, before, but who knows why, really. Like, if I was a little upset because she was being bad because of the "n" word thing, all night I would feel that, like stress to make it stop and not pulse and stuff. It doesn't pulse now. It's kinda neat, maybe finally gaining some control over my parts. Anyway, so, yea, I feel it a lot, when I think of it, it happens. I don't seem to think much, anymore.
Meanies
Stop teasing me about my thoughts with the "n" word thing.
I can do whatever I want that is legal.
Wow, my life sure has been ruined for nothing. It seems other people are the mean, conventional ones.
I can do whatever I want that is legal.
Wow, my life sure has been ruined for nothing. It seems other people are the mean, conventional ones.
Meanies
I really don't care what some people think and wants thoughts of them out of my life.
If someone did something and it was wrong but made it seem nice to me is not bad and should not be suggested as such.
I don't need to play games because I'm not going to interact with you in a certain way, so just GO AWAY! Stop bringing up people to molest you for you because you want to be mean to me.
If someone did something and it was wrong but made it seem nice to me is not bad and should not be suggested as such.
I don't need to play games because I'm not going to interact with you in a certain way, so just GO AWAY! Stop bringing up people to molest you for you because you want to be mean to me.
Mad
So, you can't make other people feel uncomfortable for what they did in fear. They probably didn't mean it but made up a reason.
If someone had a hard life, then you could have a hard life, too.
It seems that some people have racial problems of their own.
I'm sure that Tim Burton is being clunky. He's mellow, and his daughter has been mellowed.
Ellen DeGeneres is a show-off! She wants to get attention for being bad.
If someone had a hard life, then you could have a hard life, too.
It seems that some people have racial problems of their own.
I'm sure that Tim Burton is being clunky. He's mellow, and his daughter has been mellowed.
Ellen DeGeneres is a show-off! She wants to get attention for being bad.
My Type
I think people want me to be an INTP. That's what my dad is. I don't really think, though. 8|
@TheEllenShow
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.I think you are O but not as O as me, D but not as D as me, C, and D. Maybe the same as me in D. So, you are a ODCD, and I am an ODFD.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
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Supposedly, from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I've realized people think the world is SPs, SJs, and Intuitives. I ended up deciding it was all ESFPs. There are lots of ESTJs, and don't talk about ESFJs, please! I'm not sure what type I am, but I think my mistake was that people were sure I was a Thinking type. At first, I was Introverted, maybe like a 9 or a 10. I think I just said I did pick up the phone when it rang. However, so many times in a row over the years w|o ceasing I've been exactly half and half. I'm big on that you change throughout life, and I will stand firm by that belief. I guess the funny thing was maybe I was a Perceiver. As for Sensing and Intuiting, I'm not sure. Let's just say I'm an EXTP. However, I'm defintely a Feeler, now, or am becoming one. So, then, I'd be an EXSP. Wait, EXFP. It seems, as a feeler, I'd be a Sensor, though I'm not really sure why. I just don't want to be an INFX. I don't know how Introverted I can really be. I like to express myself. That's probably why the types aren't balanced.
Let's see what really divides the population, and in order but more than one thing... So, some people like to hold in their true feelings, some people like to lie, some people don't like to admit they feel, and some people don't plan on anything. So, that would separate the good guys from the bad ones. I've connected this to the Enneagram, as have the books I read, which isn't many. I also know there are people who don't feel what they want to feel. I used to be like that. I would feel differently than I thought. Not until I grew up and moved to Orlando did that eventually change. Well, I also went up north for college, and I suppose that's when the process began. I still might have been a Feeler had I not moved to the New Orleans area. Hm. A car just roared|zoomed by. ':0 Yes, and everyone is affected by their environment in different ways because of race, but it changes, like persoality types do. That just means we should all be ESFJs, but I'm not busy planning anything. 8) When I think, I feel I'm interacting. I don't plan experiences and then not feel what I think...
It's hard to say we all have different personalities. Is intuiting really thinking and judging? Are we all either ES ... INTJs, ENTJs, and ... ESFJs, ESTJs? I'm wondering what my cousin is. She was supposedly an ESFP, but I don't think so. She's too wild to feel and think. She's not very extraverted anymore nor ever communicated much, was just loud. I know I seem blunt, but so is everyone else. :p She's affected my life is why I bring this up here. She's not here, and no one talks to me. So, she must be an INTJ. I wonder what her mom is. Maybe an ENTP. I have another aunt. She's probably an ENFJ. My grandma is probably an INTP, like my dad. My mom may be an ... ENFP.
It's funny, I used to live thinking I was an INFP. I don't know why I wasn't an INFJ. I just wasn't. I didn't have time to practice piano. You'd think being an NF would mean being the most artistic. I guess INFPs and ESFPs are artistic.
So, I'm guessing it'd be good to find out how many people are what. I'm guessing most people are really Feelers, unless they are Judgers or professers. Most people have chosen they are realistic people, Sensors. Then, I guess being a Judger and a Perceiver comes in, and Perceivers are like Intuiters. It doesn't have to be that way. Maybe, they are "like Feelers."
I still want to make new categories!
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
Let's see what really divides the population, and in order but more than one thing... So, some people like to hold in their true feelings, some people like to lie, some people don't like to admit they feel, and some people don't plan on anything. So, that would separate the good guys from the bad ones. I've connected this to the Enneagram, as have the books I read, which isn't many. I also know there are people who don't feel what they want to feel. I used to be like that. I would feel differently than I thought. Not until I grew up and moved to Orlando did that eventually change. Well, I also went up north for college, and I suppose that's when the process began. I still might have been a Feeler had I not moved to the New Orleans area. Hm. A car just roared|zoomed by. ':0 Yes, and everyone is affected by their environment in different ways because of race, but it changes, like persoality types do. That just means we should all be ESFJs, but I'm not busy planning anything. 8) When I think, I feel I'm interacting. I don't plan experiences and then not feel what I think...
It's hard to say we all have different personalities. Is intuiting really thinking and judging? Are we all either ES ... INTJs, ENTJs, and ... ESFJs, ESTJs? I'm wondering what my cousin is. She was supposedly an ESFP, but I don't think so. She's too wild to feel and think. She's not very extraverted anymore nor ever communicated much, was just loud. I know I seem blunt, but so is everyone else. :p She's affected my life is why I bring this up here. She's not here, and no one talks to me. So, she must be an INTJ. I wonder what her mom is. Maybe an ENTP. I have another aunt. She's probably an ENFJ. My grandma is probably an INTP, like my dad. My mom may be an ... ENFP.
It's funny, I used to live thinking I was an INFP. I don't know why I wasn't an INFJ. I just wasn't. I didn't have time to practice piano. You'd think being an NF would mean being the most artistic. I guess INFPs and ESFPs are artistic.
So, I'm guessing it'd be good to find out how many people are what. I'm guessing most people are really Feelers, unless they are Judgers or professers. Most people have chosen they are realistic people, Sensors. Then, I guess being a Judger and a Perceiver comes in, and Perceivers are like Intuiters. It doesn't have to be that way. Maybe, they are "like Feelers."
I still want to make new categories!
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
Helena Bonham Carter
... She really gets a temper, sometimes. Don't people who have schizophrenia do that? I understand that Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka is like that. Hm... I was thinking, my mom is Chinese-Indonesian... My dad has Native American and Jewish. Helena Bonham Carter doesn't. No one should react to her. I've often thought people with moms who aren't all white are just spoiled rotten!
I'm unsure, too, because, like, Helena Bonham Carter waited so late to have kids withs such an old man... I don't really like her kids? I do, I mean, but it's like they're "not allowed to play with me." That doesn't make them look good.
I'm not sure what's wrong with their kids. I guess being Jewish, as well as Spanish, takes its toll on them??
I wonder if its because their parents are so young. I'm not sure if my life could be like theirs, not in this lifetime nor ever, I think. I guess they make a big deal over little things. I don't get stimulated that easily.
I'm not sure why I got stimulated when I was younger. I thought it was from doing gymnastics, but I only went once a week. I think I tried harder than anyone else and did it at home but not like a lot all the time. I had already thought I should quit, but my brother was born and my mom asked if I wanted to stay and I said yes. She later said she wants each kid in one activity, but my brother didn't do sports until he was 6 1|2.
I did art, as well, but I wouldn't say it's what stimulated me, at the time. It felt kinda pleasurable, not really wrong, but it kinda stayed with me. I can't feel it, anymore, though.
I used to be more stimulated seeing people pick up kids, but I don't really do that like that. I understand it but don't like think about it concretely all the time.
I feel "good," now, almost died from eating but took a heart pill. I usually take a bunch of pills daily. I haven't worked out in awhile, neither.
I don't understand how you could get uppity for someone else in the world enjoying themselves. I mean, you can't literally go ahead and attack that person. I understand you can do things in other ways, but most people don't.
Go bother someone else! It would do them good. They can't be hurt the way I can. :S I used to be like them, in an earlier day.
I did get a lot from people I talked to, but it's always been a trade-off. It sorta is like pieced together shit. Well, concretely, I'd say I really was shit, but my thoughts aren't shit. So, other people do think shit, I know. I probably did at one point, too, but got tired of it. :(
My grandma is rough with me nowadays. It's other people who also want her to "be" unpleasing and are like rubbing in the older people in my family in ways that don't suit each one individually. It turns out I'm not so cool. I think okay, but I'm like shit. Well, not really, but part of me is, I think. :S
I'm still mad that the world is like about Tim Burton in his unsucceessful relationship with Helena Bonham Carter. He seems to think he's over and above me. I feel so winded by him and Johnny Depp it isn't funny.
Also, I can enjoy myself and you can't like associate every good thing with something that went wrong. It might seem obvious, but it was obviously set up and I deserve what I have, which isn't much.
I find people are mean to me because of my race. It's always been that way, though. :|
Don't tell me like I had it easier because sorry I didn't sorry to burst your bubble, but I assume you have problems, as well.
Me technically being Native American seems to get in the way. However, it's also a benefit, just something to deal with that you have to be careful about.
I'm not sure what I'd be like if I wasn't Native American. Native Americans are strong and in tune with nature, but I'm not from Alaska. I have relatives from the northern Scottish islands but maybe not a huge hunk, unsure though, might be from a long time ago but dunno.
I really don't get why the world centers on Italians and also around Jews against Chinese and Native Americans. Or Chinese, at least. Hm. Anything that's against Chinese who are competition. That's Tim Burton and his daughter Nell, but Billy is good. I like Nell, though. Hm. Her dad is older than my mom. Maybe that's why. She's cute, too...
I'm unsure, too, because, like, Helena Bonham Carter waited so late to have kids withs such an old man... I don't really like her kids? I do, I mean, but it's like they're "not allowed to play with me." That doesn't make them look good.
I'm not sure what's wrong with their kids. I guess being Jewish, as well as Spanish, takes its toll on them??
I wonder if its because their parents are so young. I'm not sure if my life could be like theirs, not in this lifetime nor ever, I think. I guess they make a big deal over little things. I don't get stimulated that easily.
I'm not sure why I got stimulated when I was younger. I thought it was from doing gymnastics, but I only went once a week. I think I tried harder than anyone else and did it at home but not like a lot all the time. I had already thought I should quit, but my brother was born and my mom asked if I wanted to stay and I said yes. She later said she wants each kid in one activity, but my brother didn't do sports until he was 6 1|2.
I did art, as well, but I wouldn't say it's what stimulated me, at the time. It felt kinda pleasurable, not really wrong, but it kinda stayed with me. I can't feel it, anymore, though.
I used to be more stimulated seeing people pick up kids, but I don't really do that like that. I understand it but don't like think about it concretely all the time.
I feel "good," now, almost died from eating but took a heart pill. I usually take a bunch of pills daily. I haven't worked out in awhile, neither.
I don't understand how you could get uppity for someone else in the world enjoying themselves. I mean, you can't literally go ahead and attack that person. I understand you can do things in other ways, but most people don't.
Go bother someone else! It would do them good. They can't be hurt the way I can. :S I used to be like them, in an earlier day.
I did get a lot from people I talked to, but it's always been a trade-off. It sorta is like pieced together shit. Well, concretely, I'd say I really was shit, but my thoughts aren't shit. So, other people do think shit, I know. I probably did at one point, too, but got tired of it. :(
My grandma is rough with me nowadays. It's other people who also want her to "be" unpleasing and are like rubbing in the older people in my family in ways that don't suit each one individually. It turns out I'm not so cool. I think okay, but I'm like shit. Well, not really, but part of me is, I think. :S
I'm still mad that the world is like about Tim Burton in his unsucceessful relationship with Helena Bonham Carter. He seems to think he's over and above me. I feel so winded by him and Johnny Depp it isn't funny.
Also, I can enjoy myself and you can't like associate every good thing with something that went wrong. It might seem obvious, but it was obviously set up and I deserve what I have, which isn't much.
I find people are mean to me because of my race. It's always been that way, though. :|
Don't tell me like I had it easier because sorry I didn't sorry to burst your bubble, but I assume you have problems, as well.
Me technically being Native American seems to get in the way. However, it's also a benefit, just something to deal with that you have to be careful about.
I'm not sure what I'd be like if I wasn't Native American. Native Americans are strong and in tune with nature, but I'm not from Alaska. I have relatives from the northern Scottish islands but maybe not a huge hunk, unsure though, might be from a long time ago but dunno.
I really don't get why the world centers on Italians and also around Jews against Chinese and Native Americans. Or Chinese, at least. Hm. Anything that's against Chinese who are competition. That's Tim Burton and his daughter Nell, but Billy is good. I like Nell, though. Hm. Her dad is older than my mom. Maybe that's why. She's cute, too...
Older Parents
When I meet women who are older than me, I guess I feel a lot. I know there's a lot of calculating involved. I think Nell Burton is the opposite.
Wait, I mean women who are older than my dad. I like women between my parents's age, but I haven't yet met any born 1955-1956 that catch my fancy.
Wait, I mean women who are older than my dad. I like women between my parents's age, but I haven't yet met any born 1955-1956 that catch my fancy.
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