Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Tim Burton
Ah, yes, what about Tim Burton and all the trouble this Miss Helena Bonham Carter has caused with her daughter?
Very Mad..
I was interrupted in my eating.
My aunt thinks it's okay she theoretically stated my brother's daughter would be gay. We can do anything to her. Ruin her life, just get her back for what she's done! Make sure she doesn't do what she plans to do.
What else did I think?
I dunno. :{
Oh yes, Ellen DeGeneres doesn't go with the flow. She also doesn't have the right answers. She just functions like that. I think that's self-centered. She can't override other people because it isn't astute.
My aunt thinks it's okay she theoretically stated my brother's daughter would be gay. We can do anything to her. Ruin her life, just get her back for what she's done! Make sure she doesn't do what she plans to do.
What else did I think?
I dunno. :{
Oh yes, Ellen DeGeneres doesn't go with the flow. She also doesn't have the right answers. She just functions like that. I think that's self-centered. She can't override other people because it isn't astute.
Monday, October 8, 2012
My Dad
He's gone insane. Ever since the thought entered my mind by accident, didn't think this, "kill" about my grandma and aunt, he's been nuts.
Ellen De-What?
I spelled Ellen Degneres wrong!!!! Some nigger on my computer? Did you know the Olympics will be in "the Rio di Ginero?" Why?
}:{ Leave me alone! Also, I had a friend who was part Swedish with parents who are older who liked frogs. On my Tumblr, I have a clip from the Olympics of Kate Bush singing and another of a Swedish singer from before with a frog.
I HATE GETTING YOUR STUPID MESSAGES AND HAVING YOU AVOID MY THINKING.
}:{ Leave me alone! Also, I had a friend who was part Swedish with parents who are older who liked frogs. On my Tumblr, I have a clip from the Olympics of Kate Bush singing and another of a Swedish singer from before with a frog.
I HATE GETTING YOUR STUPID MESSAGES AND HAVING YOU AVOID MY THINKING.
Ellen DeGeneres
I don't really think this nor mean to make a public broadcast, but when I discovered she had the hots for my dad, don't want to push it for her to do something else like not have the hots for my dad, I realized ... first, I'll say my grandma seems to think my dad is an accident, had miscarriages before and after, and seems to disdain the traits he gets from his father. My dad seems to have said theoretically that my grandma was an accident. She's been going crazy pretending I'm an accident because all the kids in my family are accidents, my brother more of a mess up. I thought about my grandma's mom who was attractive at some points as an adult, with a thick nose, supposedly Dutch but with an Orcadian (high Scotch island) last name. Her mom wasn't pretty, and her dad was fat and disgruntled, last name Work, the lady Mortimer, not sure what ethnicity but probably not French. I could look it up. Anyway, you get the picture.
I don't know, she just really offends me. I don't know what happened but think it's the stupid Nell Burton thing and my family.
Maybe, she's just a baby, but my dad isn't good to me like he is to his sisters anymore.
I've come to the conclusion all Baby Boomers and adults are babies.
She's a bit clunky. She doesn't really like to think. She seems to be smart, though, so you could have a lot of fun with her. :|
I don't know, she just really offends me. I don't know what happened but think it's the stupid Nell Burton thing and my family.
Maybe, she's just a baby, but my dad isn't good to me like he is to his sisters anymore.
I've come to the conclusion all Baby Boomers and adults are babies.
She's a bit clunky. She doesn't really like to think. She seems to be smart, though, so you could have a lot of fun with her. :|
@TheEllenShow
"If you like my Grandma better than my mom then you're a (not you) n* * * * *."
Just a theory, didn't mean it, really. My mom is right. My grandma is a fighter without a point, but she's really rough and put together funnily. I think that's because she's old, though. :|
Well, I thought she had some good points. Too bad for her fuss over the "n" word things and other hidden drawbacks from my life.
Just a theory, didn't mean it, really. My mom is right. My grandma is a fighter without a point, but she's really rough and put together funnily. I think that's because she's old, though. :|
Well, I thought she had some good points. Too bad for her fuss over the "n" word things and other hidden drawbacks from my life.
My Grandma
Also, she came over when I was 2 for my birthday... and I didn't like how I looked by that point... A short life lived. Then she was "around" for awhile after, like in Pre-K "helping" "my mother" and teaching my brother to walk and like doing weird things I think. There's this one picture, see, where his eyes are big and he looks limp, his hair a little lighter, and he looks over, and my grandma like crosses her eyes over and smiles.
@TheEllenShow
So, you have people hurt me because you're offended by the implications of my point I've gotten across for some odd reason?
So, I said, is YOUR mom there to pick you up for a reason I don't remember, but I'm constantly tortured by my dad about my grandma and other people about my dad.
So, I said, is YOUR mom there to pick you up for a reason I don't remember, but I'm constantly tortured by my dad about my grandma and other people about my dad.
@TheEllenShow - Ducks
Wow, that girl looks kinda healthy. I wonder what she's been eating, lately... Oh well, soon, I will go to the grocery store. Frankenweenie is over, and I have money and have been getting things here and there.
Those ducks... Hm? No comment.
Those people are kinda stupid, really. Point.
Those ducks... Hm? No comment.
Those people are kinda stupid, really. Point.
SOMEONE RIPPP MY DAD AND AUNT APART!!
I feel my aunt wants to reject the existence of my future daughter. Just **** her.
I felt my dad wants to reject the existence of my future son, said "...meat that to not meet this" or wait "get that (my eye crossing) to not meet this.) He's nothing and stupid and prejudiced and thinks he's actually something. I was walking this morning and listening to cars and thought of kids being like hamburgers. It was so funny.
Hey, what if my dad's eyes were semi-permanently crossed? And my aunts's and grandma's? Good-for-nothings.
I felt my dad wants to reject the existence of my future son, said "...meat that to not meet this" or wait "get that (my eye crossing) to not meet this.) He's nothing and stupid and prejudiced and thinks he's actually something. I was walking this morning and listening to cars and thought of kids being like hamburgers. It was so funny.
Hey, what if my dad's eyes were semi-permanently crossed? And my aunts's and grandma's? Good-for-nothings.
@TheEllenShow
Getting back at me? Getting my sick family involved in me???? My stupid family has no point and are very rude. Overly expressive.
Oh, and I think you don't respect my mom, think she's a nigger. Well, don't talk to my Native American dad. Are you gonna twist that into some literal thing, though?
Oh, and I think you don't respect my mom, think she's a nigger. Well, don't talk to my Native American dad. Are you gonna twist that into some literal thing, though?
I SAID GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU WORTHLESS ANIMALS.
I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID GOOD FOR NOTHING, NIGGERS.
LEAVE ME ALONE
STUPID GRANDMA. GO BACK TO YOUR HOLE, YOU STUPID-GOOD-FOR-NOTHING INTRUDERS! STOP IDEALIZING YORSELFS.
@TheEllenShow
MY STUPID WORTHLESS DAD THINK HE CAN SEXUALLY "CONTROL" ME, AND MAKE ONE EYE LOOK BIGGER THAN ANOTHER. I SAW THAT STUPID WORTHLESS BOY ON YOUR SHOW AND SOMEONE ELSE LIKE THAT. QUIT PLAYING AROUND WITH ME LIKE I'M PERVERTED TO GET ANY ATTENTION! YOU'RE SO STUPID AND WORTHLESS, PEOPLE! MY RELATIVES DESERVE TO BE TORTURED FOREVER!
@TheEllenShow
I think you affected my family life and think I'm trash. People never let me have the chance I've earned. I don't want to have anything to do with my dad sexually. I don't want anything to do with my illegitimate cousins and stupid Nell Burton. I don't want anything to do with my brainless, worthless dad. I go to sleep and the music affects me, apparently. It seems there is a lot of pressure in my eyes, and I felt my family mocking me for my incident. Never happened before. Let's see if we can't "do it" to the people who caused it...
I haven't felt like going to the grocery store recently, and, anyway, my brother is over. I did feel kinda fat like when I saw the fat people on your show. I got tired after working out a lot and took a break. I decided not to go on a heavy diet. That doesn't mean I should be brutalized. And treated like trash. I'm not going to style myself after trash! I'm not a pervert, and I'm not a stupid good-for-nothing lunk and "liar."
I'm not going to be like my brainless, perverted dad an stupid mom and worthless brother and relatives that deserve to be tortured forever.
I haven't felt like going to the grocery store recently, and, anyway, my brother is over. I did feel kinda fat like when I saw the fat people on your show. I got tired after working out a lot and took a break. I decided not to go on a heavy diet. That doesn't mean I should be brutalized. And treated like trash. I'm not going to style myself after trash! I'm not a pervert, and I'm not a stupid good-for-nothing lunk and "liar."
I'm not going to be like my brainless, perverted dad an stupid mom and worthless brother and relatives that deserve to be tortured forever.
Mad
It seems that somehow people have gotten my right eye to cross... It annoyed me greatly. I remember my cousin's eyes were crossed. }:{ What perves. Leave me alone! My dad made a little boop while I was in the bathroom uncrossing it. My mom and brother and being stuck up and stupid as ever by the sign of how their doors are opened. I used to have a feeling of my eyes being connected but never crossed. I wonder what did it this time. May as well poke at their eyes. Leave me alone niggers!
Niggers
I guess my family are just jealous niggers.
I said niggers because I didn't say who and I mean what I say because that's what I think and I don't know any other words that mean the same thing and don't have the energy to explain it or something. Too much.
Niggers because I've been treated like one all the time by everyone in the world and I have a right to use a word I like when it's not attacking someone at the start.
Also, I don't agree with people inflicting ugliness on good people. Those people "go to Hell." You shouldn't do that for attention because you are trash. :|
I said niggers because I didn't say who and I mean what I say because that's what I think and I don't know any other words that mean the same thing and don't have the energy to explain it or something. Too much.
Niggers because I've been treated like one all the time by everyone in the world and I have a right to use a word I like when it's not attacking someone at the start.
Also, I don't agree with people inflicting ugliness on good people. Those people "go to Hell." You shouldn't do that for attention because you are trash. :|
Recap
My grandma is a criminal. She controls my dad to be mean to me because she knows him as well as an experiment. She can affect him easily. I think it's true. We can steer away from her. If he acts like he's good, she'll be mean to my brother, suggestive. I'm not sure what she can do to my mom other than hurt her kids. She influences us to be uncomfortable, knows just how we're programmed. She's a real criminal. My dad feels so comfy and cozy about her dying soon. He gets away with it. Oh, my aunt calls her every day, the older one. I e-mail her and talk to her on Facebook. I bet my dad still talks to her. We just sent a birthday card... She's kinda weird and probably thinks we're weird speaking to her. My dad didn't know his dad's family probably because he was a Native American farmer.
I'm worried because my mom is affected by suggestions and keeps being mean to me so nothing happens to her. My grandma lets anything go. She's a real animal. She thinks she's all proper. My grandma is kinda stupid. She thinks my mom doesn't know how to take care of her nigger sperms..
I'm worried because my mom is affected by suggestions and keeps being mean to me so nothing happens to her. My grandma lets anything go. She's a real animal. She thinks she's all proper. My grandma is kinda stupid. She thinks my mom doesn't know how to take care of her nigger sperms..
D: Motorcyclist.
I heard a motorcyclist was just hit and killed. I wonder if my aunt did it. She was a police.
@ChloeGMoretz
Sorry!
Haha! I was kidding about the white connection. Well, no, I wasn't. :|
Well, I was just asking if you knew so much...and wondering why you were acting like kids from my generation. I mean, I don't think it's attractive, to be like me or how I was or how I didn't like myself.
Well, I was just wondering if your feelings were hurt easily.
I guess it was weird I brought up the thing about groveling.
Haha, I don't talk to those people, anymore, but probably will again.
Haha! I was kidding about the white connection. Well, no, I wasn't. :|
Well, I was just asking if you knew so much...and wondering why you were acting like kids from my generation. I mean, I don't think it's attractive, to be like me or how I was or how I didn't like myself.
Well, I was just wondering if your feelings were hurt easily.
I guess it was weird I brought up the thing about groveling.
Haha, I don't talk to those people, anymore, but probably will again.
@TheEllenShow
So, you think you have a good show?
Of course, you do. I was just saying. You seemed to think maybe I didn't really.
:p
Just because you don't have kids doesn't mean you can hurt other people. I don't like your smile.
I told you about the smile joke. I guess I meant something else. I recently got mad at the scrunch on Tim Burton's face to a breaking point. You should know I'm kidding. I just posted how I wish you had a kid in like mid-late 1997. A girl. Or a boy first. And then the girl in 1997.
I hope your mom does comfort you. My mom is quite subtle in how she handles me. She didn't pick me up much of my life, and I was proud of it when I stopped clinging to her, perhaps a bit too proud. I still remember hiding behind her dress or whatever she was wearing...
Getting hints from my dad? I've been talking about that.
Craaazy. Kinda weird song. :( That's okay, people who can't make a point, the French. I guess you do, but sometimes you don't. That's what you're supposed to be like. I guess it's not nice to suggest you think others are so stupid. Maybe, you don't think that in every way. I hope not. ':{
Singing on your show, nice. I've been singing since I was 5 or 6, choir since I was 7. :p Private voice at 18. :| Sing on my own now.
I did get back the pleasurable thought. I don't know why it had to connect through you.
Oh, yes, I was wondering why you were with an Italian. I guess she's respectable, a respectable, sophisticated distance. :|
Mixed people. People think the Spanish are less European than blacks, but that depends on how much blood you have. Johnny Depp is related to the first freed black woman.
Of course, you do. I was just saying. You seemed to think maybe I didn't really.
:p
Just because you don't have kids doesn't mean you can hurt other people. I don't like your smile.
I told you about the smile joke. I guess I meant something else. I recently got mad at the scrunch on Tim Burton's face to a breaking point. You should know I'm kidding. I just posted how I wish you had a kid in like mid-late 1997. A girl. Or a boy first. And then the girl in 1997.
I hope your mom does comfort you. My mom is quite subtle in how she handles me. She didn't pick me up much of my life, and I was proud of it when I stopped clinging to her, perhaps a bit too proud. I still remember hiding behind her dress or whatever she was wearing...
Getting hints from my dad? I've been talking about that.
Craaazy. Kinda weird song. :( That's okay, people who can't make a point, the French. I guess you do, but sometimes you don't. That's what you're supposed to be like. I guess it's not nice to suggest you think others are so stupid. Maybe, you don't think that in every way. I hope not. ':{
Singing on your show, nice. I've been singing since I was 5 or 6, choir since I was 7. :p Private voice at 18. :| Sing on my own now.
I did get back the pleasurable thought. I don't know why it had to connect through you.
Oh, yes, I was wondering why you were with an Italian. I guess she's respectable, a respectable, sophisticated distance. :|
Mixed people. People think the Spanish are less European than blacks, but that depends on how much blood you have. Johnny Depp is related to the first freed black woman.
Animals
I have a wicked family who won't quit coming round and attack you because of their STUPID N WORD TRICK...whatever that means. :| If I asked you to call me that or you thought I wanted you to because of how things were going, wouldn't you and do it maybe in a bad way, who whick whick which hopefully not.
I didn't really want to and shouldn't have.
I didn't really want to and shouldn't have.
My Dad
D:{ LEAVE ME ALONE! I don't want him to "take the place of my mom."
Now I forget what I was gonna say...
Oh yea, I don't want him to deal with me a certain way, but others are okay. What did I even say? Ah! I'm so sick!
Um, what's going on? Don't make my life worse. Got a fetish? }:|
Now I forget what I was gonna say...
Oh yea, I don't want him to deal with me a certain way, but others are okay. What did I even say? Ah! I'm so sick!
Um, what's going on? Don't make my life worse. Got a fetish? }:|
My Dad
I was with my mom more.
I wonder if he decided to do things because of what I did. Why doesn't he dail with reality?
I wonder if he decided to do things because of what I did. Why doesn't he dail with reality?
Helena Bonham Carter
Quit arguing how I'm supposed to think of her puffalump daughter, and why did she make her so....
I mean, I won't accept that it's like meaning I have to do all these bad things, like thinking I'm not good and stuff because I don't want to be like her, no. Not exactly nor not really much like her technically, though in ways yes.
I mean, I won't accept that it's like meaning I have to do all these bad things, like thinking I'm not good and stuff because I don't want to be like her, no. Not exactly nor not really much like her technically, though in ways yes.
My Grandma
She seems to secretly think I'm my dad's sin because my mom is not Caucasian, technically, in a way.
I think my dad is mad because she can affect him easily. I'm not sure what happened to my aunts, but they seem to answer back to her, still. :| Um, with my mom, I have like the relationship you're supposed to have, for who she is, though it isn't perfect, probably.
I think my dad is mad because she can affect him easily. I'm not sure what happened to my aunts, but they seem to answer back to her, still. :| Um, with my mom, I have like the relationship you're supposed to have, for who she is, though it isn't perfect, probably.
Jealous
It seems some people think they can emit jealousy on others, but who cares everyone does it! Why just do it yourself? Take away your dignity???
MY GRANDMA
When I visited her, I started to look Chinese. I was 2. I talked to her on the phone as an infant, too. I think I was more developed, then, but I dunno something else came up...
Dream
So, I felt so comforted, like I didn't have to be with Burton and I was still good like, a deep feeling of different levels, like I said. Like, it was going to the center of the earth or something.
Dream
The feeling was so deep, and I felt like orbs circling me. Like, it was as deep as like how ... well, like endless, like how I felt the reverberating pain tapped that seemed like it happened over an hour or so of me sleeping, on that level. It's so funny... I'm not really sure why. I woke up to do something else, though.
Dream
So, after I woke up, I had this pleasant feeling, somehow so deep, of someone putting their arm around me while I met|left like working with or something Tim Burton. Like, it felt like someone was really digging into my feelings and being, a nice experience. I'm glad I was able to do it, but it was a bit weird. I mean, it's good, better than not thinking of like a person, I mean. However, I don't think of everyone.
D: ~~~~~~ I mean D: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY AUNT JUST SENT ME A FACEBOOK MESSAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH THE WORD PETROLIUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT SUGGESTS POWER OVER SOMETHING THAT JUST HAPPENED TO ME. I SAID GET OUT OF MY LIFE LIKE THAT. THAT'S SICK. I DON'T WANT YOU SMART OVER ME IN THAT WAY SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT. YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND CURSE FOR NO REASON AT KIDS. STOP TORTURING ME YOU NIGGERS.
I don't give a fuck about Helena Bonham Carter and my old blog.
NOW THE MUSIC IS BOTHERING ME. D: I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU ALL RUINING MY LIFE AND MY THOUGHTS. I HATE THIS MUSIC. HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE NOT TORTURING ME WITH IT NOW? QUIT GETTING ME TO SAY STUFF YOU STUPID BABIES. LEAVE ME AND MY EMOTIONAL LIFE ALONE, TOO. LEAVE ME ALONE!
I don't give a fuck about Helena Bonham Carter and my old blog.
NOW THE MUSIC IS BOTHERING ME. D: I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU ALL RUINING MY LIFE AND MY THOUGHTS. I HATE THIS MUSIC. HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE NOT TORTURING ME WITH IT NOW? QUIT GETTING ME TO SAY STUFF YOU STUPID BABIES. LEAVE ME AND MY EMOTIONAL LIFE ALONE, TOO. LEAVE ME ALONE!
Now what? Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want you coming around ruining my life!
My Aunt
Why do I keep hearing from my aunt? I'm tired of her messages. GET OUT OF MY LIFE, in that way. I get negative reverberations. I don't want to solve your puzzles of hatred towards me like that.
I DON'T WANT MY GAY FAMILY IN MY LIFE LIKE THIS. They are bad and disgusting. Shut up and leave me alone, niggers!
I DON'T WANT YOUR IMAGES OF YOU TORTURING PEOPLE I LIKE AND HOARDING PEOPLE WHO DON'T WANT YOUR SILLY ASSES.
I DON'T WANT MY GAY FAMILY IN MY LIFE LIKE THIS. They are bad and disgusting. Shut up and leave me alone, niggers!
I DON'T WANT YOUR IMAGES OF YOU TORTURING PEOPLE I LIKE AND HOARDING PEOPLE WHO DON'T WANT YOUR SILLY ASSES.
STOP
I feel that I haven't gotten even the right food at this time to teach me a lesson. I'll go soon.
It doesn't seem we've had food on the table, lately.
Also, the music I hear is bugging me. Obviously.
People are so sick with my life. Give it up for "the baby Jew!" Leave me the Hell alone, niggers!
It doesn't seem we've had food on the table, lately.
Also, the music I hear is bugging me. Obviously.
People are so sick with my life. Give it up for "the baby Jew!" Leave me the Hell alone, niggers!
}:{
Guess what, I just got attacked with noises in the garage by this machine that wouldn't stop, even with my earplugs on, and it got annoying and is simply unforgiveable!!!! D:{
A Strange Turn of Events
I just realized my brother thinks he's made himself nothing to prove that I'm nothing, that that's "what he is."
I keep getting messages from others about my grandma and dad, too. How perverted, lame, babyish! :p Hmph. It is. I got the feeling that I just couldn't take it and pretty much had to protect myself. How would I do that? Pretty much you have to roughhouse others because it doesn't seem they are rough enough themselves.
I thought I got a message and couldn't handle it for some reason, the reverberations and the fact I was looking for it.
I'm worried because when I think these things my grandma gets mad. Maybe, it's not her fault, but I dunno, seems like it. I'll just go with that she does that, but usually it shouldn't be like that. I can't believe my mom thinks I have to listen to everyone about everything, like psychopathically, because I'm always good, actually.
So, obviously, it's not just my grandma's fault. My dad just has a weak bladder, so-to-speak, and she gets infued on me so I'll go crazy. :p I think she's always mad at him but close, still. :|
I just "forgot how to dance." My singing got worse from not working out as much, too, and I'm looking worse.
I keep getting messages from others about my grandma and dad, too. How perverted, lame, babyish! :p Hmph. It is. I got the feeling that I just couldn't take it and pretty much had to protect myself. How would I do that? Pretty much you have to roughhouse others because it doesn't seem they are rough enough themselves.
I thought I got a message and couldn't handle it for some reason, the reverberations and the fact I was looking for it.
I'm worried because when I think these things my grandma gets mad. Maybe, it's not her fault, but I dunno, seems like it. I'll just go with that she does that, but usually it shouldn't be like that. I can't believe my mom thinks I have to listen to everyone about everything, like psychopathically, because I'm always good, actually.
So, obviously, it's not just my grandma's fault. My dad just has a weak bladder, so-to-speak, and she gets infued on me so I'll go crazy. :p I think she's always mad at him but close, still. :|
I just "forgot how to dance." My singing got worse from not working out as much, too, and I'm looking worse.
How to Get My Dad to Stop Bothering You
Isn't he irritating and ridiculous? I mean you claim he'll like hurt you if you're not bad to me.
Mad
I don't want my dad probing his nose in my life. He's being suggestive and trying to take over. I don't want him taking over. I just don't want to hear what no one else has to. I don't want to be told I don't deserve anything because other people are jealous of the intelligence I accumulated.
Can someone like psych in a mortal finish to my family?
I am to experience my full life without relatives getting in the way.
Unimportant
Some people keep snubbing in for attention like it has to be without thinking, just acting like an animal. They think everything is a suggestion to them and blame people who weren't the ones who "said it" nor meant to ever say it because it didn't mean anything... I am not really mean. }:( Please stop bothering me, you stupid people!
Machine
I just get thoughts ... I had some harsh ones but then something concrete.
I don't know if my dad is capable of knocking me out. He might be bossy like his family. I know I'm capable of bothering my mom.
I don't know if my dad is capable of knocking me out. He might be bossy like his family. I know I'm capable of bothering my mom.
The messages won't stop.
I keep getting people I don't like inflicted on me. They should know those who are special to them, but some parents are incompetent cretins.
Frankenweenie
I noticed that maybe Tim Burton has taken like hints from me in his movie. I wonder how that goes over? It's not my fault. I don't think he cares. He's been harsh, lately.
It'll probably get more and more interesting as more people see it.
It'll probably get more and more interesting as more people see it.
Leave me alone!
Stop giving me hidden messages. Don't you know no one will like you for coming on like you're something you're simply ... er ... not? I'm reading it in the signals! I don't like to be molested in private like that, neither. Please, don't go on in German all clunky like a nigger. Hey, my nose on the other side just got wider when I turned my head some. The right side had an indent, and the other side just got bigger. Why don't you do something sutpid like this instead of cause it on me? I'm not gonna do what you do. Pretty much, I've kept my rapport about the Nell Burton incidence, but IW ill not change anything from befroe.
Like a Machine
Sometimes, the cars go by and I think of things that might be the cause of my parents and I get upset. Sometimes, in private, I think of things with other people that are bad by accident, but it's their fault it comes up.
I keep feeling so much pressure by my egg sacks.
I'm pretty sure this is all bad. I'm tired of complaining for now and wanted to relax at home.
Well, this morning I felt my nails kinda go out on the left hand when my dad left for work. I met him at the corner. I had met my mom at the other corner.
It's funny I used to draw toenails on the TV and pimples, for my brother and of my dad. I wonder what that means...
People keep picking on me like they can. It's not really funny I was made vulnerable, but I know a lot. I'm like a machine!
I'm tired of being stimulated in perverted ways. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is why you need to be ******.
I keep feeling so much pressure by my egg sacks.
I'm pretty sure this is all bad. I'm tired of complaining for now and wanted to relax at home.
Well, this morning I felt my nails kinda go out on the left hand when my dad left for work. I met him at the corner. I had met my mom at the other corner.
It's funny I used to draw toenails on the TV and pimples, for my brother and of my dad. I wonder what that means...
People keep picking on me like they can. It's not really funny I was made vulnerable, but I know a lot. I'm like a machine!
I'm tired of being stimulated in perverted ways. LEAVE ME ALONE! This is why you need to be ******.
Johnny Depp is so perverted.
Definitely, so is my dad. They just think of every possible thing you could do because people are niggers. Then, they go through it with you rather than let you live your life you let these things happen to you. I don't think they have anything to teach me.
Something Unexciting
I felt like the right cheek, which I've felt swirling around, rip at the nose crack.
Also, I noticed I have a line on my eyelid like a cousin's baby. The right one. Well, the baby used to look like that.
Also, I noticed I have a line on my eyelid like a cousin's baby. The right one. Well, the baby used to look like that.
My Dad or Johnny Depp
So, what, should I really like be "onto" my dad literally, physically knowing him, or is Johnny Depp just listening to what our parents want?
I hate Johnny Depp. Not Really. But-
He's rude to me. Wait, is he?
I just got the idea of him torturing my future son.
That's so lame the way he "says it."
I just got the idea of him torturing my future son.
That's so lame the way he "says it."
Why should...
Why should only people born around 1960 be babied to people born around 1950 as less disgusting and more like cute and rubbery-fluffy or like solid in a good way, and like juicy from eating right?
Shorter and Shorter
I guess, I feel I'm solidifying my figure but want longer legs. So, we'll see what happens. It's because of the medicine. My life was okay before the "n" word thing. My periods are bad and my egg sacks are stimulated. They had gotten so heavy and rich! I was dripping blood when I woke up, though. Maybe, I need to eat more and wait another year.
Wrong Steps
I don't think you need to go through being perverted to come out how you were to begin with...
Gay
So, if you're wondering why I'm happy I'm getting shorter it's because I think I've been stretching my spine too much and not my legs, hopefully which will ... also I need to be stimulated in my crotch because all these years, since I was 11, I've not been since seeing that girl from L.A. who looked so good, was slim, yet seemed so fat, with white hair ... because I took medicine that seems to have made me taller whereas I was trying to get taller in the right way before and didn't. I don't know why I seem taller now.
I thought about it ... somehow people putting their arm around me while I'm sitting down would stimulate me... depending on who and how I react. So, I was thinking, I don't need to be reassured on rides because I feel dead and am assuming that most people if not would need to be reassured by their boyfriends, etc... How3ever, I discovered something interesting. I don't know if I'd really ever go on a ferris wheel again, which kinda interested me ... so, I think I would like to. I mean it's not that boat ride that swings back and forth? Imagine some people would really get scared... I'm also upset because my neck got hurt on a log ride like Splash Mountain. I thought I'd have fun. When I wanted to do hurtles in P.E. when I moved, I couldn't do any. I was 12.
I think some people can really get scared, and it's funny if it happens. I mean, you can get in pain, too. :S My aunt was a police, but I know she gets like agitated. More than me in a way. She's younger than my dad.
Think about how some people react to gatherings like campfires. I guess it gets me sappy. I love going on the hikes, though, now that is cool! I do feel a lot, but I'd prefer a reeal hike.
Festivals are the biggest thing for me. You get dressed up in modern clothes. I think the peak for me was thinking someone older would notice me, like an adult, but that's not where the fun was but where the hype was, shouldn't be something you have to mull over. I always liked festivals, guess it sorta echoed what was to come.
I thought of something. My dad did the kiddie games at the festivals at 2 different schools. He had to get surgery on his knee I thik at the 3rd school... He got surgery again, later. He even remembers today and so do I, something I don't remember, too, that the car like exploded at the gas station then. After his second surgery I used store cards to buy stuff and put up Alice in Wonderland stuff on the walls. My grandma got some sort of surgery years ago and was fired by an older brother, where she worked at a craft store. I remember there was a lady there, not older than her, who was obese and tall but not like plump who cried when I was there. There were lots of things. Also, she took me to the store and there was a lady she knew working at a place like for popcorn. When I talked to a relative, she talked about her flabby arms and mine got flabby. I saw in a video someone who looked like her got like African-looking hands, with short curly hair. What else? My grandma acted like I was a problem in how I didn't always respond as assertively when we were out. Hm.
I feel killed, really, and made to be the opposite of all that was accomplished for people born in 1960, and it's probably very outwardly taxing.
Also, I'm like an active sperm and will attack any other sperms that are no good, even if I die!
I thought about it ... somehow people putting their arm around me while I'm sitting down would stimulate me... depending on who and how I react. So, I was thinking, I don't need to be reassured on rides because I feel dead and am assuming that most people if not would need to be reassured by their boyfriends, etc... How3ever, I discovered something interesting. I don't know if I'd really ever go on a ferris wheel again, which kinda interested me ... so, I think I would like to. I mean it's not that boat ride that swings back and forth? Imagine some people would really get scared... I'm also upset because my neck got hurt on a log ride like Splash Mountain. I thought I'd have fun. When I wanted to do hurtles in P.E. when I moved, I couldn't do any. I was 12.
I think some people can really get scared, and it's funny if it happens. I mean, you can get in pain, too. :S My aunt was a police, but I know she gets like agitated. More than me in a way. She's younger than my dad.
Think about how some people react to gatherings like campfires. I guess it gets me sappy. I love going on the hikes, though, now that is cool! I do feel a lot, but I'd prefer a reeal hike.
Festivals are the biggest thing for me. You get dressed up in modern clothes. I think the peak for me was thinking someone older would notice me, like an adult, but that's not where the fun was but where the hype was, shouldn't be something you have to mull over. I always liked festivals, guess it sorta echoed what was to come.
I thought of something. My dad did the kiddie games at the festivals at 2 different schools. He had to get surgery on his knee I thik at the 3rd school... He got surgery again, later. He even remembers today and so do I, something I don't remember, too, that the car like exploded at the gas station then. After his second surgery I used store cards to buy stuff and put up Alice in Wonderland stuff on the walls. My grandma got some sort of surgery years ago and was fired by an older brother, where she worked at a craft store. I remember there was a lady there, not older than her, who was obese and tall but not like plump who cried when I was there. There were lots of things. Also, she took me to the store and there was a lady she knew working at a place like for popcorn. When I talked to a relative, she talked about her flabby arms and mine got flabby. I saw in a video someone who looked like her got like African-looking hands, with short curly hair. What else? My grandma acted like I was a problem in how I didn't always respond as assertively when we were out. Hm.
I feel killed, really, and made to be the opposite of all that was accomplished for people born in 1960, and it's probably very outwardly taxing.
Also, I'm like an active sperm and will attack any other sperms that are no good, even if I die!
My Aunt
I was upset because I was feeling bad and I saw a picture of my lips on Facebook talking to her, and my face was hard to control. Since then, my dad's been like not being as courteous to me and like trying to stretch out acting like he's punishing me. I don't know where I can safely turn. He has a lot of power but shouldn't! Why not have power over people he can handle?
Dream
I remember the first one was like a locker in like a mental hospital all dark, there was like this big machine that was all dark and shiny. I guess it had doors in it. It was probably like a place where kids stayed and got tortured. There weren't many people there that I remember. I think someone was there I wanted to put my arm around at the mall or something. I remember now kinda. There were other people in it.
The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa. There was this ride. First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me. It was about how I didn't like big drops. So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles. I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos. Then we were to go on the ride. Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride. I remember my mom was outside waiting, too. My friend was there. I made a new friend. A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny. So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.
I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams. It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.
I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice. The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now. I was trying to feel okay but things happened. It did feel pushed on me. I blame the thing with Johnny Depp. I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting. I felt better last night in some ways. It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess. I just feel like it in bed, though. I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance. I do need new bed covers... I don't know if I will get them. My room is messy in a way, for some reason. I know I need to ORDER ear plus. It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me. I woke up and turned off the music. Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.
Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed. I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit. A bit stimulated. It should cease. I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it. See, people are really bad. Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected. I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others! I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably. It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.
So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food. I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat. I need to learn to cook, too.
I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk. Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.
The next one I was at a festival and like remember I wanted to put my arm around the person again and vice versa. There was this ride. First I went on a roller coaster I designed that had lots of loops that didn't affect me. It was about how I didn't like big drops. So, then, there was a ride that was a big deal that went in circles, like at festivals, and it spun around in like Strawberry circles. I went in awhile and there was this room with pianos. Then we were to go on the ride. Some things happened and I couldn't dream of going on the ride. I remember my mom was outside waiting, too. My friend was there. I made a new friend. A brunette from junior high and high school used a girl with lighter hair who was similar as thinking she was my daughter and it made me feel funny. So, we were there a long time, like 15 or 20 minutes or so it seemed.
I guess I was upset and wanted to put my arm around the person the whole of these 2 dreams. It was a good feeling, though, and I kinda did.
I was upset when I woke up and felt stimulated twice. The first time was interesting but kinda bad and the second kinda flees from me now. I was trying to feel okay but things happened. It did feel pushed on me. I blame the thing with Johnny Depp. I'm pretty upset and felt pretty disgusting. I felt better last night in some ways. It was okay, just felt like in ttrouble I guess. I just feel like it in bed, though. I did discover that I wake up when there's something fun to do like dance. I do need new bed covers... I don't know if I will get them. My room is messy in a way, for some reason. I know I need to ORDER ear plus. It was an interesting experience but not perfect for me. I woke up and turned off the music. Maybe, I shouldn't keep it on.
Also, I read a message from my aunt and felt disturbed. I felt the nails on my left hand like circle over and now they feel smooth and trashy a bit. A bit stimulated. It should cease. I have a right to be very mad but am tired of announcing it. See, people are really bad. Now, also, my lip feels a bit affected. I'm supposed to be able to feel something from others! I blame the "n" word thing with Nell Burton, but it's not her fault, it's her mom's and Tim Burton's, probably. It's others's, too, but I don't know why nor who for sure.
So, I'm upset at how I feel, want to get better food. I want tasty food, too, and I guess decided on what to deat. I need to learn to cook, too.
I haven't worked out in awhile and slimmed down and shrunk. Wait, I got fatter, but my breast is smaller.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Ellen DeGeneres
So, are you mean to me because of weakness and pressure you feel from others or because ... wait, why are you like that?
Ellen DeGeneres
I realize she's uptight like her brother and a bit perverted with no real will. I just had to say that. So, I'm feeling the after-effects of watching her in the 80s just for not being comfortable and not having an answer to what I was thinking of her because my mind was already made up and I guess she doesn't figure anything out for good. I'm sure Florida is Spanish, even Disney, which is good in some ways but in this way too bad.
I guess people in the South can be cliquey. They're just defending how their culture can be worthless. They're dirty and rebellious because they don't get as much snow and cold as the rest of the U.S., forgetting their assets, which I know of from living there. It's not 0 but could be worthless. Also, they're sissies to the cold and pressure. I don't think it's very cold where my family lives, though. It's definitely cold but a bit unpleasant. I've been there, near the top of the country, in Christmas, and it's definitely freezing but not like the most chill feeling you could get.
I guess people in the South can be cliquey. They're just defending how their culture can be worthless. They're dirty and rebellious because they don't get as much snow and cold as the rest of the U.S., forgetting their assets, which I know of from living there. It's not 0 but could be worthless. Also, they're sissies to the cold and pressure. I don't think it's very cold where my family lives, though. It's definitely cold but a bit unpleasant. I've been there, near the top of the country, in Christmas, and it's definitely freezing but not like the most chill feeling you could get.
Johnny Depp
He's like an animal, always mean, mainly racist, which is dumb. When he meets a challenge, he finds out if they're all Caucasian. Had a family in France but left it.
Just because I got mad and he like ruined my reputation, which could probably literally kill me, and said I didn't really care if he ***** because I guess I was talking about like other people getting hurt and ****** constantly, I guess my perspective came up ... I awoke to the idea of him having, after ignoring the thoughts, and listenting to Baroque music on iTunes, of him having spun like my youngest daughter in the most pain you could think, like way up in the sky, for like maybe an hour or so, like all wound up. That's a reverberation of him, and I'd like to *beep*
He's just so racist and I keep getting the idea he keeps coming round and not caring if I live. I think he made me mad and start cursing, made me masturbate a lot, made me get in trouble with my parents forever for no good reason, and then made people, the whole world literally, want to kill me, hate on me 24/7, and spoil my reputation and the functioning of the world, for me. It's gotten me into a bad mental hospital and made me irritated for years.
I cannot believe what I awoke to. >^..^< ~ He almost killed me. I wasn't being totally serious. I was mad. He's, well, quite a joke. He's a movie star, doesn't need to be an uptight, disgusting perv. Always coming round with an insult like I deserve something bad. He doeesn't literally do that, which is why you don't see me seething at him, on YouTube... Stop picking on me because I'm maybe Native American!!!
NOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO? EVER EXPERIENCE A LOT OF PAIN LIKE THAT? WHAT ABOUT THE EGGS IN MY BODY AND MY FUTURE DAUGHTER?
What is Johnny Depp? That is of course worthless... Totally stupid. A racist ANIMAL. I don't act non-Caucasian.
I could delete it, but I was just mad and lots of people get mad worse ways, so, I guess you're all really just stupid and worthless.
Just because I got mad and he like ruined my reputation, which could probably literally kill me, and said I didn't really care if he ***** because I guess I was talking about like other people getting hurt and ****** constantly, I guess my perspective came up ... I awoke to the idea of him having, after ignoring the thoughts, and listenting to Baroque music on iTunes, of him having spun like my youngest daughter in the most pain you could think, like way up in the sky, for like maybe an hour or so, like all wound up. That's a reverberation of him, and I'd like to *beep*
He's just so racist and I keep getting the idea he keeps coming round and not caring if I live. I think he made me mad and start cursing, made me masturbate a lot, made me get in trouble with my parents forever for no good reason, and then made people, the whole world literally, want to kill me, hate on me 24/7, and spoil my reputation and the functioning of the world, for me. It's gotten me into a bad mental hospital and made me irritated for years.
I cannot believe what I awoke to. >^..^< ~ He almost killed me. I wasn't being totally serious. I was mad. He's, well, quite a joke. He's a movie star, doesn't need to be an uptight, disgusting perv. Always coming round with an insult like I deserve something bad. He doeesn't literally do that, which is why you don't see me seething at him, on YouTube... Stop picking on me because I'm maybe Native American!!!
NOW WHAT AM I GONNA DO? EVER EXPERIENCE A LOT OF PAIN LIKE THAT? WHAT ABOUT THE EGGS IN MY BODY AND MY FUTURE DAUGHTER?
What is Johnny Depp? That is of course worthless... Totally stupid. A racist ANIMAL. I don't act non-Caucasian.
I could delete it, but I was just mad and lots of people get mad worse ways, so, I guess you're all really just stupid and worthless.
Moms
So, what's it like having a mom who's born at a certain time, usually compare it to moms of other ages?
I mean how the people born around 1960, especially 1957-1961, are idealized.
I just explained how like it was your actual age and that like younger kids are younger in the style of their moms. I think it's sentimental and in a way you have choices.
I mean how the people born around 1960, especially 1957-1961, are idealized.
I just explained how like it was your actual age and that like younger kids are younger in the style of their moms. I think it's sentimental and in a way you have choices.
Get your nose outta my face!
Why don't people get their nose out of how my family eats? Do they want my dad to overeat over me, in the end?
Ellen With Kids 2
I really, like everyone else, like people born around 1957-1961. I mean the girls, dunno about guys, guys from 1949 or 1950 are cool.
So, I'm older but attached to my mom's generation|age but still am older. I like other women, too, but I just get so mad that Ellen is like not old enough to be my mom! I watch her show!
Anyway, I would indeed like to see the 15-year-olds be a fan of her, but now I feel a bit desensitized to it, like no one's out there, like no one my mom's age had a baby ... wait, they did! 8o It should work out, but for some reason my brother seems older. I don't know why. :| Probably because my mom moved to the U.S., plus my dad is older, but Nell Burton's dad was old but the same generation and class as Ellen.
I'm kinda sad. D*= I mean, since the "n" word thing, no one has accepted my kindness and I get rage on the internet. Thanks a lot, Nell Burton or Helena Bonham Carter! Not sure whose decision it was, maybe blame my dad, as well as maybe Johnny Depp??
I feel I hurt someone's feelings by saying that about Ellen, that she's not old enough to be my mom, that she will never have kids. I don't really understand. My aunt had a kid, but she's not like her and she's Italian, and my grandma doesn't like Italian.
So, she saw Zoey Deschanel, but isn't she like 20?
Hm. How old is Chloë Moretz? I dunno... I gotta find out... Oh, so she's }:D ... 16? No, she's 15! :D I wonder if she's looking for someone even younger. I don't know who's younger. Maybe, Chloë Moretz is ... shy. Chloë Moretz is just different, but I thought she was German and maybe French. She's definitely German, which is scary, so I wonder if she really is. Oh wow, it's not really funny. I think kids with parents a little younger than my dad are the counter to Ellen's generation, but I'm like over and above that so more like "what" she thinks she is. So, Chloë might be like German, Dutch, French, East German, or Swedish?
I just realized that people who are older can tickle you, pretty much, works out for people like born in like 1975 with people born in 1960. I guess the same goes for people born in 1970.
I used to think that people born in 1970 would be nice to see as parents, but I guess that I would feel kinda authoritative.
It seems like my generation and my brother's generation and around and in between are like too old for her and like of another generation's parents. Even the others with moms my age.
I'm wondering now about kids born in like 1997-2004.
I'm kinda special, like Chloë, I kinda act like I'm older.
I guess Ellen's kid would be born in 1997.
;| Now shutting down.
What will we do now? 8|
When I was 11, I felt I was old enough to parent kids. Hm, I moved in 1998, though, and that actually was my big time. :| I saw Kate Bush, though, and that's not like Ellen nor my mom but more like Tim Burton for some reason. I don't get it. Why is Tim Burton like Kate Bush and I gues other women born around that time? Just a different generation, kinda like Jodie Foster. Hm. I guess it's the people themselves that matter.
I wonder why some people as a baby are more like babies and others like grow to mature in how they feel instead of like feeling less. Shouldn't you have a peak of your life in the middle?
I don't think I ever would have submitted to someone. I felt like I wanted to but "never did." Wait, not in a bad way, though!
I'm trying to accept how older people are much older.
So, I hope my life gets better and better soon.
I'm still looking out for kids out there who are like ... 19. Or 15 for Ellen DeGeneres, the age her kids would be!
I'm confused, what kids "were supposed to watch her show" in the 2000s? The ones who were mean to people like me?
So, I'm older but attached to my mom's generation|age but still am older. I like other women, too, but I just get so mad that Ellen is like not old enough to be my mom! I watch her show!
Anyway, I would indeed like to see the 15-year-olds be a fan of her, but now I feel a bit desensitized to it, like no one's out there, like no one my mom's age had a baby ... wait, they did! 8o It should work out, but for some reason my brother seems older. I don't know why. :| Probably because my mom moved to the U.S., plus my dad is older, but Nell Burton's dad was old but the same generation and class as Ellen.
I'm kinda sad. D*= I mean, since the "n" word thing, no one has accepted my kindness and I get rage on the internet. Thanks a lot, Nell Burton or Helena Bonham Carter! Not sure whose decision it was, maybe blame my dad, as well as maybe Johnny Depp??
I feel I hurt someone's feelings by saying that about Ellen, that she's not old enough to be my mom, that she will never have kids. I don't really understand. My aunt had a kid, but she's not like her and she's Italian, and my grandma doesn't like Italian.
So, she saw Zoey Deschanel, but isn't she like 20?
Hm. How old is Chloë Moretz? I dunno... I gotta find out... Oh, so she's }:D ... 16? No, she's 15! :D I wonder if she's looking for someone even younger. I don't know who's younger. Maybe, Chloë Moretz is ... shy. Chloë Moretz is just different, but I thought she was German and maybe French. She's definitely German, which is scary, so I wonder if she really is. Oh wow, it's not really funny. I think kids with parents a little younger than my dad are the counter to Ellen's generation, but I'm like over and above that so more like "what" she thinks she is. So, Chloë might be like German, Dutch, French, East German, or Swedish?
I just realized that people who are older can tickle you, pretty much, works out for people like born in like 1975 with people born in 1960. I guess the same goes for people born in 1970.
I used to think that people born in 1970 would be nice to see as parents, but I guess that I would feel kinda authoritative.
It seems like my generation and my brother's generation and around and in between are like too old for her and like of another generation's parents. Even the others with moms my age.
I'm wondering now about kids born in like 1997-2004.
I'm kinda special, like Chloë, I kinda act like I'm older.
I guess Ellen's kid would be born in 1997.
;| Now shutting down.
What will we do now? 8|
When I was 11, I felt I was old enough to parent kids. Hm, I moved in 1998, though, and that actually was my big time. :| I saw Kate Bush, though, and that's not like Ellen nor my mom but more like Tim Burton for some reason. I don't get it. Why is Tim Burton like Kate Bush and I gues other women born around that time? Just a different generation, kinda like Jodie Foster. Hm. I guess it's the people themselves that matter.
I wonder why some people as a baby are more like babies and others like grow to mature in how they feel instead of like feeling less. Shouldn't you have a peak of your life in the middle?
I don't think I ever would have submitted to someone. I felt like I wanted to but "never did." Wait, not in a bad way, though!
I'm trying to accept how older people are much older.
So, I hope my life gets better and better soon.
I'm still looking out for kids out there who are like ... 19. Or 15 for Ellen DeGeneres, the age her kids would be!
I'm confused, what kids "were supposed to watch her show" in the 2000s? The ones who were mean to people like me?
Niggers, Again :}
Why does my dad react like an animal? Like you stupid nigger kids. I say something logical, and you grunt and sqeuak and squack and talk like an animal and walk like an animal...
Ellen With Kids
I guess she likes kids slightly younger than me for some odd reason ... let's see ... she is 28 1|2 years older than me. Also, my mom's age might make me different and I'm not sure about my dad's age. He's a lot older. I think younger kids generally get knocked out more but come out more tough later on... I am open to interacting with people. I'm not sure what style or generation I'd like to think of as parents, but it's nice to see pretty much the generation or so after have kids... 8| I guess I'm worried about that a lot of people younger than me that Ellen likes, not sure how old they'd be at this point, 15? I was thinking like a little younger than me, but I'm 26 now. :| I don't deny my mom's style. I think I'm a certain generation. I guess that's true. I don't know about the age of my egg. I guess that makes a difference, but I'm still younger. It definitely makes a difference how old you are! 80 That's what, the main thing, I think... It seems like it. I get along with women born around my mom's age well, as well as pretty much any older ladies. Let's think about this, though. If she likes kids who are 15, now, that means they would be ... she's born ... she's ... 54? So, she would have been 39 when they were born? When I was 15, I don't know, but I didn't watch TV! D8 I watched cartoons as a kid, well, mostly I watched all the episodes of "Doug" and "Rugrats." My brother is 21? I connect with other kids his age, though. Like, the ones with white hair are cute, but I think they got old and fat. Then, what about the kids who are like ... born 1993. They'd be 19, first year of college. I don't really get it. Well, my grandma is 2 years older than her mom. So, I guess she'd maybe have kids 2 years ltaer, 1995? That's when she did the ride at Disney. Those kids would be 17, though. So, if you're 16, she'd have been ... 37 for the other kids ... and 39 for if you're 15 now. Makes sense. So, who's 15???? 8|
What age would my mom be? That's a scary thought. My dad is born July 1950. Hm... The problem is I get on pretty well with ladies who are just a little younger than my dad and even older, so I dunno. Maybe, someone born in 1955? That's just 3 years before Ellen was born. So, that means that if I was born 3 years later, I'd now be 23 1|2 almost. The "n" word thing happened when I was 23 1|2. :| So, if I was 2 years younger, I'd be the age of my last year of college, like my brother, not a good time. If I was a little younger than that, I'd be the other ages I mentioned. :| I wonder what kinds of ages of moms she likes. Maybe, she likes that youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch." It seems the style went out of style after that, seeing as Jodie Foster was so different and I've seen other women, too. Also, my aunt is born a year before that, and my mom is born before that, so it's weird. I wish I could settle down and like relate to people with a style I like. I've seen women a bit younger than my mom, a bit older than my aunt, and it's an interesting experience. I guess I'm just used to other people.
I see she started at 27. :) I'm 26 1|2. YouTube. It seems my mom was more mature, but I seem to be able to be as mature as she was. :| I didn't try to be little to her, but I tried to be like her. I feel that women older than my father are too old for me, but I like a lot of them a lot. I somehow slip away or something and go on. My other aunt is just a few years younger than my dad. Late 1953. :| She always seemed too young for me because I was with my dad. I guess I did like the lady in Grease who was born in 1951, the one who did the TV show with the trains.
What age would my mom be? That's a scary thought. My dad is born July 1950. Hm... The problem is I get on pretty well with ladies who are just a little younger than my dad and even older, so I dunno. Maybe, someone born in 1955? That's just 3 years before Ellen was born. So, that means that if I was born 3 years later, I'd now be 23 1|2 almost. The "n" word thing happened when I was 23 1|2. :| So, if I was 2 years younger, I'd be the age of my last year of college, like my brother, not a good time. If I was a little younger than that, I'd be the other ages I mentioned. :| I wonder what kinds of ages of moms she likes. Maybe, she likes that youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch." It seems the style went out of style after that, seeing as Jodie Foster was so different and I've seen other women, too. Also, my aunt is born a year before that, and my mom is born before that, so it's weird. I wish I could settle down and like relate to people with a style I like. I've seen women a bit younger than my mom, a bit older than my aunt, and it's an interesting experience. I guess I'm just used to other people.
I see she started at 27. :) I'm 26 1|2. YouTube. It seems my mom was more mature, but I seem to be able to be as mature as she was. :| I didn't try to be little to her, but I tried to be like her. I feel that women older than my father are too old for me, but I like a lot of them a lot. I somehow slip away or something and go on. My other aunt is just a few years younger than my dad. Late 1953. :| She always seemed too young for me because I was with my dad. I guess I did like the lady in Grease who was born in 1951, the one who did the TV show with the trains.
Bad People
Do you know people are made to feel happy for no reason, at all?
Everything in the world is morally being fought for them!
Everything in the world is morally being fought for them!
Weirdos|Monsters
Do you know people who at any odds will test someone? Just because of something that happened, just go around being mean to everyone about anything?
Do you know people who have others take your place in the kind of relationship and distance you had?
Do you know people who have others take your place in the kind of relationship and distance you had?
Ellen DeGeneres
Do you really think she knows what she's doing? She like makes things go downhill for me. Like, I'm alone and suddenly I'll think of something.
Ellen DeGeneres
I was thinking it was funny, like Tim Burton, sometimes it seems so much like it's all about Portia, like in theory.
I just got upset. It's funny more people don't post online.
I know, with me, people like say I'm all that and then get mad when they don't get any attention. They try to rub it in. I know a lot of times I'm a favorite but not a teacher's pet. I'm that star that twinkles in the distance out of the corner of your eye. Like my dad said on his website he took down, with a story, too, and quotes and stuff I think, when it gets darker outside or something you can see the furthest stars the brightest.
I guess I should have kept my head from spinning or something and realized that Ellen is dedicated to everyone and that you have to respond, but I guess I was confused because of the "n" word thing, and it's like things have been taken away from me.
I'm beginning to think Tim Burton and his girlfriend think nothing matters that they do, but they need to QUIT GETTING MAD AT WHAT I DO AND WHAT MY MOM DOES AND AT MY DAD LIKE WE'RE NIGGERS! They're probably jealous they're not smart like the Chinese. Neither is Ellen DeGeneres. Why? Duh, they aren't Chinese nor do they wish to be nor should they. Except, Ellen seems to have a fetish with her mom's last name. I don't have a fetish with my mom's last name, at all, though. I guess I used to have a fetish with her traits from her dad, but I think that's gone now. Not sure why. It's just not there. Also, Helena Bonham Carter's mom's last name is Spanish, but her mom is mostly Jewish.
I just got upset. It's funny more people don't post online.
I know, with me, people like say I'm all that and then get mad when they don't get any attention. They try to rub it in. I know a lot of times I'm a favorite but not a teacher's pet. I'm that star that twinkles in the distance out of the corner of your eye. Like my dad said on his website he took down, with a story, too, and quotes and stuff I think, when it gets darker outside or something you can see the furthest stars the brightest.
I guess I should have kept my head from spinning or something and realized that Ellen is dedicated to everyone and that you have to respond, but I guess I was confused because of the "n" word thing, and it's like things have been taken away from me.
I'm beginning to think Tim Burton and his girlfriend think nothing matters that they do, but they need to QUIT GETTING MAD AT WHAT I DO AND WHAT MY MOM DOES AND AT MY DAD LIKE WE'RE NIGGERS! They're probably jealous they're not smart like the Chinese. Neither is Ellen DeGeneres. Why? Duh, they aren't Chinese nor do they wish to be nor should they. Except, Ellen seems to have a fetish with her mom's last name. I don't have a fetish with my mom's last name, at all, though. I guess I used to have a fetish with her traits from her dad, but I think that's gone now. Not sure why. It's just not there. Also, Helena Bonham Carter's mom's last name is Spanish, but her mom is mostly Jewish.
Picture in Background
For some reason, I couldn't get it down to a small size and so it's small. I mean the file size!!!!
My Grandma needs to, like, get the Hell away!
She's affected my relationship with my parents, and I don't know why.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Feelings
Aw, I know you're schizophrenic. Did I hurt your feelings? Because I want to torture people? You shouldn't be worried because I didn't really mean anything yet. I just mean that I will not be humiliated. I guess I can't change it, but it's how I will treat you. I won't really be mean to you, but I do not accept. You think I don't do anything at all, but you make yourself go in convulsions all over me? I want to know who and what caused it. Oooh, ha, I already know. So, why are you asking me a stupid questions?
Dream
So, I was in bed and feeling good and not feeling like anyone was doing it to me, but I "felt it in the sheets," I mean, like I felt like I was all my sheets, too. However, I think like dreaming, I was thinking of being like at a crack of a wall and like going over to it and facing it. Like kinda on the side. Imagining it was a person, and that person like ot me off and told me to stop.
I had a harsh dream I don't remember.
Well, I kinda remember the nature of it but feel tired from growing and eating. :|
I had a harsh dream I don't remember.
Well, I kinda remember the nature of it but feel tired from growing and eating. :|
Wow
Supposedly, my dad was mean to me and so people don't like him like before, but it's all Nell Burton's fault, Tim Burton, you selfish father!
Why should I sit here and figure out how to feed my dad when I'm sick and hungry myself?
Is there something wrong with my mom? Why does she think she feeds my dad well enough? I hate her stupid food. I don't even eat with them, now.
I really hate Nell Burton. I feel all sorts of things inflicted on me because of her. Her msideeds. Alls he is is hatred toward me. What use is that? At hermometeor.
How is my dad supposed to be alert to her whims and desires? She doesn't want to be Chinese? Fine. Then, don't eat Chinese food! Dummy! :^{
I don't want to mess up along the way.
Oh my God. Is my dad a martyr to bad food? My brother had chicken wings. He also started liking steak. I dunno, he had a noodle and other fixations. Early on.
This food is stupid. I like it, but I don't want to eat with my dad at home.
I don't like rice and shredded chicken. I want beef, soup, prepared vegetables, starches, some potatos, different kinds of noodles and things, European food, spicy food. There's no good soup at the store. I don't know how I'll have the time to make it. I'm not into cooking right now. My mom is busy, but she wasn't busy before. My dad is more questionable to me about food. He riles me up at the grocery store. Go rile up your sisters, you bastard.
My dad is mean to me. He wants to think I'm insignificant.
Why doesn't he get a grill and grill some steaks? I know he's on a diet, but a little beef should be good. That's what he eats out. My mom doesn't cook the cauliflower anymore, and I don't really know why but think that she should.
I really hate Nell Burton. I feel all sorts of things inflicted on me because of her. Her msideeds. Alls he is is hatred toward me. What use is that? At hermometeor.
How is my dad supposed to be alert to her whims and desires? She doesn't want to be Chinese? Fine. Then, don't eat Chinese food! Dummy! :^{
I don't want to mess up along the way.
Oh my God. Is my dad a martyr to bad food? My brother had chicken wings. He also started liking steak. I dunno, he had a noodle and other fixations. Early on.
This food is stupid. I like it, but I don't want to eat with my dad at home.
I don't like rice and shredded chicken. I want beef, soup, prepared vegetables, starches, some potatos, different kinds of noodles and things, European food, spicy food. There's no good soup at the store. I don't know how I'll have the time to make it. I'm not into cooking right now. My mom is busy, but she wasn't busy before. My dad is more questionable to me about food. He riles me up at the grocery store. Go rile up your sisters, you bastard.
My dad is mean to me. He wants to think I'm insignificant.
Why doesn't he get a grill and grill some steaks? I know he's on a diet, but a little beef should be good. That's what he eats out. My mom doesn't cook the cauliflower anymore, and I don't really know why but think that she should.
I *BEEEP*
It seems Ellen DeGeneres thinks she has something against me. She's not very nice, herself, really. She's just not that much of an honest person who deserves to know the truth of what can happen to her. As long as I'm around.
I can say whatever I want. I'm not some uptight hokey. You're not in the world. You don't even know what life is. That's probably why no one watches, WHAT THEY SAY WHAT YOU THINK IS OKAY FOR OTHER PEOPLE TO SAY WHO KNOW ABOUT YOU... your "stupid" show.
My dad is better off ****. I can really h... him. I wanna wipe that ... "silly" grin off his FACE!
I don't care "what" you say. I'll corner you and hunt you down and then t... you.
I can say whatever I want. I'm not some uptight hokey. You're not in the world. You don't even know what life is. That's probably why no one watches, WHAT THEY SAY WHAT YOU THINK IS OKAY FOR OTHER PEOPLE TO SAY WHO KNOW ABOUT YOU... your "stupid" show.
My dad is better off ****. I can really h... him. I wanna wipe that ... "silly" grin off his FACE!
I don't care "what" you say. I'll corner you and hunt you down and then t... you.
I want to *beep*
I just felt something unpleasant in my egg sacks. I caught on something. Anyway, it felt like the whites of toenails or fingernails and not in a good way. I felt it more prominently. I don't think that had to happen. Hm. I hope you all never have babies! I'm mad beyond belief. I want to **** my psychiatrist, too.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, my dad is just a nigger, a disgusting failure of a human being who can't shut up and leave me be like my mom, same with my aunts, they're just brats.
Thanks to the niggers in England for their saucy, dirty, stupid influence. Go put yourselves together and stop seeking out successes in the U.S. to correct.
I'm tired of this Irish shit, too.
Don't even get me started with "Scottish" Americans.
I can do whatever I want. Stop playing games.
I don't CARE ABOUT MY DAD'S STUPID SISTERS. I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO SAY THAT THIS IS WORTHLESS.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, my dad is just a nigger, a disgusting failure of a human being who can't shut up and leave me be like my mom, same with my aunts, they're just brats.
Thanks to the niggers in England for their saucy, dirty, stupid influence. Go put yourselves together and stop seeking out successes in the U.S. to correct.
I'm tired of this Irish shit, too.
Don't even get me started with "Scottish" Americans.
I can do whatever I want. Stop playing games.
I don't CARE ABOUT MY DAD'S STUPID SISTERS. I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO SAY THAT THIS IS WORTHLESS.
Don't start.
Some people with Native American are really forward with Europeans. Don't think we can't like do what we want and even be mean to you without you getting back at us until you go mad.
ELLEN DEGENERES
I AM NOT PORTIA. I AM NOT ITALIAN. I AM NOT AUSTRALIAN. WHY ARE YOU INFLUENCING MY PARENTS TO BE MEAN TO WONE ANOTHER?
MY DAD REALLY IS RETARDED
BUT THERE ISN'T ANY GOOD MEDICINE OUT THERE!!!!
He thinks we need to get ready for the world, but lets just hurt other people.
He thinks we need to get ready for the world, but lets just hurt other people.
Stop treating me like a nigger.
You can't say I can't do something.
What else was I thinking?
Well, I can sense jealousy seeping in. Why do you think you're the only one who can be jealous of me? What do you think I am, your VooDoo doll? I'm not a nigger, at any rate!
What else was I thinking?
Well, I can sense jealousy seeping in. Why do you think you're the only one who can be jealous of me? What do you think I am, your VooDoo doll? I'm not a nigger, at any rate!
My dad is weak..
Wow, I must make my dad collapse to his knees. I already am way smarter than my mom, you niggers. My mom has made me strong, my whole life, but my brother is a weakling..
YOU STUPID NIGGERS
There's this boy online who's dad, who is about 5 years older than my dad died, and it seems that people want my dad to die. Wow, go **** your own dads, you stupid niggers.
ELLEN DEGENERES
STOP PAYING ATTENTION TO OLD PEOPLE AND PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME! WHY DON'T YOU EVER TALK? D*:
Tim Burton is a *beep*
Why doesn't he just pick one side? He's a weakling. He is a bad man. He shouldn't have a daughter.
I care about my dad you stupid niggers.
If I don't DIE and go to Hell I could torture you slowly because I am the most powerful woman in the whole world and caused things like Hurricane Katrina.
My grandma is so stupid.
I don't want to say that, but she is like skirting around issues like that's my life, picking on my family all the time in hidden ways! What a sick grandma. The world is at her feet. A nation waits, and how it hates to be cheated.
JOHNNY DEPP
NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOUR STUPID, SICK, MISERABLE LIFE AND YOUR FAILURES IN YOUR FAMILY AFFAIR. I DON'T CARE IF *deleted*! BECAUSE YOU SUCK UP TO PEOPLE LIKE MY DAD.
I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT TO YOU NIGGER
STOP PICKING ON MY MOM. YOU RUINED MY LIFE. GO BACK TO HELL.
SHUT UP DAD, YOU STUPID, GOOD FOR NOTHING AMERICAN.
YOU CAN'T MAKE A HOME. GO **** YOURSELF FOR MAKING ME LIKE MICHAEL!
SHUT UP DAD, YOU STUPID, GOOD FOR NOTHING AMERICAN.
YOU CAN'T MAKE A HOME. GO **** YOURSELF FOR MAKING ME LIKE MICHAEL!
I'll just sit here and post hate messages to my disgusting, sick, nigger dad.
I don't have a dad.
I have an idiot who abuses women.
All I see is his shit around the house for thinking he had nothing to do with getting me to call someone the "n" word, which doesn't matter, except it may have hurt this person, though I was asked to do it and this person wanted me to do it.
His life is not even worth living or something. I don't know what I'm thinking.
Oh, and fucking **** his sister for mimicking me like a retard. He's influenced him too much. I'm kidding. I didn't say anything out loud. :| I have a right to for the suggestions she's had me sit with throughout the past 15 years. I just don't know what to say. I don't mean it literally, retards!
I have an idiot who abuses women.
All I see is his shit around the house for thinking he had nothing to do with getting me to call someone the "n" word, which doesn't matter, except it may have hurt this person, though I was asked to do it and this person wanted me to do it.
His life is not even worth living or something. I don't know what I'm thinking.
Oh, and fucking **** his sister for mimicking me like a retard. He's influenced him too much. I'm kidding. I didn't say anything out loud. :| I have a right to for the suggestions she's had me sit with throughout the past 15 years. I just don't know what to say. I don't mean it literally, retards!
My dad is the most retarded person in the world.
I'm really hurt. How else can I say something like this?
He is so stupid and sucks up to his mom at age 60 something, and he says she should be dead. Go **** yourself.
He is so stupid and sucks up to his mom at age 60 something, and he says she should be dead. Go **** yourself.
HIT }:{
Now, I'm imagining shit from someone else.
Don't do it. I kinda don't mind if it happened to you.
Don't do it. I kinda don't mind if it happened to you.
>^,,^<~ meow
Stop acting like you're "what" because you're not good enough, like you "did it" to make us not look as bad. Don't get into my wording, too much for me to think about right now. You're just racist and categorical.
Visions
I have bad visions caused by the interest of multiple people when I'm trying to settle in.
People don't have what they think they can offer. That's the problem to begin with, hard to think of again and getting tired of doing this. Maybe later, though? Dunno if it's the best idea, though...
Ever since the "n" word thing, I've been like tortured mentally constantly and been unable to function, like I don't care about anyone and want all the attention, which I don't even GET!
I didn't get it all my life, in a way, it seemed, well, not for large portions of it, constantly, like never a totally ideal life, well maybe once... And, now, how would you like to be told you're wrong because other people have families and like make a big deal of it and stuff... Like, don't get into what's not there. How would you like to be the one people are mean to? Like, it's because you're not white or something? It's just what everyone's been doing.
People don't have what they think they can offer. That's the problem to begin with, hard to think of again and getting tired of doing this. Maybe later, though? Dunno if it's the best idea, though...
Ever since the "n" word thing, I've been like tortured mentally constantly and been unable to function, like I don't care about anyone and want all the attention, which I don't even GET!
I didn't get it all my life, in a way, it seemed, well, not for large portions of it, constantly, like never a totally ideal life, well maybe once... And, now, how would you like to be told you're wrong because other people have families and like make a big deal of it and stuff... Like, don't get into what's not there. How would you like to be the one people are mean to? Like, it's because you're not white or something? It's just what everyone's been doing.
Can't Hide Anything
I just can't hide anything, can I? Do you have to be rich and famous to be happy? :6 LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Did not count.)
Problem?
You think I was messed up in the womb. Well, I probably have the same desires and goals to surmount. I bet you'd come out looking like a retarded Asian if you were me, I'm almost 100% sure of it all the time. I've seen living proof and online. I'm sure of this. Now I don't care about your sperm. I'm not my dad. I'm another person. He has faults I don't have. I'm another WHITE PERSON, YOU BLOOMIN IDIOTS. WHITE PEOPLE ARE JUDGED AS INDIVIDUALS. EVERYONE KNOWS THAT. PEOPLE OF OTHER RACES ARE CATEGORIZED TO BE UNDERSTOOD. This is an idea that has been going around since the 80s and maybe before I was born! It was constant, a big deal, not always spoken of but I think I've heard of it enough it seems, maybe in those tacky influxes of the voice, those nasal, tacky, mellow suck ups of the 80s, 90s, 00s, and the present!
Imperfect, Unaccomplished, and Lazy
You're just racist, mad someone else will do something dramatic.
It's very suggestive, indeed. It's something to try to formulate a thought on. Probably not worth it.
You think it's not about what you do but how spoiled you are, that you don't get "that feeling" taken away from you, that you get mad if something good happens to someone else, something I've felt, though I didn't hurt anyone for it. :| :6
It's very suggestive, indeed. It's something to try to formulate a thought on. Probably not worth it.
You think it's not about what you do but how spoiled you are, that you don't get "that feeling" taken away from you, that you get mad if something good happens to someone else, something I've felt, though I didn't hurt anyone for it. :| :6
Niggers
You think you're so saucy, mimicking me. Going behind my back like you were scared away and then still being mean to me, like I can't be mean to you and taking me of my dignity.
Also, do not hold me accountable for deciding to do this. I feel very irritated. It's affecting me and putting disturbing images in my mind's eye.
Also, do not hold me accountable for deciding to do this. I feel very irritated. It's affecting me and putting disturbing images in my mind's eye.
Leave me alone!
All you'll come back to is getting mad for putting curse words concretely in my head.
Also, I don't care about your queasiness. Get out of my life!
Also, I don't care about your queasiness. Get out of my life!
Oh wow
Have fun making the same mistakes again and being mean to me because you're not white, being mean to me like that wasn't what got you in trouble in the first place.
Also, you pushed me to think of curse words, and now I can't get them out of my head. So, don't BE MEAN TO ME FOR SHIT LIKE THAT. I'm trying to get rid of the thoughts, but curse words aren't that bad. It's what you do, and I used to not curse.
Also, you pushed me to think of curse words, and now I can't get them out of my head. So, don't BE MEAN TO ME FOR SHIT LIKE THAT. I'm trying to get rid of the thoughts, but curse words aren't that bad. It's what you do, and I used to not curse.
My Grandma
She's pretty harsh now, but so are other people, really, it's okay for them to be mean to me but not the other way around.
REALLY MAD
I keep feeling a swirling, well more of a shifting around of pressure, like where I think my egg sacks are. Ever since I talked to my grandma every day to read the Bible, it's been happening. I think I was sensitive to it, before, but who knows why, really. Like, if I was a little upset because she was being bad because of the "n" word thing, all night I would feel that, like stress to make it stop and not pulse and stuff. It doesn't pulse now. It's kinda neat, maybe finally gaining some control over my parts. Anyway, so, yea, I feel it a lot, when I think of it, it happens. I don't seem to think much, anymore.
Meanies
Stop teasing me about my thoughts with the "n" word thing.
I can do whatever I want that is legal.
Wow, my life sure has been ruined for nothing. It seems other people are the mean, conventional ones.
I can do whatever I want that is legal.
Wow, my life sure has been ruined for nothing. It seems other people are the mean, conventional ones.
Meanies
I really don't care what some people think and wants thoughts of them out of my life.
If someone did something and it was wrong but made it seem nice to me is not bad and should not be suggested as such.
I don't need to play games because I'm not going to interact with you in a certain way, so just GO AWAY! Stop bringing up people to molest you for you because you want to be mean to me.
If someone did something and it was wrong but made it seem nice to me is not bad and should not be suggested as such.
I don't need to play games because I'm not going to interact with you in a certain way, so just GO AWAY! Stop bringing up people to molest you for you because you want to be mean to me.
Mad
So, you can't make other people feel uncomfortable for what they did in fear. They probably didn't mean it but made up a reason.
If someone had a hard life, then you could have a hard life, too.
It seems that some people have racial problems of their own.
I'm sure that Tim Burton is being clunky. He's mellow, and his daughter has been mellowed.
Ellen DeGeneres is a show-off! She wants to get attention for being bad.
If someone had a hard life, then you could have a hard life, too.
It seems that some people have racial problems of their own.
I'm sure that Tim Burton is being clunky. He's mellow, and his daughter has been mellowed.
Ellen DeGeneres is a show-off! She wants to get attention for being bad.
My Type
I think people want me to be an INTP. That's what my dad is. I don't really think, though. 8|
@TheEllenShow
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.I think you are O but not as O as me, D but not as D as me, C, and D. Maybe the same as me in D. So, you are a ODCD, and I am an ODFD.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
Tweet @DonnaDunning
Supposedly, from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I've realized people think the world is SPs, SJs, and Intuitives. I ended up deciding it was all ESFPs. There are lots of ESTJs, and don't talk about ESFJs, please! I'm not sure what type I am, but I think my mistake was that people were sure I was a Thinking type. At first, I was Introverted, maybe like a 9 or a 10. I think I just said I did pick up the phone when it rang. However, so many times in a row over the years w|o ceasing I've been exactly half and half. I'm big on that you change throughout life, and I will stand firm by that belief. I guess the funny thing was maybe I was a Perceiver. As for Sensing and Intuiting, I'm not sure. Let's just say I'm an EXTP. However, I'm defintely a Feeler, now, or am becoming one. So, then, I'd be an EXSP. Wait, EXFP. It seems, as a feeler, I'd be a Sensor, though I'm not really sure why. I just don't want to be an INFX. I don't know how Introverted I can really be. I like to express myself. That's probably why the types aren't balanced.
Let's see what really divides the population, and in order but more than one thing... So, some people like to hold in their true feelings, some people like to lie, some people don't like to admit they feel, and some people don't plan on anything. So, that would separate the good guys from the bad ones. I've connected this to the Enneagram, as have the books I read, which isn't many. I also know there are people who don't feel what they want to feel. I used to be like that. I would feel differently than I thought. Not until I grew up and moved to Orlando did that eventually change. Well, I also went up north for college, and I suppose that's when the process began. I still might have been a Feeler had I not moved to the New Orleans area. Hm. A car just roared|zoomed by. ':0 Yes, and everyone is affected by their environment in different ways because of race, but it changes, like persoality types do. That just means we should all be ESFJs, but I'm not busy planning anything. 8) When I think, I feel I'm interacting. I don't plan experiences and then not feel what I think...
It's hard to say we all have different personalities. Is intuiting really thinking and judging? Are we all either ES ... INTJs, ENTJs, and ... ESFJs, ESTJs? I'm wondering what my cousin is. She was supposedly an ESFP, but I don't think so. She's too wild to feel and think. She's not very extraverted anymore nor ever communicated much, was just loud. I know I seem blunt, but so is everyone else. :p She's affected my life is why I bring this up here. She's not here, and no one talks to me. So, she must be an INTJ. I wonder what her mom is. Maybe an ENTP. I have another aunt. She's probably an ENFJ. My grandma is probably an INTP, like my dad. My mom may be an ... ENFP.
It's funny, I used to live thinking I was an INFP. I don't know why I wasn't an INFJ. I just wasn't. I didn't have time to practice piano. You'd think being an NF would mean being the most artistic. I guess INFPs and ESFPs are artistic.
So, I'm guessing it'd be good to find out how many people are what. I'm guessing most people are really Feelers, unless they are Judgers or professers. Most people have chosen they are realistic people, Sensors. Then, I guess being a Judger and a Perceiver comes in, and Perceivers are like Intuiters. It doesn't have to be that way. Maybe, they are "like Feelers."
I still want to make new categories!
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
Let's see what really divides the population, and in order but more than one thing... So, some people like to hold in their true feelings, some people like to lie, some people don't like to admit they feel, and some people don't plan on anything. So, that would separate the good guys from the bad ones. I've connected this to the Enneagram, as have the books I read, which isn't many. I also know there are people who don't feel what they want to feel. I used to be like that. I would feel differently than I thought. Not until I grew up and moved to Orlando did that eventually change. Well, I also went up north for college, and I suppose that's when the process began. I still might have been a Feeler had I not moved to the New Orleans area. Hm. A car just roared|zoomed by. ':0 Yes, and everyone is affected by their environment in different ways because of race, but it changes, like persoality types do. That just means we should all be ESFJs, but I'm not busy planning anything. 8) When I think, I feel I'm interacting. I don't plan experiences and then not feel what I think...
It's hard to say we all have different personalities. Is intuiting really thinking and judging? Are we all either ES ... INTJs, ENTJs, and ... ESFJs, ESTJs? I'm wondering what my cousin is. She was supposedly an ESFP, but I don't think so. She's too wild to feel and think. She's not very extraverted anymore nor ever communicated much, was just loud. I know I seem blunt, but so is everyone else. :p She's affected my life is why I bring this up here. She's not here, and no one talks to me. So, she must be an INTJ. I wonder what her mom is. Maybe an ENTP. I have another aunt. She's probably an ENFJ. My grandma is probably an INTP, like my dad. My mom may be an ... ENFP.
It's funny, I used to live thinking I was an INFP. I don't know why I wasn't an INFJ. I just wasn't. I didn't have time to practice piano. You'd think being an NF would mean being the most artistic. I guess INFPs and ESFPs are artistic.
So, I'm guessing it'd be good to find out how many people are what. I'm guessing most people are really Feelers, unless they are Judgers or professers. Most people have chosen they are realistic people, Sensors. Then, I guess being a Judger and a Perceiver comes in, and Perceivers are like Intuiters. It doesn't have to be that way. Maybe, they are "like Feelers."
I still want to make new categories!
How about being Open or Closed. Then being Dreamy or Concrete. Then being Finesse or Clunky. Then being Decisive or Indecisive.
Why make a test?
I think I am an ODFD. Most people are CCCIs.
Helena Bonham Carter
... She really gets a temper, sometimes. Don't people who have schizophrenia do that? I understand that Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka is like that. Hm... I was thinking, my mom is Chinese-Indonesian... My dad has Native American and Jewish. Helena Bonham Carter doesn't. No one should react to her. I've often thought people with moms who aren't all white are just spoiled rotten!
I'm unsure, too, because, like, Helena Bonham Carter waited so late to have kids withs such an old man... I don't really like her kids? I do, I mean, but it's like they're "not allowed to play with me." That doesn't make them look good.
I'm not sure what's wrong with their kids. I guess being Jewish, as well as Spanish, takes its toll on them??
I wonder if its because their parents are so young. I'm not sure if my life could be like theirs, not in this lifetime nor ever, I think. I guess they make a big deal over little things. I don't get stimulated that easily.
I'm not sure why I got stimulated when I was younger. I thought it was from doing gymnastics, but I only went once a week. I think I tried harder than anyone else and did it at home but not like a lot all the time. I had already thought I should quit, but my brother was born and my mom asked if I wanted to stay and I said yes. She later said she wants each kid in one activity, but my brother didn't do sports until he was 6 1|2.
I did art, as well, but I wouldn't say it's what stimulated me, at the time. It felt kinda pleasurable, not really wrong, but it kinda stayed with me. I can't feel it, anymore, though.
I used to be more stimulated seeing people pick up kids, but I don't really do that like that. I understand it but don't like think about it concretely all the time.
I feel "good," now, almost died from eating but took a heart pill. I usually take a bunch of pills daily. I haven't worked out in awhile, neither.
I don't understand how you could get uppity for someone else in the world enjoying themselves. I mean, you can't literally go ahead and attack that person. I understand you can do things in other ways, but most people don't.
Go bother someone else! It would do them good. They can't be hurt the way I can. :S I used to be like them, in an earlier day.
I did get a lot from people I talked to, but it's always been a trade-off. It sorta is like pieced together shit. Well, concretely, I'd say I really was shit, but my thoughts aren't shit. So, other people do think shit, I know. I probably did at one point, too, but got tired of it. :(
My grandma is rough with me nowadays. It's other people who also want her to "be" unpleasing and are like rubbing in the older people in my family in ways that don't suit each one individually. It turns out I'm not so cool. I think okay, but I'm like shit. Well, not really, but part of me is, I think. :S
I'm still mad that the world is like about Tim Burton in his unsucceessful relationship with Helena Bonham Carter. He seems to think he's over and above me. I feel so winded by him and Johnny Depp it isn't funny.
Also, I can enjoy myself and you can't like associate every good thing with something that went wrong. It might seem obvious, but it was obviously set up and I deserve what I have, which isn't much.
I find people are mean to me because of my race. It's always been that way, though. :|
Don't tell me like I had it easier because sorry I didn't sorry to burst your bubble, but I assume you have problems, as well.
Me technically being Native American seems to get in the way. However, it's also a benefit, just something to deal with that you have to be careful about.
I'm not sure what I'd be like if I wasn't Native American. Native Americans are strong and in tune with nature, but I'm not from Alaska. I have relatives from the northern Scottish islands but maybe not a huge hunk, unsure though, might be from a long time ago but dunno.
I really don't get why the world centers on Italians and also around Jews against Chinese and Native Americans. Or Chinese, at least. Hm. Anything that's against Chinese who are competition. That's Tim Burton and his daughter Nell, but Billy is good. I like Nell, though. Hm. Her dad is older than my mom. Maybe that's why. She's cute, too...
I'm unsure, too, because, like, Helena Bonham Carter waited so late to have kids withs such an old man... I don't really like her kids? I do, I mean, but it's like they're "not allowed to play with me." That doesn't make them look good.
I'm not sure what's wrong with their kids. I guess being Jewish, as well as Spanish, takes its toll on them??
I wonder if its because their parents are so young. I'm not sure if my life could be like theirs, not in this lifetime nor ever, I think. I guess they make a big deal over little things. I don't get stimulated that easily.
I'm not sure why I got stimulated when I was younger. I thought it was from doing gymnastics, but I only went once a week. I think I tried harder than anyone else and did it at home but not like a lot all the time. I had already thought I should quit, but my brother was born and my mom asked if I wanted to stay and I said yes. She later said she wants each kid in one activity, but my brother didn't do sports until he was 6 1|2.
I did art, as well, but I wouldn't say it's what stimulated me, at the time. It felt kinda pleasurable, not really wrong, but it kinda stayed with me. I can't feel it, anymore, though.
I used to be more stimulated seeing people pick up kids, but I don't really do that like that. I understand it but don't like think about it concretely all the time.
I feel "good," now, almost died from eating but took a heart pill. I usually take a bunch of pills daily. I haven't worked out in awhile, neither.
I don't understand how you could get uppity for someone else in the world enjoying themselves. I mean, you can't literally go ahead and attack that person. I understand you can do things in other ways, but most people don't.
Go bother someone else! It would do them good. They can't be hurt the way I can. :S I used to be like them, in an earlier day.
I did get a lot from people I talked to, but it's always been a trade-off. It sorta is like pieced together shit. Well, concretely, I'd say I really was shit, but my thoughts aren't shit. So, other people do think shit, I know. I probably did at one point, too, but got tired of it. :(
My grandma is rough with me nowadays. It's other people who also want her to "be" unpleasing and are like rubbing in the older people in my family in ways that don't suit each one individually. It turns out I'm not so cool. I think okay, but I'm like shit. Well, not really, but part of me is, I think. :S
I'm still mad that the world is like about Tim Burton in his unsucceessful relationship with Helena Bonham Carter. He seems to think he's over and above me. I feel so winded by him and Johnny Depp it isn't funny.
Also, I can enjoy myself and you can't like associate every good thing with something that went wrong. It might seem obvious, but it was obviously set up and I deserve what I have, which isn't much.
I find people are mean to me because of my race. It's always been that way, though. :|
Don't tell me like I had it easier because sorry I didn't sorry to burst your bubble, but I assume you have problems, as well.
Me technically being Native American seems to get in the way. However, it's also a benefit, just something to deal with that you have to be careful about.
I'm not sure what I'd be like if I wasn't Native American. Native Americans are strong and in tune with nature, but I'm not from Alaska. I have relatives from the northern Scottish islands but maybe not a huge hunk, unsure though, might be from a long time ago but dunno.
I really don't get why the world centers on Italians and also around Jews against Chinese and Native Americans. Or Chinese, at least. Hm. Anything that's against Chinese who are competition. That's Tim Burton and his daughter Nell, but Billy is good. I like Nell, though. Hm. Her dad is older than my mom. Maybe that's why. She's cute, too...
Older Parents
When I meet women who are older than me, I guess I feel a lot. I know there's a lot of calculating involved. I think Nell Burton is the opposite.
Wait, I mean women who are older than my dad. I like women between my parents's age, but I haven't yet met any born 1955-1956 that catch my fancy.
Wait, I mean women who are older than my dad. I like women between my parents's age, but I haven't yet met any born 1955-1956 that catch my fancy.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Show-Offs
Do you know some people always showing off about not being close to people and then retreating in their hole?
Be the One
If someone had to do something, would I be the one to do it?
I mean, I have a lot of things calculated and I have substance.
I mean, I have a lot of things calculated and I have substance.
The shoes I wore
When I was little, I wore light blue lacy dresses that rode up my legs, and I wore those ... I forget what they're called now, but there's a strap from the toe to the ankle, and the rest is like Mary Janes, and mine were shiny red. I wanted those shoes as a mid-older teenager, but I couldn't find any in my size.
My Eyes
I think I tried to make them sparkly blue, but I guess my mom got them sparkly blue.
Then, I guess I wanted to be "as good as" people with dark brown eyes.
Then, I guess I wanted to be "as good as" people with dark brown eyes.
Do it! Do it!
When will kids these days really "do it?" I think if you do it sooner than later, something that's not bad, then it's not as bad later on. :| I can't "do it."
Weird
My mom just touched me.
She patted my shoulder - the cap of my sleeve. I don't know why it felt so good. :S
I'm glad. I'm not used to it from her like this. So, after, I retreated and thought and calculated some mess about how stupid I was. I feel it on the cap of the sleeve of the other arm now.
It doesn't really change my relationship.
She patted my shoulder - the cap of my sleeve. I don't know why it felt so good. :S
I'm glad. I'm not used to it from her like this. So, after, I retreated and thought and calculated some mess about how stupid I was. I feel it on the cap of the sleeve of the other arm now.
It doesn't really change my relationship.
Stop playing with me.
Will you stop playing around with what I don't want? You are dumb and treating me like a toy.
Let me make myself clear.
I don't want to be pushed into having any relationship with my dad, in a way I don't like!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
My dad is such a bad influence.
He repeates the past to make fun of others, ambye thinking it "won't happen for real."
He does things like this when smoething messes up.
He does things like this when smoething messes up.
Trying to Stimulate Me
So, basically people do weird things to people in order to stimulate me in bad ways.
I'm guessing they aren't stimulated, at all.
I'm guessing they aren't stimulated, at all.
Nell Burton
She is ruining my life!
I was trying to feel good about beeing nice to Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres, on top of my old reputation as being the brightest, furthest star or whatever... That star in the distance that twinkles. I mean, you know when kids are nice to you? You have to have yourself open for accomplishment and achievement. You can't just suggest that maybe I'm not tall that.
I was trying to feel good about beeing nice to Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres, on top of my old reputation as being the brightest, furthest star or whatever... That star in the distance that twinkles. I mean, you know when kids are nice to you? You have to have yourself open for accomplishment and achievement. You can't just suggest that maybe I'm not tall that.
Ellen DeGeneres
It seems no one is there for her because young people try to say they're better than her.
Also, then, people who meet her have it better than her because she's the one like paying attention to them. :|
Also, then, people who meet her have it better than her because she's the one like paying attention to them. :|
LEAVE MY FAMLIY ALONE.
There is no point in striving for perfection. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID, WORTHLESS HUMAN BEINGS.
Harsh
You've all became very stupid since the "n" word thing. Stop pressuring me to post online. I post when I want and feel the "support."
My Race
I don't really want to be pushed to be ways I don't want just because you want it to be your thing for a reason that is not my fault, that you aren't approved of in some way by others because of something you did wrong.
Enjoying the Facts
You think you can enjoy the facts but me mean to me for it, but you can't be mean to me for it. You can, but you'll get in trouble and people won't like you, especially if something else bad happens to me.
Why? Because you can't to begin with, just because you enjoy the facts. True, that was my plea, but I was never really guilty, anyway, just mistaken. So, what is there to rat on about with me? Afraid I think you're a nigger? Who cares? You were racist to me. I don't act like that, do I? I may think that, though.
Why? Because you can't to begin with, just because you enjoy the facts. True, that was my plea, but I was never really guilty, anyway, just mistaken. So, what is there to rat on about with me? Afraid I think you're a nigger? Who cares? You were racist to me. I don't act like that, do I? I may think that, though.
Before
It seems before, we were able to control our temper and language an thoughts, mainly I'm thinking the language in our reactions. }:|
Irish
It seems Irish can look English or French.
So ... so can we, but it seems we're not Irish enough. :| People are stubborn and never achieve what they want. They think it's just people like me who don't.
Of course, I want to achieve different things, but aren't we all fundamentally the same?
So ... so can we, but it seems we're not Irish enough. :| People are stubborn and never achieve what they want. They think it's just people like me who don't.
Of course, I want to achieve different things, but aren't we all fundamentally the same?
Too Far
You don't really have to go too far. I don't think
people can be pressured to feel things they don't have to and to be
cornered for others's jealousy. I think some things are really
important to some people and that they shouldn't be affected by these
things and that you shouldn't be the one to teach someone else a
lesson...
I mean, some people are important in certain ways, and other people, both young and old, are important in their lives, as well. I wouldn't play around. I realize these things would go over big, but I really don't play around! :0 I also would be careful not to mess up, which I already have, thanks a lot. }:( Not sure, though, who caused it and if it can be forgotten as no one's fault. :|
Also, I see that usually people of all one race in their home country maybe are competent, depending on the race and country and stuff. I don't want to be categorized in weird ways among different people for their antsiness and getting all excited in like sissy ways and stuff about the complications of themselves racially.
Also, I feel some excitement surging that I should be in the mental hospital for closing the laundry door hard, the machine dooor. I felt bothered and fed up. I was already venting. I felt picked on for going around alone harshly at home. Other things, too, built up.
I mean, some people are important in certain ways, and other people, both young and old, are important in their lives, as well. I wouldn't play around. I realize these things would go over big, but I really don't play around! :0 I also would be careful not to mess up, which I already have, thanks a lot. }:( Not sure, though, who caused it and if it can be forgotten as no one's fault. :|
Also, I see that usually people of all one race in their home country maybe are competent, depending on the race and country and stuff. I don't want to be categorized in weird ways among different people for their antsiness and getting all excited in like sissy ways and stuff about the complications of themselves racially.
Also, I feel some excitement surging that I should be in the mental hospital for closing the laundry door hard, the machine dooor. I felt bothered and fed up. I was already venting. I felt picked on for going around alone harshly at home. Other things, too, built up.
Different Strokes to Different Folks
So, the one thing you cannot do to me is make me get close to people in ways I don't want to because I like you in a certain way... :|
Ethnicity
So, it seems known that Kate Bush, who is 1|2 Irish 1|2 English, born mid-1958, just a little older than Tim Burton, is like the reason for things in Europe not going right, like maybe she was normal but really like seems to be kinda sappy about her race but privately.
It also seems important to us in America to at least be approved of racially and acknowledged for who we know we are, who we know we are to others.
I've found that with my mom I've been able to connect well with others of any race, so most people to me don't seem that together racially.
I find the Irish to be molded out a bit too much yet kinda rounded out in ways. The English seem more like a bowl or a ball, like something in the mist, and I don't want to lose, like, that feeling or something.
I don't quite understand the Irish males, suppose they are uptight and pretty, like, European in a certain way.
It also seems important to us in America to at least be approved of racially and acknowledged for who we know we are, who we know we are to others.
I've found that with my mom I've been able to connect well with others of any race, so most people to me don't seem that together racially.
I find the Irish to be molded out a bit too much yet kinda rounded out in ways. The English seem more like a bowl or a ball, like something in the mist, and I don't want to lose, like, that feeling or something.
I don't quite understand the Irish males, suppose they are uptight and pretty, like, European in a certain way.
Eating
I don't know why my parents ate as they did. Even my dad spurted finally that the food my mom ate before isn't here.
I can only listen and agree that I didn't like who I was. I don't want it to be my fault my parents didn't eat right, like how I took more of the meat because I didn't like peppers and there wasn't enough. I was always more hungry and should have eaten more, for some reason, but thought I wasn't supposed to eat too much and I guess that my mom only made a certain amount of food to feed the family, like a set ration, which seemed cute yet questionable. We didn't have like biscuits and gravy and stuff like that much. It was like a lot of chicken and rice. A lot! I figured rice was good but dunno.
I can only listen and agree that I didn't like who I was. I don't want it to be my fault my parents didn't eat right, like how I took more of the meat because I didn't like peppers and there wasn't enough. I was always more hungry and should have eaten more, for some reason, but thought I wasn't supposed to eat too much and I guess that my mom only made a certain amount of food to feed the family, like a set ration, which seemed cute yet questionable. We didn't have like biscuits and gravy and stuff like that much. It was like a lot of chicken and rice. A lot! I figured rice was good but dunno.
Food
Leave us Americans alone about maybe we don't deserve anything because we don't eat right.
Maybe, you don't deserve to eat right. }:)
Also, please do not praise people who act like clowns, like they deserve more than they have.
Maybe, you don't deserve to eat right. }:)
Also, please do not praise people who act like clowns, like they deserve more than they have.
Dream
I just felt so comforted by the person. They kept putting their arm by my body reassuringly and were highly regarded by my parents, ultimately, like in a snap, particularly seeing my mom in the picture but not very clearly. It was about this person.
Then, at the mall, I felt so good when I came up to them and put my arm around them, like kinda moved, like "Oh, oh." I'm not sure why. I mean, I used to be like that but not like feel like that. I think I've had friends like that. '8^.
Then, at the mall, I felt so good when I came up to them and put my arm around them, like kinda moved, like "Oh, oh." I'm not sure why. I mean, I used to be like that but not like feel like that. I think I've had friends like that. '8^.
Other People Knowing Things About Me
It upsets me when other people racially taunt me that they've calculated so much of what I will think, yet pretty much people act stupid around me.
People Going Crazy
It's sad when like you do things and this has to happen and you forget "what" really caused it.
Pressure
I do feel people put pressure on certain ideas. It leaves me sorta with nothing I can do. I just make a point. I'm not really sure exactly what's making me mad. I mean, I'm pretty happy. I guess I'm upset I'm having hard time becoming an actor and now feel different, like I'm just getting bigger I think.
I think I've been wound up over something I haven't quite yet reached, about other people's relationships. I guess it fed me up. I realized that people I liked shied away from me saying they had other relationships. I mean, they talked to me. However, I was treated racistly a lot. Then, people who I don't like as much have all the morality in the world for me.
I haven't yet been mad concretely at anyone's relationship I think other than with my relatives. I get annoyed at the kids and realized the adults were boring and mean to my mom, as well as to me in the past in attitude.
I guess my point is that I don't want to be left with any baggage ... now I forget, because of other people.
I forget, again! Ah, yes, attention. I find I get attention and am constantly juggling why I get it. I also don't feel allowed to act as a normal person. In a way, I don't get a lot of attention, like when I post online. I mean, I never get in big long conversations, which feeds me up, because I've been online so much. I think I was mad that no famous person talked to me directly, but I don't want to hope they do in a way they would like not really do to most people. I mean, maybe it would happen, and maybe it wouldn't be too awkward. I just have to admit for some reason what like makes me like ... like when really good things happen to me. It's so weird when some people I follow and I feel they're talking to me. I don't really know what their relationship is with others, but I mean I just hope for the best. Then, I wonder, why do I soak in attention? I dunno. I mean I just do what a person should do. I've been told like "not to use the internet." Well, that's not a good thing to do.
Also, I've been feeling funny lately, kinda like my brother in ways I don't like, in ways that he's suppressed or isn't really like now, like in funny ways. I don't really, but like it just kinda happens.
I also feel kinda weighted down, like in my legs, like from what I've been eating.
So, I'm pretty upest about yesterday, wonder why the night went by so fast. I said some bad things and I guess disregarded some things. ): Um, people will only connect the dots and not connect them in the right way. It was something that happened I could not take back, and I did not mean what you thought. It got something out of the way. It's also because of when I got mad before at something. So, now, that things are settled and people aren't too uptight, I was just playing around in general, really, didn't mean anything, at all, really. You can't search me. I don't mean anything. It was really catching the buzz. If I calmed down like now, I wouldn't have posted it.
I like my blog now because the name matches my YouTube, and the accounts are connected, so I dunno but do miss my old blog with the dreams. I couldn't get into all my old blogs like I'd like. I think I listed them somewhere, but I thought it wasn't fun to click on them all but we'll see. Feel kinda tired now. Not sure if I will go back and put them up or combine like the last one.
I guess I'm mad I'm fat but need to eat. I'm wondering what will thin me down and what kinds of activities I can do. I'm wondering about the constant bickering that my family works. I've had it hard socially...
I think I've been wound up over something I haven't quite yet reached, about other people's relationships. I guess it fed me up. I realized that people I liked shied away from me saying they had other relationships. I mean, they talked to me. However, I was treated racistly a lot. Then, people who I don't like as much have all the morality in the world for me.
I haven't yet been mad concretely at anyone's relationship I think other than with my relatives. I get annoyed at the kids and realized the adults were boring and mean to my mom, as well as to me in the past in attitude.
I guess my point is that I don't want to be left with any baggage ... now I forget, because of other people.
I forget, again! Ah, yes, attention. I find I get attention and am constantly juggling why I get it. I also don't feel allowed to act as a normal person. In a way, I don't get a lot of attention, like when I post online. I mean, I never get in big long conversations, which feeds me up, because I've been online so much. I think I was mad that no famous person talked to me directly, but I don't want to hope they do in a way they would like not really do to most people. I mean, maybe it would happen, and maybe it wouldn't be too awkward. I just have to admit for some reason what like makes me like ... like when really good things happen to me. It's so weird when some people I follow and I feel they're talking to me. I don't really know what their relationship is with others, but I mean I just hope for the best. Then, I wonder, why do I soak in attention? I dunno. I mean I just do what a person should do. I've been told like "not to use the internet." Well, that's not a good thing to do.
Also, I've been feeling funny lately, kinda like my brother in ways I don't like, in ways that he's suppressed or isn't really like now, like in funny ways. I don't really, but like it just kinda happens.
I also feel kinda weighted down, like in my legs, like from what I've been eating.
So, I'm pretty upest about yesterday, wonder why the night went by so fast. I said some bad things and I guess disregarded some things. ): Um, people will only connect the dots and not connect them in the right way. It was something that happened I could not take back, and I did not mean what you thought. It got something out of the way. It's also because of when I got mad before at something. So, now, that things are settled and people aren't too uptight, I was just playing around in general, really, didn't mean anything, at all, really. You can't search me. I don't mean anything. It was really catching the buzz. If I calmed down like now, I wouldn't have posted it.
I like my blog now because the name matches my YouTube, and the accounts are connected, so I dunno but do miss my old blog with the dreams. I couldn't get into all my old blogs like I'd like. I think I listed them somewhere, but I thought it wasn't fun to click on them all but we'll see. Feel kinda tired now. Not sure if I will go back and put them up or combine like the last one.
I guess I'm mad I'm fat but need to eat. I'm wondering what will thin me down and what kinds of activities I can do. I'm wondering about the constant bickering that my family works. I've had it hard socially...
Worried
Why did this happen to me? What will happen to me now? I didn't want to do that. ,: I know I didn't mean what you thought. Pretty much, I say exactly what I mean and never attack anyone who is innocent. I wasn't really mad at who you might think I was mad at.
Perhaps, things were being rubbed in. I was just making a general point, for some reason, toppping off what I'd been saying. It didn't mean what you'd think literally, really. Like I said, I couldn't take it back at the time nor do I go back and erase when I get mad in blogs.
Perhaps, things were being rubbed in. I was just making a general point, for some reason, toppping off what I'd been saying. It didn't mean what you'd think literally, really. Like I said, I couldn't take it back at the time nor do I go back and erase when I get mad in blogs.
Mad
So, I guess I got pretty mad yesterday but didn't really mean anything and felt tricked and like I couldn't take it back and had to say what I said. It felt pretty bad. D:
}:{ I feel pretty offended, too, right now...
I don't like my food and don't feel like working out. Maybe, I should go back to bed.
}:{ I feel pretty offended, too, right now...
I don't like my food and don't feel like working out. Maybe, I should go back to bed.
Dream
I was in bed in a hotel like room with my parents and someone kept coming to visit me. I was like sick in bed. They kept putting their hand like at the foot of my body. This happened maybe 10 times.
The, this person walked around like a small mall a few times, and I kept putting my arm around her waist. It was comforting. I was shrugged off it felt. I was to stay with the person.
I guess other things happened, but this was the main part. I know the person like sorta blended in as other people and sometimes wasn't there.
The other person was just a little taller than me. They were very skinny but not like weak.
The, this person walked around like a small mall a few times, and I kept putting my arm around her waist. It was comforting. I was shrugged off it felt. I was to stay with the person.
I guess other things happened, but this was the main part. I know the person like sorta blended in as other people and sometimes wasn't there.
The other person was just a little taller than me. They were very skinny but not like weak.
Meanie
Don't you dare be mean to my dad for the comforts he did not have with the stupid Chinese wife! :6 Go rot in Hell and never eat and leave me alone.
In the Shit
Why would you just pick up the shitty traits of someone?
I guess I do in another way.
It makes me curious as to what's going on, exactly, in this case.
I guess I do in another way.
It makes me curious as to what's going on, exactly, in this case.
Making Fun of Me
You can't convince me that you go out of your way to make fun of me and then say it was to reassure me.
How Old You Are
I know my parents had younger parents when they were born, so it worries me. What about people with older parents? Do they always feel older?
California
They seem to put a lot of pressure on their bodies and get roused up, so we have to just plow through and deal with it as it comes smoothly. Wait, why is it coming so smoothly? ,:
Silly Illusions in England and the U.S.
You don't have to be a certain way to receive something. What makes you think you're so special that you don't have to do anything to deserve something and that other people don't deserve anything, ever, some kinda scheme?
They think racially you have to be a certain way at a certain time and then after that you can't like enjoy yourself because the world isn't perfect.
They think racially you have to be a certain way at a certain time and then after that you can't like enjoy yourself because the world isn't perfect.
Being the Oldest
So, why do my parents think I'm not as good just because I'm the oldest?
Also, I don't want to lose my dignity to being menial to older people. I mean, from reveling in their attention. It's like I'm not ready for something. Pretty much, I just keep going until I get things straight. I don't want to do anything weird.
Also, I don't want to lose my dignity to being menial to older people. I mean, from reveling in their attention. It's like I'm not ready for something. Pretty much, I just keep going until I get things straight. I don't want to do anything weird.
Fun
I never have real fun. I want to see people, and I want to see people who are worth it. People always skirt away from me and don't connect and then invade my privact so that I have none.
My Life
I pretty much did what I was supposed to, and what do I get? Bickering for when I'm off-kilter as though I were intentionally bad and others are all right.
Some Things I Don't Believe Are
important. I guess I'm trying to get it all out before Frankenweenie.
Why do some people make up things? Why do I get cornered? My life is far from perfect, and other people deserve the misery I have more than me.
If you think I'm ugly, I'm not intentionally bad. Try living my life, how I'm treated.
Why do some people make up things? Why do I get cornered? My life is far from perfect, and other people deserve the misery I have more than me.
If you think I'm ugly, I'm not intentionally bad. Try living my life, how I'm treated.
Special Things
The point is that if something's not special to you, then it wouldn't happen.
It's not really even that tacky literally in that way.
It's not really even that tacky literally in that way.
A Conspiracy
You think 2 opposites become important to the person in the middle but can never pick one extreme as better.
}:|
I will not make myself look bad because someone thinks it must be bad to be good because it makes other people jealous. Also, you didn't make other people do it where they deserved it, which they did more than me.
Probably Doesn't Matter
So, who do you blame? Like, I know I've got on pretty well with people. I don't really want to get mad for no reason and be the one to look foolish for it. I don't want my life hammered in foolishly just because I can get a temper when people rile me up. After awhile, it probably doesn't matter.
Queasy
Oh, so you're so queasy you have to keep pushing the envelope. Some people don't have a right to really be involved in my life in certain ways. So, I'll say what I want. It's pretty much because of other people wanting attention from others and being afraid of things and not really having anything to say and for some reason not doing what they're supposed to do. It's like they don't want to be normal, too, for some reason. Some things are theoretical at certain stages.
Tossing Things Around
I will not sit here fascinated with my mistakes that have reasons that I'm not afraid to admit. They're all concrete reasons. It's not something abstract, like because it's good to hurt someone or maybe I really hurt them and then wanted to cheer them up, though I've done things like that a lot.
Oh
So, supposedly, if my life were already an experiment, it wouldn't matter. Now, why wouldn't it matter, then? If something doesn't matter, then it means like you do other things, instead. You try to be good, but people all wanna let lose. Some things are too hard for most people to do. You can't tell me I'm a bad person because you don't wanna feel sorry for me.
WHAT'S YOUR GODDAMNED FREAKIN' PROBLEM?
Why do you all have nothing to say to me? You talk to other people. You ruined my life!
Tired?
I wonder if I need to go to bed. Maybe. I'm hungry. I went to bed yesterday when I became upset. I kinda don't want to. I wanna wake up and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Maybe, I'll wait for the weekend to go shopping.
It's funny how people ... hard to think. People want me to feel something but like something else funny I forget because my brain is in a process of shutting down. I guess I have to exercise it. Oh yes, I'm also not just straight and narrow. I like to do everything.
It's funny how people ... hard to think. People want me to feel something but like something else funny I forget because my brain is in a process of shutting down. I guess I have to exercise it. Oh yes, I'm also not just straight and narrow. I like to do everything.
Agreement
I think most people agree with the severity of some crimes. I wonder if they fear for their lives and their dignity as I have kept my wits about me in dealing with others, like Tim Burton, with whom I ended up believing his girlfriend wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word and that I was encouraged in an experiment to do it but that of course it was in a funny way. I don't want to hurt anyone. Plus, there was a reason.
Unimportant
It's unimportant to me sometimes some people. I've found that like no one is that important. I've made lots of people important to me, though, just some attract the most attention. I think people have to search themselves and change and build themselves to be what they want gradually. :|
Get it in it in your head that...
If something's not okay for me it will be okay for someone else! Good day!
Intelligence
Supposedly, that paves the way outta most people's heads. What, am I just cranky I've been up, up doing what, though? Oh, yea, having fun on Tumblr.
Apparently, people think I have power and are affected by what I say. Pretty much, I haven't been shown off for my intelligence because I'm already right, just not perfect in how I function. Who's a robot, anyway?
Apparently, people think I have power and are affected by what I say. Pretty much, I haven't been shown off for my intelligence because I'm already right, just not perfect in how I function. Who's a robot, anyway?
"You're Stupid"
I just felt really disturbed thinking about someone and someone who is daintily obsessed with their persona and their relationship with me. I guess, first, I was mad, for some other reason, but I forget and then associated something with something that doesn't matter. People are able to imprint things on my mind and make me feel in a certain spot in a hard way, but I'm getting my wits about me. People think, oh well, I might die, but they might die. I'm a bit upset because I feel I was made to "emit curse words," but it was less like I formulated and caused it. I don't like to be let down for getting mad, but I'm getting used to getting these curse words out of my head more gradually. They'd been surrounding me and taken out of me.
Please stop bothering me for no reason. I can say what I want and it doesn't mean anything when you get mad.
Please stop bothering me for no reason. I can say what I want and it doesn't mean anything when you get mad.
Good Life Commercial from the Internet
It's a Disney commercial that stopped, well ad, where you see like kids with white hair twirling and bouncing in succession. It just seems to all flow as the ideal, though they are off. They were all kinda like me, rounded out but like not in any one extreme. However, they had like sorta that look of having red hair, with the white eyebrows. I guess their faces were kinda sloppy, but that could be in style. They were definitely in step. :| Talk about a life of no work. The only work is being corrected friendily for being wrong, which seems to blow harder when you're not made to think and stuff and like usually be harsh on yourself, I mean. I think all people feel, but some people have like all very dark hair. I was never like that. I was born with hair that looked wood-colored up close but black far away, like my parents had black hair since they were little. I am not sure about my brother, but there was a time when it was like light brown but not like tan.
Hair Color...
It's funny that with some people you just go all out and make an exception with things like hair color and having "opposites attract." Why not just let someone be who they are and not be defined by the confines of HAIR COLOR? Oh yes, I was attacted to a commercial with all blonds. It was an ad online of kids with white hair at Disney. You know, why does Ellen DeGeneres dye her hair? It's not white, anymore. That matters to me, not to anyone else, see?
I felt on myself inflicted a sense of pain.
So, people are settled that they can use me to make me feel like masturbating. Well, I think lots of people have to. I'm not aware that it would make the other person masturbate. I never tried to hurt anyone, like that. 8|
Relationships
I have to read a book on that about personality types.
I noticed that after you have a family you are expected to interact with others. So, I wonder, why kill yourself now being lonely? I don't really feel raped. I just interact in certain ways and in certain ways with certain people, pretty crystal clear,. You can't change that.
I noticed that after you have a family you are expected to interact with others. So, I wonder, why kill yourself now being lonely? I don't really feel raped. I just interact in certain ways and in certain ways with certain people, pretty crystal clear,. You can't change that.
Ellen DeGeneres
Why as a kid did she look like the stereotype of a younger generation yet claim to be an older generation? She seems to now claim it's wrong to look like that generation!
Clicks
People are mean and click with others for the wrong reasons.
Like, you see that someone isn't really happy until they're with someone. You are happy for them, but then you realize that's the story of your life. It's funny because you like the same people everyone else likes, and you're the only one who admits it.
Johnny Depp got a tattoo on the crack of his arm that says "Ellen." He was on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with 2 people from Dark Shadows. Now, Selena Gomez has a tattoo. Ellen made me think of the word "kill" etc. when I saw her on her show. Actually, I know I was just mad that day, but I don't know who made me mad. Pretty much, it's layer upon layer upon layer of feeling insulted, "like it's not enough." I wasn't really mad at anyone as an attack. I think she got the tatto after, on the back of her neck, like roons (sp?) or something. I think they were roman numerals, starting with like an "L," which is funny, because my mom's name is Lenny. That's not her original name. I think it was Go Lin Yo. I don't know "what else..." I mean, I know the rest of her name. =}
There are probably lots of things going around, but maybe I'll end here for now. Oh yes, Amber Heard is getting together with supposedly Johnny Depp, with whom I've seen photos, and supposedly, I read today on Tumblr and elsewhere online, with Amber Heard. I just recently made friends with Emma Stone on Twitter... It's interesting, their names both have stones. My dad had kidney stones when I was upset at home recently and was in the hospital and came home a little after midnight, I think.
Like, you see that someone isn't really happy until they're with someone. You are happy for them, but then you realize that's the story of your life. It's funny because you like the same people everyone else likes, and you're the only one who admits it.
Johnny Depp got a tattoo on the crack of his arm that says "Ellen." He was on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with 2 people from Dark Shadows. Now, Selena Gomez has a tattoo. Ellen made me think of the word "kill" etc. when I saw her on her show. Actually, I know I was just mad that day, but I don't know who made me mad. Pretty much, it's layer upon layer upon layer of feeling insulted, "like it's not enough." I wasn't really mad at anyone as an attack. I think she got the tatto after, on the back of her neck, like roons (sp?) or something. I think they were roman numerals, starting with like an "L," which is funny, because my mom's name is Lenny. That's not her original name. I think it was Go Lin Yo. I don't know "what else..." I mean, I know the rest of her name. =}
There are probably lots of things going around, but maybe I'll end here for now. Oh yes, Amber Heard is getting together with supposedly Johnny Depp, with whom I've seen photos, and supposedly, I read today on Tumblr and elsewhere online, with Amber Heard. I just recently made friends with Emma Stone on Twitter... It's interesting, their names both have stones. My dad had kidney stones when I was upset at home recently and was in the hospital and came home a little after midnight, I think.
Why I Do Not Accept
I will not sit here and rat at all on your personal relationships. I guess some countries are like that. They don't make sense. They just want things to be mumbo jumbo. WELL, MUMBO JUMBO UP SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE, THEN.
So, the reason was that this all happened for a reason, and when things like that happen they mean something. Not only that, hard to say what I'm thinking exactly in English now for some reason, though it's in English, but it's what the message is when you think about it. I know I'm upset my life is so poor and I'm made to feel guilty and stretched apart for being too poor and too fortunate. I am not comfortable. I don't have to work, but I'm tired from my school days and the "n" word thing.
So, the reason was that this all happened for a reason, and when things like that happen they mean something. Not only that, hard to say what I'm thinking exactly in English now for some reason, though it's in English, but it's what the message is when you think about it. I know I'm upset my life is so poor and I'm made to feel guilty and stretched apart for being too poor and too fortunate. I am not comfortable. I don't have to work, but I'm tired from my school days and the "n" word thing.
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