I remember the first one was like a locker in like a mental hospital all dark, there was like this big machine that was all dark and shiny. I guess it had doors in it. It was probably like a place where kids stayed and got tortured. There weren't many people there that I remember. I think someone was there I wanted to put my arm around at the mall or something. I remember now kinda. There were other people in it.
The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa. There was this ride. First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me. It was about how I didn't like big drops. So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles. I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos. Then we were to go on the ride. Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride. I remember my mom was outside waiting, too. My friend was there. I made a new friend. A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny. So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.
I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams. It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.
I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice. The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now. I was trying to feel okay but things happened. It did feel pushed on me. I blame the thing with Johnny Depp. I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting. I felt better last night in some ways. It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess. I just feel like it in bed, though. I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance. I do need new bed covers... I don't know if I will get them. My room is messy in a way, for some reason. I know I need to ORDER ear plus. It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me. I woke up and turned off the music. Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.
Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed. I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit. A bit stimulated. It should cease. I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it. See, people are really bad. Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected. I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others! I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably. It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.
So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food. I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat. I need to learn to cook, too.
I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk. Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.
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