Thursday, October 4, 2012
My dad is such a bad influence.
He repeates the past to make fun of others, ambye thinking it "won't happen for real."
He does things like this when smoething messes up.
He does things like this when smoething messes up.
Trying to Stimulate Me
So, basically people do weird things to people in order to stimulate me in bad ways.
I'm guessing they aren't stimulated, at all.
I'm guessing they aren't stimulated, at all.
Nell Burton
She is ruining my life!
I was trying to feel good about beeing nice to Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres, on top of my old reputation as being the brightest, furthest star or whatever... That star in the distance that twinkles. I mean, you know when kids are nice to you? You have to have yourself open for accomplishment and achievement. You can't just suggest that maybe I'm not tall that.
I was trying to feel good about beeing nice to Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres, on top of my old reputation as being the brightest, furthest star or whatever... That star in the distance that twinkles. I mean, you know when kids are nice to you? You have to have yourself open for accomplishment and achievement. You can't just suggest that maybe I'm not tall that.
Ellen DeGeneres
It seems no one is there for her because young people try to say they're better than her.
Also, then, people who meet her have it better than her because she's the one like paying attention to them. :|
Also, then, people who meet her have it better than her because she's the one like paying attention to them. :|
LEAVE MY FAMLIY ALONE.
There is no point in striving for perfection. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID, WORTHLESS HUMAN BEINGS.
Harsh
You've all became very stupid since the "n" word thing. Stop pressuring me to post online. I post when I want and feel the "support."
My Race
I don't really want to be pushed to be ways I don't want just because you want it to be your thing for a reason that is not my fault, that you aren't approved of in some way by others because of something you did wrong.
Enjoying the Facts
You think you can enjoy the facts but me mean to me for it, but you can't be mean to me for it. You can, but you'll get in trouble and people won't like you, especially if something else bad happens to me.
Why? Because you can't to begin with, just because you enjoy the facts. True, that was my plea, but I was never really guilty, anyway, just mistaken. So, what is there to rat on about with me? Afraid I think you're a nigger? Who cares? You were racist to me. I don't act like that, do I? I may think that, though.
Why? Because you can't to begin with, just because you enjoy the facts. True, that was my plea, but I was never really guilty, anyway, just mistaken. So, what is there to rat on about with me? Afraid I think you're a nigger? Who cares? You were racist to me. I don't act like that, do I? I may think that, though.
Before
It seems before, we were able to control our temper and language an thoughts, mainly I'm thinking the language in our reactions. }:|
Irish
It seems Irish can look English or French.
So ... so can we, but it seems we're not Irish enough. :| People are stubborn and never achieve what they want. They think it's just people like me who don't.
Of course, I want to achieve different things, but aren't we all fundamentally the same?
So ... so can we, but it seems we're not Irish enough. :| People are stubborn and never achieve what they want. They think it's just people like me who don't.
Of course, I want to achieve different things, but aren't we all fundamentally the same?
Too Far
You don't really have to go too far. I don't think
people can be pressured to feel things they don't have to and to be
cornered for others's jealousy. I think some things are really
important to some people and that they shouldn't be affected by these
things and that you shouldn't be the one to teach someone else a
lesson...
I mean, some people are important in certain ways, and other people, both young and old, are important in their lives, as well. I wouldn't play around. I realize these things would go over big, but I really don't play around! :0 I also would be careful not to mess up, which I already have, thanks a lot. }:( Not sure, though, who caused it and if it can be forgotten as no one's fault. :|
Also, I see that usually people of all one race in their home country maybe are competent, depending on the race and country and stuff. I don't want to be categorized in weird ways among different people for their antsiness and getting all excited in like sissy ways and stuff about the complications of themselves racially.
Also, I feel some excitement surging that I should be in the mental hospital for closing the laundry door hard, the machine dooor. I felt bothered and fed up. I was already venting. I felt picked on for going around alone harshly at home. Other things, too, built up.
I mean, some people are important in certain ways, and other people, both young and old, are important in their lives, as well. I wouldn't play around. I realize these things would go over big, but I really don't play around! :0 I also would be careful not to mess up, which I already have, thanks a lot. }:( Not sure, though, who caused it and if it can be forgotten as no one's fault. :|
Also, I see that usually people of all one race in their home country maybe are competent, depending on the race and country and stuff. I don't want to be categorized in weird ways among different people for their antsiness and getting all excited in like sissy ways and stuff about the complications of themselves racially.
Also, I feel some excitement surging that I should be in the mental hospital for closing the laundry door hard, the machine dooor. I felt bothered and fed up. I was already venting. I felt picked on for going around alone harshly at home. Other things, too, built up.
Different Strokes to Different Folks
So, the one thing you cannot do to me is make me get close to people in ways I don't want to because I like you in a certain way... :|
Ethnicity
So, it seems known that Kate Bush, who is 1|2 Irish 1|2 English, born mid-1958, just a little older than Tim Burton, is like the reason for things in Europe not going right, like maybe she was normal but really like seems to be kinda sappy about her race but privately.
It also seems important to us in America to at least be approved of racially and acknowledged for who we know we are, who we know we are to others.
I've found that with my mom I've been able to connect well with others of any race, so most people to me don't seem that together racially.
I find the Irish to be molded out a bit too much yet kinda rounded out in ways. The English seem more like a bowl or a ball, like something in the mist, and I don't want to lose, like, that feeling or something.
I don't quite understand the Irish males, suppose they are uptight and pretty, like, European in a certain way.
It also seems important to us in America to at least be approved of racially and acknowledged for who we know we are, who we know we are to others.
I've found that with my mom I've been able to connect well with others of any race, so most people to me don't seem that together racially.
I find the Irish to be molded out a bit too much yet kinda rounded out in ways. The English seem more like a bowl or a ball, like something in the mist, and I don't want to lose, like, that feeling or something.
I don't quite understand the Irish males, suppose they are uptight and pretty, like, European in a certain way.
Eating
I don't know why my parents ate as they did. Even my dad spurted finally that the food my mom ate before isn't here.
I can only listen and agree that I didn't like who I was. I don't want it to be my fault my parents didn't eat right, like how I took more of the meat because I didn't like peppers and there wasn't enough. I was always more hungry and should have eaten more, for some reason, but thought I wasn't supposed to eat too much and I guess that my mom only made a certain amount of food to feed the family, like a set ration, which seemed cute yet questionable. We didn't have like biscuits and gravy and stuff like that much. It was like a lot of chicken and rice. A lot! I figured rice was good but dunno.
I can only listen and agree that I didn't like who I was. I don't want it to be my fault my parents didn't eat right, like how I took more of the meat because I didn't like peppers and there wasn't enough. I was always more hungry and should have eaten more, for some reason, but thought I wasn't supposed to eat too much and I guess that my mom only made a certain amount of food to feed the family, like a set ration, which seemed cute yet questionable. We didn't have like biscuits and gravy and stuff like that much. It was like a lot of chicken and rice. A lot! I figured rice was good but dunno.
Food
Leave us Americans alone about maybe we don't deserve anything because we don't eat right.
Maybe, you don't deserve to eat right. }:)
Also, please do not praise people who act like clowns, like they deserve more than they have.
Maybe, you don't deserve to eat right. }:)
Also, please do not praise people who act like clowns, like they deserve more than they have.
Dream
I just felt so comforted by the person. They kept putting their arm by my body reassuringly and were highly regarded by my parents, ultimately, like in a snap, particularly seeing my mom in the picture but not very clearly. It was about this person.
Then, at the mall, I felt so good when I came up to them and put my arm around them, like kinda moved, like "Oh, oh." I'm not sure why. I mean, I used to be like that but not like feel like that. I think I've had friends like that. '8^.
Then, at the mall, I felt so good when I came up to them and put my arm around them, like kinda moved, like "Oh, oh." I'm not sure why. I mean, I used to be like that but not like feel like that. I think I've had friends like that. '8^.
Other People Knowing Things About Me
It upsets me when other people racially taunt me that they've calculated so much of what I will think, yet pretty much people act stupid around me.
People Going Crazy
It's sad when like you do things and this has to happen and you forget "what" really caused it.
Pressure
I do feel people put pressure on certain ideas. It leaves me sorta with nothing I can do. I just make a point. I'm not really sure exactly what's making me mad. I mean, I'm pretty happy. I guess I'm upset I'm having hard time becoming an actor and now feel different, like I'm just getting bigger I think.
I think I've been wound up over something I haven't quite yet reached, about other people's relationships. I guess it fed me up. I realized that people I liked shied away from me saying they had other relationships. I mean, they talked to me. However, I was treated racistly a lot. Then, people who I don't like as much have all the morality in the world for me.
I haven't yet been mad concretely at anyone's relationship I think other than with my relatives. I get annoyed at the kids and realized the adults were boring and mean to my mom, as well as to me in the past in attitude.
I guess my point is that I don't want to be left with any baggage ... now I forget, because of other people.
I forget, again! Ah, yes, attention. I find I get attention and am constantly juggling why I get it. I also don't feel allowed to act as a normal person. In a way, I don't get a lot of attention, like when I post online. I mean, I never get in big long conversations, which feeds me up, because I've been online so much. I think I was mad that no famous person talked to me directly, but I don't want to hope they do in a way they would like not really do to most people. I mean, maybe it would happen, and maybe it wouldn't be too awkward. I just have to admit for some reason what like makes me like ... like when really good things happen to me. It's so weird when some people I follow and I feel they're talking to me. I don't really know what their relationship is with others, but I mean I just hope for the best. Then, I wonder, why do I soak in attention? I dunno. I mean I just do what a person should do. I've been told like "not to use the internet." Well, that's not a good thing to do.
Also, I've been feeling funny lately, kinda like my brother in ways I don't like, in ways that he's suppressed or isn't really like now, like in funny ways. I don't really, but like it just kinda happens.
I also feel kinda weighted down, like in my legs, like from what I've been eating.
So, I'm pretty upest about yesterday, wonder why the night went by so fast. I said some bad things and I guess disregarded some things. ): Um, people will only connect the dots and not connect them in the right way. It was something that happened I could not take back, and I did not mean what you thought. It got something out of the way. It's also because of when I got mad before at something. So, now, that things are settled and people aren't too uptight, I was just playing around in general, really, didn't mean anything, at all, really. You can't search me. I don't mean anything. It was really catching the buzz. If I calmed down like now, I wouldn't have posted it.
I like my blog now because the name matches my YouTube, and the accounts are connected, so I dunno but do miss my old blog with the dreams. I couldn't get into all my old blogs like I'd like. I think I listed them somewhere, but I thought it wasn't fun to click on them all but we'll see. Feel kinda tired now. Not sure if I will go back and put them up or combine like the last one.
I guess I'm mad I'm fat but need to eat. I'm wondering what will thin me down and what kinds of activities I can do. I'm wondering about the constant bickering that my family works. I've had it hard socially...
I think I've been wound up over something I haven't quite yet reached, about other people's relationships. I guess it fed me up. I realized that people I liked shied away from me saying they had other relationships. I mean, they talked to me. However, I was treated racistly a lot. Then, people who I don't like as much have all the morality in the world for me.
I haven't yet been mad concretely at anyone's relationship I think other than with my relatives. I get annoyed at the kids and realized the adults were boring and mean to my mom, as well as to me in the past in attitude.
I guess my point is that I don't want to be left with any baggage ... now I forget, because of other people.
I forget, again! Ah, yes, attention. I find I get attention and am constantly juggling why I get it. I also don't feel allowed to act as a normal person. In a way, I don't get a lot of attention, like when I post online. I mean, I never get in big long conversations, which feeds me up, because I've been online so much. I think I was mad that no famous person talked to me directly, but I don't want to hope they do in a way they would like not really do to most people. I mean, maybe it would happen, and maybe it wouldn't be too awkward. I just have to admit for some reason what like makes me like ... like when really good things happen to me. It's so weird when some people I follow and I feel they're talking to me. I don't really know what their relationship is with others, but I mean I just hope for the best. Then, I wonder, why do I soak in attention? I dunno. I mean I just do what a person should do. I've been told like "not to use the internet." Well, that's not a good thing to do.
Also, I've been feeling funny lately, kinda like my brother in ways I don't like, in ways that he's suppressed or isn't really like now, like in funny ways. I don't really, but like it just kinda happens.
I also feel kinda weighted down, like in my legs, like from what I've been eating.
So, I'm pretty upest about yesterday, wonder why the night went by so fast. I said some bad things and I guess disregarded some things. ): Um, people will only connect the dots and not connect them in the right way. It was something that happened I could not take back, and I did not mean what you thought. It got something out of the way. It's also because of when I got mad before at something. So, now, that things are settled and people aren't too uptight, I was just playing around in general, really, didn't mean anything, at all, really. You can't search me. I don't mean anything. It was really catching the buzz. If I calmed down like now, I wouldn't have posted it.
I like my blog now because the name matches my YouTube, and the accounts are connected, so I dunno but do miss my old blog with the dreams. I couldn't get into all my old blogs like I'd like. I think I listed them somewhere, but I thought it wasn't fun to click on them all but we'll see. Feel kinda tired now. Not sure if I will go back and put them up or combine like the last one.
I guess I'm mad I'm fat but need to eat. I'm wondering what will thin me down and what kinds of activities I can do. I'm wondering about the constant bickering that my family works. I've had it hard socially...
Worried
Why did this happen to me? What will happen to me now? I didn't want to do that. ,: I know I didn't mean what you thought. Pretty much, I say exactly what I mean and never attack anyone who is innocent. I wasn't really mad at who you might think I was mad at.
Perhaps, things were being rubbed in. I was just making a general point, for some reason, toppping off what I'd been saying. It didn't mean what you'd think literally, really. Like I said, I couldn't take it back at the time nor do I go back and erase when I get mad in blogs.
Perhaps, things were being rubbed in. I was just making a general point, for some reason, toppping off what I'd been saying. It didn't mean what you'd think literally, really. Like I said, I couldn't take it back at the time nor do I go back and erase when I get mad in blogs.
Mad
So, I guess I got pretty mad yesterday but didn't really mean anything and felt tricked and like I couldn't take it back and had to say what I said. It felt pretty bad. D:
}:{ I feel pretty offended, too, right now...
I don't like my food and don't feel like working out. Maybe, I should go back to bed.
}:{ I feel pretty offended, too, right now...
I don't like my food and don't feel like working out. Maybe, I should go back to bed.
Dream
I was in bed in a hotel like room with my parents and someone kept coming to visit me. I was like sick in bed. They kept putting their hand like at the foot of my body. This happened maybe 10 times.
The, this person walked around like a small mall a few times, and I kept putting my arm around her waist. It was comforting. I was shrugged off it felt. I was to stay with the person.
I guess other things happened, but this was the main part. I know the person like sorta blended in as other people and sometimes wasn't there.
The other person was just a little taller than me. They were very skinny but not like weak.
The, this person walked around like a small mall a few times, and I kept putting my arm around her waist. It was comforting. I was shrugged off it felt. I was to stay with the person.
I guess other things happened, but this was the main part. I know the person like sorta blended in as other people and sometimes wasn't there.
The other person was just a little taller than me. They were very skinny but not like weak.
Meanie
Don't you dare be mean to my dad for the comforts he did not have with the stupid Chinese wife! :6 Go rot in Hell and never eat and leave me alone.
In the Shit
Why would you just pick up the shitty traits of someone?
I guess I do in another way.
It makes me curious as to what's going on, exactly, in this case.
I guess I do in another way.
It makes me curious as to what's going on, exactly, in this case.
Making Fun of Me
You can't convince me that you go out of your way to make fun of me and then say it was to reassure me.
How Old You Are
I know my parents had younger parents when they were born, so it worries me. What about people with older parents? Do they always feel older?
California
They seem to put a lot of pressure on their bodies and get roused up, so we have to just plow through and deal with it as it comes smoothly. Wait, why is it coming so smoothly? ,:
Silly Illusions in England and the U.S.
You don't have to be a certain way to receive something. What makes you think you're so special that you don't have to do anything to deserve something and that other people don't deserve anything, ever, some kinda scheme?
They think racially you have to be a certain way at a certain time and then after that you can't like enjoy yourself because the world isn't perfect.
They think racially you have to be a certain way at a certain time and then after that you can't like enjoy yourself because the world isn't perfect.
Being the Oldest
So, why do my parents think I'm not as good just because I'm the oldest?
Also, I don't want to lose my dignity to being menial to older people. I mean, from reveling in their attention. It's like I'm not ready for something. Pretty much, I just keep going until I get things straight. I don't want to do anything weird.
Also, I don't want to lose my dignity to being menial to older people. I mean, from reveling in their attention. It's like I'm not ready for something. Pretty much, I just keep going until I get things straight. I don't want to do anything weird.
Fun
I never have real fun. I want to see people, and I want to see people who are worth it. People always skirt away from me and don't connect and then invade my privact so that I have none.
My Life
I pretty much did what I was supposed to, and what do I get? Bickering for when I'm off-kilter as though I were intentionally bad and others are all right.
Some Things I Don't Believe Are
important. I guess I'm trying to get it all out before Frankenweenie.
Why do some people make up things? Why do I get cornered? My life is far from perfect, and other people deserve the misery I have more than me.
If you think I'm ugly, I'm not intentionally bad. Try living my life, how I'm treated.
Why do some people make up things? Why do I get cornered? My life is far from perfect, and other people deserve the misery I have more than me.
If you think I'm ugly, I'm not intentionally bad. Try living my life, how I'm treated.
Special Things
The point is that if something's not special to you, then it wouldn't happen.
It's not really even that tacky literally in that way.
It's not really even that tacky literally in that way.
A Conspiracy
You think 2 opposites become important to the person in the middle but can never pick one extreme as better.
}:|
I will not make myself look bad because someone thinks it must be bad to be good because it makes other people jealous. Also, you didn't make other people do it where they deserved it, which they did more than me.
Probably Doesn't Matter
So, who do you blame? Like, I know I've got on pretty well with people. I don't really want to get mad for no reason and be the one to look foolish for it. I don't want my life hammered in foolishly just because I can get a temper when people rile me up. After awhile, it probably doesn't matter.
Queasy
Oh, so you're so queasy you have to keep pushing the envelope. Some people don't have a right to really be involved in my life in certain ways. So, I'll say what I want. It's pretty much because of other people wanting attention from others and being afraid of things and not really having anything to say and for some reason not doing what they're supposed to do. It's like they don't want to be normal, too, for some reason. Some things are theoretical at certain stages.
Tossing Things Around
I will not sit here fascinated with my mistakes that have reasons that I'm not afraid to admit. They're all concrete reasons. It's not something abstract, like because it's good to hurt someone or maybe I really hurt them and then wanted to cheer them up, though I've done things like that a lot.
Oh
So, supposedly, if my life were already an experiment, it wouldn't matter. Now, why wouldn't it matter, then? If something doesn't matter, then it means like you do other things, instead. You try to be good, but people all wanna let lose. Some things are too hard for most people to do. You can't tell me I'm a bad person because you don't wanna feel sorry for me.
WHAT'S YOUR GODDAMNED FREAKIN' PROBLEM?
Why do you all have nothing to say to me? You talk to other people. You ruined my life!
Tired?
I wonder if I need to go to bed. Maybe. I'm hungry. I went to bed yesterday when I became upset. I kinda don't want to. I wanna wake up and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Maybe, I'll wait for the weekend to go shopping.
It's funny how people ... hard to think. People want me to feel something but like something else funny I forget because my brain is in a process of shutting down. I guess I have to exercise it. Oh yes, I'm also not just straight and narrow. I like to do everything.
It's funny how people ... hard to think. People want me to feel something but like something else funny I forget because my brain is in a process of shutting down. I guess I have to exercise it. Oh yes, I'm also not just straight and narrow. I like to do everything.
Agreement
I think most people agree with the severity of some crimes. I wonder if they fear for their lives and their dignity as I have kept my wits about me in dealing with others, like Tim Burton, with whom I ended up believing his girlfriend wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word and that I was encouraged in an experiment to do it but that of course it was in a funny way. I don't want to hurt anyone. Plus, there was a reason.
Unimportant
It's unimportant to me sometimes some people. I've found that like no one is that important. I've made lots of people important to me, though, just some attract the most attention. I think people have to search themselves and change and build themselves to be what they want gradually. :|
Get it in it in your head that...
If something's not okay for me it will be okay for someone else! Good day!
Intelligence
Supposedly, that paves the way outta most people's heads. What, am I just cranky I've been up, up doing what, though? Oh, yea, having fun on Tumblr.
Apparently, people think I have power and are affected by what I say. Pretty much, I haven't been shown off for my intelligence because I'm already right, just not perfect in how I function. Who's a robot, anyway?
Apparently, people think I have power and are affected by what I say. Pretty much, I haven't been shown off for my intelligence because I'm already right, just not perfect in how I function. Who's a robot, anyway?
"You're Stupid"
I just felt really disturbed thinking about someone and someone who is daintily obsessed with their persona and their relationship with me. I guess, first, I was mad, for some other reason, but I forget and then associated something with something that doesn't matter. People are able to imprint things on my mind and make me feel in a certain spot in a hard way, but I'm getting my wits about me. People think, oh well, I might die, but they might die. I'm a bit upset because I feel I was made to "emit curse words," but it was less like I formulated and caused it. I don't like to be let down for getting mad, but I'm getting used to getting these curse words out of my head more gradually. They'd been surrounding me and taken out of me.
Please stop bothering me for no reason. I can say what I want and it doesn't mean anything when you get mad.
Please stop bothering me for no reason. I can say what I want and it doesn't mean anything when you get mad.
Good Life Commercial from the Internet
It's a Disney commercial that stopped, well ad, where you see like kids with white hair twirling and bouncing in succession. It just seems to all flow as the ideal, though they are off. They were all kinda like me, rounded out but like not in any one extreme. However, they had like sorta that look of having red hair, with the white eyebrows. I guess their faces were kinda sloppy, but that could be in style. They were definitely in step. :| Talk about a life of no work. The only work is being corrected friendily for being wrong, which seems to blow harder when you're not made to think and stuff and like usually be harsh on yourself, I mean. I think all people feel, but some people have like all very dark hair. I was never like that. I was born with hair that looked wood-colored up close but black far away, like my parents had black hair since they were little. I am not sure about my brother, but there was a time when it was like light brown but not like tan.
Hair Color...
It's funny that with some people you just go all out and make an exception with things like hair color and having "opposites attract." Why not just let someone be who they are and not be defined by the confines of HAIR COLOR? Oh yes, I was attacted to a commercial with all blonds. It was an ad online of kids with white hair at Disney. You know, why does Ellen DeGeneres dye her hair? It's not white, anymore. That matters to me, not to anyone else, see?
I felt on myself inflicted a sense of pain.
So, people are settled that they can use me to make me feel like masturbating. Well, I think lots of people have to. I'm not aware that it would make the other person masturbate. I never tried to hurt anyone, like that. 8|
Relationships
I have to read a book on that about personality types.
I noticed that after you have a family you are expected to interact with others. So, I wonder, why kill yourself now being lonely? I don't really feel raped. I just interact in certain ways and in certain ways with certain people, pretty crystal clear,. You can't change that.
I noticed that after you have a family you are expected to interact with others. So, I wonder, why kill yourself now being lonely? I don't really feel raped. I just interact in certain ways and in certain ways with certain people, pretty crystal clear,. You can't change that.
Ellen DeGeneres
Why as a kid did she look like the stereotype of a younger generation yet claim to be an older generation? She seems to now claim it's wrong to look like that generation!
Clicks
People are mean and click with others for the wrong reasons.
Like, you see that someone isn't really happy until they're with someone. You are happy for them, but then you realize that's the story of your life. It's funny because you like the same people everyone else likes, and you're the only one who admits it.
Johnny Depp got a tattoo on the crack of his arm that says "Ellen." He was on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with 2 people from Dark Shadows. Now, Selena Gomez has a tattoo. Ellen made me think of the word "kill" etc. when I saw her on her show. Actually, I know I was just mad that day, but I don't know who made me mad. Pretty much, it's layer upon layer upon layer of feeling insulted, "like it's not enough." I wasn't really mad at anyone as an attack. I think she got the tatto after, on the back of her neck, like roons (sp?) or something. I think they were roman numerals, starting with like an "L," which is funny, because my mom's name is Lenny. That's not her original name. I think it was Go Lin Yo. I don't know "what else..." I mean, I know the rest of her name. =}
There are probably lots of things going around, but maybe I'll end here for now. Oh yes, Amber Heard is getting together with supposedly Johnny Depp, with whom I've seen photos, and supposedly, I read today on Tumblr and elsewhere online, with Amber Heard. I just recently made friends with Emma Stone on Twitter... It's interesting, their names both have stones. My dad had kidney stones when I was upset at home recently and was in the hospital and came home a little after midnight, I think.
Like, you see that someone isn't really happy until they're with someone. You are happy for them, but then you realize that's the story of your life. It's funny because you like the same people everyone else likes, and you're the only one who admits it.
Johnny Depp got a tattoo on the crack of his arm that says "Ellen." He was on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with 2 people from Dark Shadows. Now, Selena Gomez has a tattoo. Ellen made me think of the word "kill" etc. when I saw her on her show. Actually, I know I was just mad that day, but I don't know who made me mad. Pretty much, it's layer upon layer upon layer of feeling insulted, "like it's not enough." I wasn't really mad at anyone as an attack. I think she got the tatto after, on the back of her neck, like roons (sp?) or something. I think they were roman numerals, starting with like an "L," which is funny, because my mom's name is Lenny. That's not her original name. I think it was Go Lin Yo. I don't know "what else..." I mean, I know the rest of her name. =}
There are probably lots of things going around, but maybe I'll end here for now. Oh yes, Amber Heard is getting together with supposedly Johnny Depp, with whom I've seen photos, and supposedly, I read today on Tumblr and elsewhere online, with Amber Heard. I just recently made friends with Emma Stone on Twitter... It's interesting, their names both have stones. My dad had kidney stones when I was upset at home recently and was in the hospital and came home a little after midnight, I think.
Why I Do Not Accept
I will not sit here and rat at all on your personal relationships. I guess some countries are like that. They don't make sense. They just want things to be mumbo jumbo. WELL, MUMBO JUMBO UP SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE, THEN.
So, the reason was that this all happened for a reason, and when things like that happen they mean something. Not only that, hard to say what I'm thinking exactly in English now for some reason, though it's in English, but it's what the message is when you think about it. I know I'm upset my life is so poor and I'm made to feel guilty and stretched apart for being too poor and too fortunate. I am not comfortable. I don't have to work, but I'm tired from my school days and the "n" word thing.
So, the reason was that this all happened for a reason, and when things like that happen they mean something. Not only that, hard to say what I'm thinking exactly in English now for some reason, though it's in English, but it's what the message is when you think about it. I know I'm upset my life is so poor and I'm made to feel guilty and stretched apart for being too poor and too fortunate. I am not comfortable. I don't have to work, but I'm tired from my school days and the "n" word thing.
Everyone can tell.
Why am I telling anyone this? I guess because it's my blog. People all know people like Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, Ellen DeGeneres, and Orla Fallon have submitted their lives away from the public after promising them great services to others and the ability to extend themselves to that special someone when needed.
I think it was all planned.
People think that not feeling anything is okay. I think that you can feel certain ways if others do. I think it's good not to be too inhibited. You can start out one way and like be helped along the way.
I think it was all planned.
People think that not feeling anything is okay. I think that you can feel certain ways if others do. I think it's good not to be too inhibited. You can start out one way and like be helped along the way.
People Who Do Outrageous Things
I don't owe anything to people who have decided to do things for me that they don't have to do in order to say I'm a bad person even though I try so hard to be good and am never given pointers openly, never, never anything, and now never anything if I get mad that makes sense.
Mad
It seems my Grandma has controlled my life. I wasn't willing to submit myself, but I wanted to engage in intelligent conversation, not just be a spokes show host.
Coming to Too Many Conclusions for No Good Reason, Supposedly?
I don't really think so. I know I learned to think well that way from living in the nation's oldest city, which was Spanish, and in Northeastern Florida. I came to even more magical conclusions when we moved to the New Orleans area, which is predominantly French suggested, very much so, even in the suburbs and regions extending, technically speaking.
Happy
I'm having so much fun watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." If she is married, then whey doesn't she have kids? It's just another relationship to complain about to everyone and to like just talk about that ha the time.
I feel guilty she spends so much attention on me. She's better than Tim Burton. She goes on Twitter each day, but she's on all day! She shouldn't be. She needs to get a blog. End of story. For me, Twitter is something on the side. Basically, I feel bad that my life is all about business and making others smarter and not about me being treated as I should be, like I can feel but really I'm always in the wrong and can't really function how I wanted. I already was set to make things as they should be, but I see that people have all pretty much abandoned me. 8|
With Tim Burton, he veered off obsessed with his daughter, which he really may be in a way, unsure. Maybe, he just listens to my dad, who just answers to his mom? It's, like, my life is an experiment!
All he thinks about is that. Johnny Depp seems to have admitted that that's what, it's about your kids, not your fans. I don't approve of that, at all. I always get in the fun with others. You can't control it when I become the center of attention. People even give me a respectable distance when they esteem me or rub in how good I am in ways I don't even care about by saying they are willing to commit themselves to a dedicated relationship with me or just hang too friendily and too respectfully.
I think Helena Bonham Carter has made it clear that if she's not respected or something she doesn't want to be in the relationship. Even her daughter, who people acted like she wanted me to call her the "n" word when she was only just about 2 years old, gets in trouble for being nice to me when it like doesn't make sense or feels like or senses that it irks someone, perhaps for no particular reason, and it also may be that things happen for no good reason, from people like Tim Burton. It's my dad who comes up with things that don
t "feel" good and at random, like it's cool. Basically, going back, if that's okay, the world centers on Tim Burton's daughter because I thought people wanted me to call her the "n" word and just for fun because she thought it was cute, kinda like for fun, you know? Like black people do except I guess there was a reason and it was actually like what I said but as though it was and there existed the reason for self-defense.
So, I don't want to just be thinking about how good other people are for being born, like me being born was a mistake because I'm mixed race.
I feel guilty she spends so much attention on me. She's better than Tim Burton. She goes on Twitter each day, but she's on all day! She shouldn't be. She needs to get a blog. End of story. For me, Twitter is something on the side. Basically, I feel bad that my life is all about business and making others smarter and not about me being treated as I should be, like I can feel but really I'm always in the wrong and can't really function how I wanted. I already was set to make things as they should be, but I see that people have all pretty much abandoned me. 8|
With Tim Burton, he veered off obsessed with his daughter, which he really may be in a way, unsure. Maybe, he just listens to my dad, who just answers to his mom? It's, like, my life is an experiment!
All he thinks about is that. Johnny Depp seems to have admitted that that's what, it's about your kids, not your fans. I don't approve of that, at all. I always get in the fun with others. You can't control it when I become the center of attention. People even give me a respectable distance when they esteem me or rub in how good I am in ways I don't even care about by saying they are willing to commit themselves to a dedicated relationship with me or just hang too friendily and too respectfully.
I think Helena Bonham Carter has made it clear that if she's not respected or something she doesn't want to be in the relationship. Even her daughter, who people acted like she wanted me to call her the "n" word when she was only just about 2 years old, gets in trouble for being nice to me when it like doesn't make sense or feels like or senses that it irks someone, perhaps for no particular reason, and it also may be that things happen for no good reason, from people like Tim Burton. It's my dad who comes up with things that don
t "feel" good and at random, like it's cool. Basically, going back, if that's okay, the world centers on Tim Burton's daughter because I thought people wanted me to call her the "n" word and just for fun because she thought it was cute, kinda like for fun, you know? Like black people do except I guess there was a reason and it was actually like what I said but as though it was and there existed the reason for self-defense.
So, I don't want to just be thinking about how good other people are for being born, like me being born was a mistake because I'm mixed race.
Mad and Curious
So, it seems that all the people I'm into are pretty much set on like the priorities of things but rubbing in, which is what makes me mad I think, that it's because like or alludes to or changes to the idea that I'm a bad person yet somehow bound to their servitude or rather it seems they're bound to me intellectually, which is so perverted and stupid and not fun.
The Picture of My Mom
She doesn't want me to post picture of her on the internet, so tell me if you think I should take it down. I don't know if she really cares, though, especially anymore. She probably just doesn't want to talk about it. I couldn't find any good pictures of me when I was younger, though, so that might be why. I think she secretly wants me to post it, though, so her reputation as my mom is positive. I might take it down, though.
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