Dream

The most memorable in a way, well not exactly, was at first.  I can't remember, but, for some reason, I needed to be comforted, was pretty sad, needed "my mommy" or something...  My mom would just shape me up and not act mushy.  So there was "this lady..."  She looked like that Swedish singer on YouTube, Siw Inger, in "Di Zeit is Reit" or something, but supposedly it was Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres.  So, she was like sitting on a block or something.  It wasn't really like it was her or anyone.  I guess, I thought of it since I made the pictures with her.  Come to think of it, she reminded me of a girl with a drawl at a hotel in Texas during a hurricane with bleached hair saying she I think wanted to "go to the store."  So, this person I imagined cuddled me I guess sitting down on the smooth, clean floor, kinda like an art building, next to her.  I just realized Mrs. Ellen DeGeneres has those yellow blocks she sits on in her profile picture I know on Twitter and YouTube I think.  The blocks in my dream were white.  I guss other people were there, kids and like an obese boy, and somehow she lay on her back, not like anyone in real life much at all at this point nor ever in a way extremely much in a way, and so I was like strattling over her waste and she was probably rubbing me or something.  I was still sad.  She tried to pick me up but couldn't.  She was much bigger than me.  I guess the bottom of her bust was to my armpits.  She like jerked me up a few times and made a face, like seething her teeth or something.  I laughed and thought like I said well what did you think, thinking of myself weighted down but not thinking at the moment directly that I needed to lose body fat.

I guess my next dream was most satisfying.  My aunt just fixed up my hair in a high ponytail.  I was in Pennsylvania, where my ancestors are from, and I was getting ready but all alive saying, after my cousin said I'm the shyest girl which she's the opposite, in Florida I'm shy, people go around like this, and I acted all agitated constantly looking around and realized and said I'm not shy in Pennsylvania, which I didn't feel so supple when I was there.

So, I was like leaning into my aunt, and it felt good, different, probably not how I feel in real life concerning her.

Something disturbing, I was in a room with 2 boys.  I was finishing up a long thin kinda bigger bottle of like orange soda.  I think I was lying down, maybe had to go to the bathroom, thinking of things like test tubes.  The boys goy my dad.  Somehow, it made me upset, and I think my mom came in, but in a way I don't think so.

Oh yes, when I woke up after the lady, my arms mostly were trembling, like as though I did that to myself, and then my legs were, too, for some reason.

So, I was upset at my dad and imagined for some reason, in kinda an offset way I didn't like, maybe because I was lazy, that I was being comforted for getting mad but not hysterical.

I think the happiest part was in Pennsylvania.  There was a nice-looking girl who came in with a younger sister, who was pretty young, and she took an interest in me.  She seemed so interesting, it was neat when I saw her spark up as she exited the room.  I was also talking to a shorter, fatter brunette.

I know, I feel very like stiff and weighted, almost like trembling, from doing weight training, strength training.  I haven't done much of that in my life.

Okay, so, then, I woke up again, and I imagined that my hand was being held, then someone putting their arm around my shoulder, and then picking me up.  "I wonder what that means?"

I wanted to stay in bed but finally decided to get up!