Monday, October 8, 2012

Dream

I remember the first one was like a locker in like a mental hospital all dark, there was like this big machine that was all dark and shiny.  I guess it had doors in it.  It was probably like a place where kids stayed and got tortured.  There weren't many people there that I remember.  I think someone was there I wanted to put my arm around at the mall or something.  I remember now kinda.  There were other people in it.

The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa.  There was this ride.  First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me.  It was about how I didn't like big drops.  So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles.  I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos.  Then we were to go on the ride.  Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride.  I remember my mom was outside waiting, too.  My friend was there.  I made a new friend.  A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny.  So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.

I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams.  It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.

I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice.  The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now.  I was trying to feel okay but things happened.  It did feel pushed on me.  I blame the thing with Johnny Depp.  I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting.  I felt better last night in some ways.  It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess.  I just feel like it in bed, though.  I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance.  I do need new bed covers...  I don't know if I will get them.  My room is messy in a way, for some reason.  I know I need to ORDER ear plus.  It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me.  I woke up and turned off the music.  Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.

Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed.  I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit.  A bit stimulated.  It should cease.  I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it.  See, people are really bad.  Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected.  I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others!  I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably.  It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.

So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food.  I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat.  I need to learn to cook, too.

I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk.  Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.

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