Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Publix
I was at the grocery and looking at the pads for like 10 minutes. I finally saw a 2nd one I liked that had like twice as much.
Cracker Barrel
I didn't get my dessert! However, I ordered my appetizer early, not getting it next time.
Dream
The most memorable in a way, well not exactly, was at first. I can't remember, but, for some reason, I needed to be comforted, was pretty sad, needed "my mommy" or something... My mom would just shape me up and not act mushy. So there was "this lady..." She looked like that Swedish singer on YouTube, Siw Inger, in "Di Zeit is Reit" or something, but supposedly it was Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres. So, she was like sitting on a block or something. It wasn't really like it was her or anyone. I guess, I thought of it since I made the pictures with her. Come to think of it, she reminded me of a girl with a drawl at a hotel in Texas during a hurricane with bleached hair saying she I think wanted to "go to the store." So, this person I imagined cuddled me I guess sitting down on the smooth, clean floor, kinda like an art building, next to her. I just realized Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres has those yellow blocks she sits on in her profile picture I know on Twitter and YouTube I think. The blocks in my dream were white. I guss other people were there, kids and like an obese boy, and somehow she lay on her back, not like anyone in real life much at all at this point nor ever in a way extremely much in a way, and so I was like strattling over her waste and she was probably rubbing me or something. I was still sad. She tried to pick me up but couldn't. She was much bigger than me. I guess the bottom of her bust was to my armpits. She like jerked me up a few times and made a face, like seething her teeth or something. I laughed and thought like I said well what did you think, thinking of myself weighted down but not thinking at the moment directly that I needed to lose body fat.
I guess my next dream was most satisfying. My aunt just fixed up my hair in a high ponytail. I was in Pennsylvania, where my ancestors are from, and I was getting ready but all alive saying, after my cousin said I'm the shyest girl which she's the opposite, in Florida I'm shy, people go around like this, and I acted all agitated constantly looking around and realized and said I'm not shy in Pennsylvania, which I didn't feel so supple when I was there.
So, I was like leaning into my aunt, and it felt good, different, probably not how I feel in real life concerning her.
Something disturbing, I was in a room with 2 boys. I was finishing up a long thin kinda bigger bottle of like orange soda. I think I was lying down, maybe had to go to the bathroom, thinking of things like test tubes. The boys goy my dad. Somehow, it made me upset, and I think my mom came in, but in a way I don't think so.
Oh yes, when I woke up after the lady, my arms mostly were trembling, like as though I did that to myself, and then my legs were, too, for some reason.
So, I was upset at my dad and imagined for some reason, in kinda an offset way I didn't like, maybe because I was lazy, that I was being comforted for getting mad but not hysterical.
I think the happiest part was in Pennsylvania. There was a nice-looking girl who came in with a younger sister, who was pretty young, and she took an interest in me. She seemed so interesting, it was neat when I saw her spark up as she exited the room. I was also talking to a shorter, fatter brunette.
I know, I feel very like stiff and weighted, almost like trembling, from doing weight training, strength training. I haven't done much of that in my life.
Okay, so, then, I woke up again, and I imagined that my hand was being held, then someone putting their arm around my shoulder, and then picking me up. "I wonder what that means?"
I wanted to stay in bed but finally decided to get up!
I guess my next dream was most satisfying. My aunt just fixed up my hair in a high ponytail. I was in Pennsylvania, where my ancestors are from, and I was getting ready but all alive saying, after my cousin said I'm the shyest girl which she's the opposite, in Florida I'm shy, people go around like this, and I acted all agitated constantly looking around and realized and said I'm not shy in Pennsylvania, which I didn't feel so supple when I was there.
So, I was like leaning into my aunt, and it felt good, different, probably not how I feel in real life concerning her.
Something disturbing, I was in a room with 2 boys. I was finishing up a long thin kinda bigger bottle of like orange soda. I think I was lying down, maybe had to go to the bathroom, thinking of things like test tubes. The boys goy my dad. Somehow, it made me upset, and I think my mom came in, but in a way I don't think so.
Oh yes, when I woke up after the lady, my arms mostly were trembling, like as though I did that to myself, and then my legs were, too, for some reason.
So, I was upset at my dad and imagined for some reason, in kinda an offset way I didn't like, maybe because I was lazy, that I was being comforted for getting mad but not hysterical.
I think the happiest part was in Pennsylvania. There was a nice-looking girl who came in with a younger sister, who was pretty young, and she took an interest in me. She seemed so interesting, it was neat when I saw her spark up as she exited the room. I was also talking to a shorter, fatter brunette.
I know, I feel very like stiff and weighted, almost like trembling, from doing weight training, strength training. I haven't done much of that in my life.
Okay, so, then, I woke up again, and I imagined that my hand was being held, then someone putting their arm around my shoulder, and then picking me up. "I wonder what that means?"
I wanted to stay in bed but finally decided to get up!
Overly Obsessed With Children
I guess people born around 1960 have a big obsession with their children.
I imagine people with young fathers have cute kids, but isn't it ideal sometimes when the man is more mature and the woman is more youthful?
I imagine people with young fathers have cute kids, but isn't it ideal sometimes when the man is more mature and the woman is more youthful?
Not Feeling Anything
I do feel something, but like in another way I don't. Like, I feel comforts. It's hard to say how I didn't feel..
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Oh, yes, I am worried because my dad is born so much before my mom. How will I ever be like her? I was thinking, why would I say I want a mom of a different style? Why would I want to be like another woman?
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So, I went at watched his deceased wife on YouTube and posted it on my blog. Wasn't she good? She was born just like a month before Johnny Depp, didn't have even to look it up. She reminds me a lot of you. Wow, people born just a little after you and into, well into the future, have a very condensed look, for some reason, and I don't know why! I saw the girl who played Veruca in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the original movie. She was born I think about a year before you or 1|2 year. She looks very different now. I don't quite understand how you do it. I feel that people born like at certain times have this more metally look, like a sorta undetailed shaped head. I guess you go through steps in life, meet certain requirements, which is what I ended up doing, not how I wanted it. I would have been happy to have been like you, compared to how I was, but I was pretty smart, anyway, because I did art and things. Tim Burton is attractive. I also did gymnastics once a week as a kid. I wonder if he exercised more than me. He did swimming in high school. I've met people like that. :| I just started doing strength training now. I guess people'd want to know I did ballet, too, when it was available. I usually only went once a week. Audrey Hepburn did ballet, too, everyone knows... I think it made her very healthy. Some people think you're more interesting if you don't do ballet, but some people's lives revolve around that stuff. I watched "21 Jump Street" with Johnny Depp, and I remember the gymnastics part. It was interesting, too. The teacher seemed like a muscle woman, and the kid, who was younger than my mom, who was a gymnast in high school (did ballet as a kid and then in high school became #1 in Indonesia ... I think has ancestors all from China, probably all from South and Southeast China, 500 years ago... wanted to be figure skater, at first, but couldn't,) seemed pretty trashy. She was cute, but still.
So, anyway, I guess you were pretty smart. I have a lot of Dutch heritage, but I'm not like 3|4 Dutch myself. Hm. Audrey Hepburn's mom's last name was Swiss, I think. After I listened to the Swiss radio on iTunes at night, I had good dreams, but I started getting this very glossed over look I kept, which I like. I think I have Polish and Swiss Jewish, migrated to Germany. It's from my dad's mom's dad and mom, respectively. So, I guess I wouldn't have looked like you. I think I'm behind you but very old to ever be as good as you! I understand you're also Irish. I'm not sure if it's from your mom or dad. That's kinda like being Dutch. I thought I was almost 1|2 Irish, but I may be Anglo-Irish, which may be kinda special.
Oh, yes, so, my dad, as people may know who have seen his MySpace, is born in 1950, July 25, 1950. I think that's a Tuesday, like me and my mom. He's also a Tiger. So, I see this actor from Excalibur is born in 1952. Obviously, my mom is a lot younger. In fact, she's younger than you. 8^. I guess I can't give out her birthday. You know, I don't think she really cares at this point, but she's born in summer 1959. So, she's not in your class. I don't know if over in Europe or the 3rd world if they have generations, but I'm pretty sure that they do when it works. I saw my mom ... She said she was like a blonde, the fairest you could be, and very short but not the shortest. She has a friend here in Detroit who we used to visit when I went up north to visit my relatives ... my ancestors being from Northwestern Pennsylvania, my grandma being born in Cyclone, which had thick snow, at the time ... in mostly Southeastern New York, inland from the very West but at the Southern border. We stopped after we moved to the New Orleans area, to Slidell, which I'm sure you know well, though I don't know all the cities around where I lived as a kid. I lived there all as a teenger, and you know the reputation of it, kinda the worst place you could live. Still, I liked it and learned a lot and think it was worth it, could have been better, I hope. See, I used to stay up every night thinking I'd go to bed earlier the next day, mulling over homework, and mostly got the best grades. I used to be not as slow. I guess being mixed race made me feel bad, but I was capable, I guess. It might be because my dad's mom's dad's dad I think is Native American indian. He seemed like a cross of Johnny Depp and Viggo Mortensen... Viggo Mortensen looking like a tall, slim English boy with light brown hair. It seems that side has European tendencies or something, maybe stronger or something but seems pretty European, maybe has different stereotypes. It seems the descendents hvae been sorta whipped clean of their dignity, to say in the least, which I didn't notice before.
I guess I'm pretty worried because I guess I did go through life with a fascination for women born around 1950 and more older, though I was very jealous of women around your age. I thought my life should be like them. In fact, my dad's sister is born in 1960, the youngest one. Mid-1960. She had, I dunno, I saw pictures finally, kinda looked like the youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch" but thinner and more European in a way but not scrawny, would have been a good playmate for you, but always got in trouble I hear, though is pretty sweet, still, very much so. I grew up jealous of her, with her blue eyes. So, her hair used to be straight I guess and like darker than yours, of course, but pretty reddish and thick and course. It was fluffy when she was a pre-teen or older kid. I saw a picture of her in a dress like you wore, with buttons up it. I was so jealous and found something else with buttons up it that was snap buttons and not smooth material. I got 2 dresses of it, a short-sleeved one that was burgundy and a long-sleeved brown one I kept until I was almost 20. When I was a baby, I had crystally blue eyes, my mom said dark blue. It seems they were grayish blue. I guess I wanted to be something, but my dad had blue eyes, so I felt belittled. I'd love to sport sparkly blue eyes as a European. :^| I just posted some pictures, and they're light green, now. My hair seems to be glossing over in strawberry blonde or maroon, again. I've had my hair look purple, it seemed naturally, for maybe 2 days out of my life, when I was in Florida, still. I was born with like wood-colored hair. I guess I wanted to be like my parents. I saw it got pretty light as an infant and sometimes even had like white at the tips. I've had that as a young adult, too, but I guess my life got worse and it stopped. I wasn't as healthy and stuff, for some reason, and looked better with darker hair. Maybe I went to crazy doing things to change it. I found hairspray made the biggest difference, when I did my bun for ballet but quit so I would grow taller, to become like an actor and model and just as a person. I wondered probably about being 5'5"-5'10", like you! I guess I wanted to look more European. It seems I'm "workin' my way back to you, babe..." I was taking a walk, as I usually do, try to go every day or every other day, along the road with cars roaring past constantly, almost, it seems, sometimes. I saw my shadow, with bangs and ponytail for the first time, and I noticed I seemed obsessed with dancers from when I did ballet at a modern dance studio. I was into modern music and clothes before I left Florida. Then, I started dressing like you! Or people born in 1970 or 1950. I was only 12! I don't think I ever went back until now, though I did try to dress as a kid, all through high school. I guess kid clothes became more childish.
You know, so, you think about America ... and then you think like of things like Logan's Run, which I saw once, so far. My dad actually bought it on our TV like a month or so ago for me. The actors are English, though, and I was kinda thinking of it more for what it was than as being European. They're doing a remake, and I wanted to be in this movie, but I guess I can't.
It seems that people born in the 60s and 70s really have it going, you know? I like how you're born in the 50s, though, nice and cozy and smart and powerful. I don't knwo why people don;t trust me.
My arms aren't really that dainty, but I've gotten them to look skinny because I grew up with strong arms. So, I've suffered in that way, actually. I wanted them bigger for a different reason. I wanted to look like a "coral girl" saw working at a "coral store" in Downtown Disney, years ago. I went with my mom. She had bleached hair and was like hairy with white hair on her arms, looked like the ideal person, to me, totally knocked me out. She, like everyone who is accomplished, seemed to have an affinity for me. She was probably born in like 1975 or a little later. What about that bleached blonde who did the New Year's celebration around 2000? That English girl. She was pretty small but cool. Bigger than me, though, maybe not a bigger head than I had|have. I'm not sure my head is still big. I think when I had problems keeping up in school it got smaller and smaller, eventually. I didn't graduate but see you didn't, neither, though, apparently, you made the decision to leave and get a job. I enjoy living with my parents. I had fun on campus, even the semesters I suffered. I should have either taken less courses or come home. Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I considered not even going to college, but that was after I got in. I did Music Education and was trying to graduate early and did some extra things.
I feel I've past that stage, wanting to look like a "coral girl."
I want to work at Disney World. It would be an awesome experience. My friend, a year older by shy of a month, worked there, pretty big, and she hasn't talked to me since ... well, after. We were keeping up. She's originally from San Fransisco and moved to Slidell as a pre-teen I think. We were on Facebook. I want to work for your ride. However, my hair is dark. I liked it frizzy because I guess it seemed cool, but it's not as thick, anymore. I don't know why, but, when people cut my hair, they said I had thick hair. I had a friend with lots of fine white hair. She was part Swedish, I remember 5% Swedish 5% French. I see my hair is getting less frizzy but in a bad way. I don't have as much hair. :( It was so thick and frizzy. I couldn't even comb it. Neither could a new friend in our group who had smooth black hair who was rich and was Clara in ballet, though she looked like a normal girl, not bony or anything. She looked like another rich girl I did baton with with like gold hair. They both had freckles and sparkly eyes and had that same look, for some reason. The baton girl was thinner. Her mom came in and cut her nails because they grew like a few centemeters every 2 days. I know I'm very sensitive and always have been very sensitive about my nails and cutting them. I think everyone else shares that same feeling. So, I was a bit weird and said I didn't like long nails, was a bit obtuse, and her mom said her nails were disgusting. A girl from NYC with fluffy black hair and blue eyes told me I was disgusting, too, probably after. I'm not sure why, maybe because I'm mixed.
So, yea, I used to have like big ball eyes and a big sorta rounded out head.
Ugh, I just went to the bathroom! And I felt so bad. I mean, I look like I'm addicted to fish or something, which I have a hunger for. Just not when I eat out.
So, it seems that, when you aren't mostly European, that when you look more generic that it seems more pleasing.
Your mom looked very good. I saw a picture of her as a kid next to a picture of you. You look kinda like my mom. I guess my Grandma is kinda in the middle when she was younger. I don't know why ... nevermind. Her mom I think had a supple nose and was suppsedly all Dutch, seemed reminiscent of Audrey Hepburn's mom, but her last name is from the northern Scottish islands. Actually, her dad's last name is supposedly from either Scotland or northern England. However, my dad's dad's last name isn't real Irish.
So, yea, I've definitely connected with my dad's race, primarily. I guess I see myself like as my mom and not as her race.
It seems my dad is definitely supple, not like you, though, but more supple, very supple. My mom is from Indonesia and so is different.
I find that with my German that I'm not really cut out like most mixed Germans are. I'm more European. Wait, but all I'm thinking of at the moment is people mixed with minority ethnicities. I was thinking in some ways that was from being Dutch, so it's more European, and I don't feel anything.
So, I guess I want to look cut out like you! Like all those other people. I'm not quite sure what program I was milking to.
So, I went at watched his deceased wife on YouTube and posted it on my blog. Wasn't she good? She was born just like a month before Johnny Depp, didn't have even to look it up. She reminds me a lot of you. Wow, people born just a little after you and into, well into the future, have a very condensed look, for some reason, and I don't know why! I saw the girl who played Veruca in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the original movie. She was born I think about a year before you or 1|2 year. She looks very different now. I don't quite understand how you do it. I feel that people born like at certain times have this more metally look, like a sorta undetailed shaped head. I guess you go through steps in life, meet certain requirements, which is what I ended up doing, not how I wanted it. I would have been happy to have been like you, compared to how I was, but I was pretty smart, anyway, because I did art and things. Tim Burton is attractive. I also did gymnastics once a week as a kid. I wonder if he exercised more than me. He did swimming in high school. I've met people like that. :| I just started doing strength training now. I guess people'd want to know I did ballet, too, when it was available. I usually only went once a week. Audrey Hepburn did ballet, too, everyone knows... I think it made her very healthy. Some people think you're more interesting if you don't do ballet, but some people's lives revolve around that stuff. I watched "21 Jump Street" with Johnny Depp, and I remember the gymnastics part. It was interesting, too. The teacher seemed like a muscle woman, and the kid, who was younger than my mom, who was a gymnast in high school (did ballet as a kid and then in high school became #1 in Indonesia ... I think has ancestors all from China, probably all from South and Southeast China, 500 years ago... wanted to be figure skater, at first, but couldn't,) seemed pretty trashy. She was cute, but still.
So, anyway, I guess you were pretty smart. I have a lot of Dutch heritage, but I'm not like 3|4 Dutch myself. Hm. Audrey Hepburn's mom's last name was Swiss, I think. After I listened to the Swiss radio on iTunes at night, I had good dreams, but I started getting this very glossed over look I kept, which I like. I think I have Polish and Swiss Jewish, migrated to Germany. It's from my dad's mom's dad and mom, respectively. So, I guess I wouldn't have looked like you. I think I'm behind you but very old to ever be as good as you! I understand you're also Irish. I'm not sure if it's from your mom or dad. That's kinda like being Dutch. I thought I was almost 1|2 Irish, but I may be Anglo-Irish, which may be kinda special.
Oh, yes, so, my dad, as people may know who have seen his MySpace, is born in 1950, July 25, 1950. I think that's a Tuesday, like me and my mom. He's also a Tiger. So, I see this actor from Excalibur is born in 1952. Obviously, my mom is a lot younger. In fact, she's younger than you. 8^. I guess I can't give out her birthday. You know, I don't think she really cares at this point, but she's born in summer 1959. So, she's not in your class. I don't know if over in Europe or the 3rd world if they have generations, but I'm pretty sure that they do when it works. I saw my mom ... She said she was like a blonde, the fairest you could be, and very short but not the shortest. She has a friend here in Detroit who we used to visit when I went up north to visit my relatives ... my ancestors being from Northwestern Pennsylvania, my grandma being born in Cyclone, which had thick snow, at the time ... in mostly Southeastern New York, inland from the very West but at the Southern border. We stopped after we moved to the New Orleans area, to Slidell, which I'm sure you know well, though I don't know all the cities around where I lived as a kid. I lived there all as a teenger, and you know the reputation of it, kinda the worst place you could live. Still, I liked it and learned a lot and think it was worth it, could have been better, I hope. See, I used to stay up every night thinking I'd go to bed earlier the next day, mulling over homework, and mostly got the best grades. I used to be not as slow. I guess being mixed race made me feel bad, but I was capable, I guess. It might be because my dad's mom's dad's dad I think is Native American indian. He seemed like a cross of Johnny Depp and Viggo Mortensen... Viggo Mortensen looking like a tall, slim English boy with light brown hair. It seems that side has European tendencies or something, maybe stronger or something but seems pretty European, maybe has different stereotypes. It seems the descendents hvae been sorta whipped clean of their dignity, to say in the least, which I didn't notice before.
I guess I'm pretty worried because I guess I did go through life with a fascination for women born around 1950 and more older, though I was very jealous of women around your age. I thought my life should be like them. In fact, my dad's sister is born in 1960, the youngest one. Mid-1960. She had, I dunno, I saw pictures finally, kinda looked like the youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch" but thinner and more European in a way but not scrawny, would have been a good playmate for you, but always got in trouble I hear, though is pretty sweet, still, very much so. I grew up jealous of her, with her blue eyes. So, her hair used to be straight I guess and like darker than yours, of course, but pretty reddish and thick and course. It was fluffy when she was a pre-teen or older kid. I saw a picture of her in a dress like you wore, with buttons up it. I was so jealous and found something else with buttons up it that was snap buttons and not smooth material. I got 2 dresses of it, a short-sleeved one that was burgundy and a long-sleeved brown one I kept until I was almost 20. When I was a baby, I had crystally blue eyes, my mom said dark blue. It seems they were grayish blue. I guess I wanted to be something, but my dad had blue eyes, so I felt belittled. I'd love to sport sparkly blue eyes as a European. :^| I just posted some pictures, and they're light green, now. My hair seems to be glossing over in strawberry blonde or maroon, again. I've had my hair look purple, it seemed naturally, for maybe 2 days out of my life, when I was in Florida, still. I was born with like wood-colored hair. I guess I wanted to be like my parents. I saw it got pretty light as an infant and sometimes even had like white at the tips. I've had that as a young adult, too, but I guess my life got worse and it stopped. I wasn't as healthy and stuff, for some reason, and looked better with darker hair. Maybe I went to crazy doing things to change it. I found hairspray made the biggest difference, when I did my bun for ballet but quit so I would grow taller, to become like an actor and model and just as a person. I wondered probably about being 5'5"-5'10", like you! I guess I wanted to look more European. It seems I'm "workin' my way back to you, babe..." I was taking a walk, as I usually do, try to go every day or every other day, along the road with cars roaring past constantly, almost, it seems, sometimes. I saw my shadow, with bangs and ponytail for the first time, and I noticed I seemed obsessed with dancers from when I did ballet at a modern dance studio. I was into modern music and clothes before I left Florida. Then, I started dressing like you! Or people born in 1970 or 1950. I was only 12! I don't think I ever went back until now, though I did try to dress as a kid, all through high school. I guess kid clothes became more childish.
You know, so, you think about America ... and then you think like of things like Logan's Run, which I saw once, so far. My dad actually bought it on our TV like a month or so ago for me. The actors are English, though, and I was kinda thinking of it more for what it was than as being European. They're doing a remake, and I wanted to be in this movie, but I guess I can't.
It seems that people born in the 60s and 70s really have it going, you know? I like how you're born in the 50s, though, nice and cozy and smart and powerful. I don't knwo why people don;t trust me.
My arms aren't really that dainty, but I've gotten them to look skinny because I grew up with strong arms. So, I've suffered in that way, actually. I wanted them bigger for a different reason. I wanted to look like a "coral girl" saw working at a "coral store" in Downtown Disney, years ago. I went with my mom. She had bleached hair and was like hairy with white hair on her arms, looked like the ideal person, to me, totally knocked me out. She, like everyone who is accomplished, seemed to have an affinity for me. She was probably born in like 1975 or a little later. What about that bleached blonde who did the New Year's celebration around 2000? That English girl. She was pretty small but cool. Bigger than me, though, maybe not a bigger head than I had|have. I'm not sure my head is still big. I think when I had problems keeping up in school it got smaller and smaller, eventually. I didn't graduate but see you didn't, neither, though, apparently, you made the decision to leave and get a job. I enjoy living with my parents. I had fun on campus, even the semesters I suffered. I should have either taken less courses or come home. Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I considered not even going to college, but that was after I got in. I did Music Education and was trying to graduate early and did some extra things.
I feel I've past that stage, wanting to look like a "coral girl."
I want to work at Disney World. It would be an awesome experience. My friend, a year older by shy of a month, worked there, pretty big, and she hasn't talked to me since ... well, after. We were keeping up. She's originally from San Fransisco and moved to Slidell as a pre-teen I think. We were on Facebook. I want to work for your ride. However, my hair is dark. I liked it frizzy because I guess it seemed cool, but it's not as thick, anymore. I don't know why, but, when people cut my hair, they said I had thick hair. I had a friend with lots of fine white hair. She was part Swedish, I remember 5% Swedish 5% French. I see my hair is getting less frizzy but in a bad way. I don't have as much hair. :( It was so thick and frizzy. I couldn't even comb it. Neither could a new friend in our group who had smooth black hair who was rich and was Clara in ballet, though she looked like a normal girl, not bony or anything. She looked like another rich girl I did baton with with like gold hair. They both had freckles and sparkly eyes and had that same look, for some reason. The baton girl was thinner. Her mom came in and cut her nails because they grew like a few centemeters every 2 days. I know I'm very sensitive and always have been very sensitive about my nails and cutting them. I think everyone else shares that same feeling. So, I was a bit weird and said I didn't like long nails, was a bit obtuse, and her mom said her nails were disgusting. A girl from NYC with fluffy black hair and blue eyes told me I was disgusting, too, probably after. I'm not sure why, maybe because I'm mixed.
So, yea, I used to have like big ball eyes and a big sorta rounded out head.
Ugh, I just went to the bathroom! And I felt so bad. I mean, I look like I'm addicted to fish or something, which I have a hunger for. Just not when I eat out.
So, it seems that, when you aren't mostly European, that when you look more generic that it seems more pleasing.
Your mom looked very good. I saw a picture of her as a kid next to a picture of you. You look kinda like my mom. I guess my Grandma is kinda in the middle when she was younger. I don't know why ... nevermind. Her mom I think had a supple nose and was suppsedly all Dutch, seemed reminiscent of Audrey Hepburn's mom, but her last name is from the northern Scottish islands. Actually, her dad's last name is supposedly from either Scotland or northern England. However, my dad's dad's last name isn't real Irish.
So, yea, I've definitely connected with my dad's race, primarily. I guess I see myself like as my mom and not as her race.
It seems my dad is definitely supple, not like you, though, but more supple, very supple. My mom is from Indonesia and so is different.
I find that with my German that I'm not really cut out like most mixed Germans are. I'm more European. Wait, but all I'm thinking of at the moment is people mixed with minority ethnicities. I was thinking in some ways that was from being Dutch, so it's more European, and I don't feel anything.
So, I guess I want to look cut out like you! Like all those other people. I'm not quite sure what program I was milking to.
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I saw you on "The Ellen Show." I'm sorry you're about to die, soon. I've been going through lots of thoughts it seems somehow about like certain ways I might die but, honestly, abstractly. It must be really scary and makes me really sad. You know, I've lived in Orlando since 2005. I came home from college mid-2006. Anyway, I walk around at night, ready to live life by the day and do not wait for anything nor let anything get in my way. I've often felt in danger in how I've lived, very much so. I had a brain tumor, but it was very small, under my brain, affecting my period cycle. I didn't have my period for over a year. It was from psychiatric medicine. I'm sure I didn't need it. It affected that part of my brain. I have my period back, but, for instance, this time, it's not very heavy, which depresses me, because it was the last 2 times, though not as heavy as it should be. I was even always wearing diapers as an adult. It's very saddening. I had lucsious, thick, gooey, almost black it seemed blood. I'm waiting to get it back and should have not taken the medicine. You know, I ended up taking it at 16, forced. I got off it soon, and it didn't affect my period, the same medicine. I had problems with my brain then, too. I felt it totally go out, like it was useless, but I know I can get over it. My health has been pretty poor as well, maybe more than yours. It's neat that Ellen knows you now. I asked her ot go to Disney with me, on Twitter, but not directly. https://twitter.com/DisneyGhost. Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe. (I didn't count that.) I don't really know, don't honestly feel she would go to Disney with her fans. She went on a roller coaster with Portia. A fan was behind her. I honestly think that stars should go to Disney together and invite like special fans, like ones who keep up online. I figured Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres was pretty special. People like you should meet her. I would honestly like to, but maybe I'm not the right person for that.
Michael Jackson
When I went to the wax museum in Saint Augustine, Florida, visiting when I was older, there was a section on Michael Jackson. Oh, this is the oldest continuing city in the United States, located in Northeastern Florida, the suburb of a major city, the most major city in Northeastern Florida and probably the most urban area of all Florida, where I lived when I was 5 & 6|7. So, we lived in the oldest city when I was 9, 10, & 11. It's what's shaped me most as who I am today as a European person, unless you want to include the New Orleans area when I was a teenager. So, we went back and it's gotten pretty trashy. It used to be more interesting. In some ways, it wasn't as annoying. There's a torture chamber, but I never went in it. I did peek in to get a general idea for the colors and whereabouts of it inside. So, anyway, they had like a big section barred 8^. off with Michael Jackson. He was leaning over in a gravesite. Like, maybe one leg was bent. I tried to get a good recording of it but lost it on my old computer. I heard cackling like a witch, well sinister laughter that was above my head there. Oh, this city is Spanish, and I probably soaked it in more than anyone. We used to walk around all the time, and it was like hotter than almost anything it seemed but not really. No, not really, in every way... So, it was so spooky. It was so stupid! You could hardly see in there. There must have been some "retarded crap" on there. So, my dad let me in on that it was a famous song he did. I think there was sinister cackling speech preceeding it and you only heard the laughter a bit.
Michael Jackson was sorta the one who "got me into music.." We studied whales in 1st grade. There was a movie that came out that he did called Free Willy. He did the theme music. I was only 6, when we studied the whales and were on TV for it. I think I lost it in the flood|hurricane. I was interested in singing before, tried when I was 5, which seemed much younger.
I see he's just a few days younger than Tim Burton? Ooh. So, he's more of Johnny Depp's generation? Johnny Depp is related to the first freed African-American slave. When I grew up, my mom always said she slaved away, but I remember helping and not really having much fun, myself. :| I mean, people thought I was kinda ugly, I think, like disgusting-looking, like an old person. I think I did that on purpose, but I wasn't dirty.
Michael Jackson was sorta the one who "got me into music.." We studied whales in 1st grade. There was a movie that came out that he did called Free Willy. He did the theme music. I was only 6, when we studied the whales and were on TV for it. I think I lost it in the flood|hurricane. I was interested in singing before, tried when I was 5, which seemed much younger.
I see he's just a few days younger than Tim Burton? Ooh. So, he's more of Johnny Depp's generation? Johnny Depp is related to the first freed African-American slave. When I grew up, my mom always said she slaved away, but I remember helping and not really having much fun, myself. :| I mean, people thought I was kinda ugly, I think, like disgusting-looking, like an old person. I think I did that on purpose, but I wasn't dirty.
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