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So, I went at watched his deceased wife on YouTube and posted it on my blog.  Wasn't she good?  She was born just like a month before Johnny Depp, didn't have even to look it up.  She reminds me a lot of you.  Wow, people born just a little after you and into, well into the future, have a very condensed look, for some reason, and I don't know why!  I saw the girl who played Veruca in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the original movie.  She was born I think about a year before you or 1|2 year.  She looks very different now.  I don't quite understand how you do it.  I feel that people born like at certain times have this more metally look, like a sorta undetailed shaped head.  I guess you go through steps in life, meet certain requirements, which is what I ended up doing, not how I wanted it.  I would have been happy to have been like you, compared to how I was, but I was pretty smart, anyway, because I did art and things.  Tim Burton is attractive.  I also did gymnastics once a week as a kid.  I wonder if he exercised more than me.  He did swimming in high school.  I've met people like that.  :|  I just started doing strength training now.  I guess people'd want to know I did ballet, too, when it was available.  I usually only went once a week.  Audrey Hepburn did ballet, too, everyone knows...  I think it made her very healthy.  Some people think you're more interesting if you don't do ballet, but some people's lives revolve around that stuff.  I watched "21 Jump Street" with Johnny Depp, and I remember the gymnastics part.  It was interesting, too.  The teacher seemed like a muscle woman, and the kid, who was younger than my mom, who was a gymnast in high school (did ballet as a kid and then in high school became #1 in Indonesia ... I think has ancestors all from China, probably all from South and Southeast China, 500 years ago... wanted to be figure skater, at first, but couldn't,) seemed pretty trashy.  She was cute, but still.

So, anyway, I guess you were pretty smart.  I have a lot of Dutch heritage, but I'm not like 3|4 Dutch myself.  Hm.  Audrey Hepburn's mom's last name was Swiss, I think.  After I listened to the Swiss radio on iTunes at night, I had good dreams, but I started getting this very glossed over look I kept, which I like.  I think I have Polish and Swiss Jewish, migrated to Germany.  It's from my dad's mom's dad and mom, respectively.  So, I guess I wouldn't have looked like you.  I think I'm behind you but very old to ever be as good as you!  I understand you're also Irish.  I'm not sure if it's from your mom or dad.  That's kinda like being Dutch.  I thought I was almost 1|2 Irish, but I may be Anglo-Irish, which may be kinda special.

Oh, yes, so, my dad, as people may know who have seen his MySpace, is born in 1950, July 25, 1950.  I think that's a Tuesday, like me and my mom.  He's also a Tiger.  So, I see this actor from Excalibur is born in 1952.  Obviously, my mom is a lot younger.  In fact, she's younger than you.  8^.  I guess I can't give out her birthday.  You know, I don't think she really cares at this point, but she's born in summer 1959.  So, she's not in your class.  I don't know if over in Europe or the 3rd world if they have generations, but I'm pretty sure that they do when it works.  I saw my mom ... She said she was like a blonde, the fairest you could be, and very short but not the shortest.  She has a friend here in Detroit who we used to visit when I went up north to visit my relatives ... my ancestors being from Northwestern Pennsylvania, my grandma being born in Cyclone, which had thick snow, at the time ... in mostly Southeastern New York, inland from the very West but at the Southern border.  We stopped after we moved to the New Orleans area, to Slidell, which I'm sure you know well, though I don't know all the cities around where I lived as a kid.  I lived there all as a teenger, and you know the reputation of it, kinda the worst place you could live.  Still, I liked it and learned a lot and think it was worth it, could have been better, I hope.  See, I used to stay up every night thinking I'd go to bed earlier the next day, mulling over homework, and mostly got the best grades.  I used to be not as slow.  I guess being mixed race made me feel bad, but I was capable, I guess.  It might be because my dad's mom's dad's dad I think is Native American indian.  He seemed like a cross of Johnny Depp and Viggo Mortensen... Viggo Mortensen looking like a tall, slim English boy with light brown hair.  It seems that side has European tendencies or something, maybe stronger or something but seems pretty European, maybe has different stereotypes.  It seems the descendents hvae been sorta whipped clean of their dignity, to say in the least, which I didn't notice before.

I guess I'm pretty worried because I guess I did go through life with a fascination for women born around 1950 and more older, though I was very jealous of women around your age.  I thought my life should be like them.  In fact, my dad's sister is born in 1960, the youngest one.  Mid-1960.  She had, I dunno, I saw pictures finally, kinda looked like the youngest girl from "The Brady Bunch" but thinner and more European in a way but not scrawny, would have been a good playmate for you, but always got in trouble I hear, though is pretty sweet, still, very much so.  I grew up jealous of her, with her blue eyes.  So, her hair used to be straight I guess and like darker than yours, of course, but pretty reddish and thick and course.  It was fluffy when she was a pre-teen or older kid.  I saw a picture of her in a dress like you wore, with buttons up it.  I was so jealous and found something else with buttons up it that was snap buttons and not smooth material.  I got 2 dresses of it, a short-sleeved one that was burgundy and a long-sleeved brown one I kept until I was almost 20.  When I was a baby, I had crystally blue eyes, my mom said dark blue.  It seems they were grayish blue.  I guess I wanted to be something, but my dad had blue eyes, so I felt belittled.  I'd love to sport sparkly blue eyes as a European.  :^|  I just posted some pictures, and they're light green, now.  My hair seems to be glossing over in strawberry blonde or maroon, again.  I've had my hair look purple, it seemed naturally, for maybe 2 days out of my life, when I was in Florida, still.  I was born with like wood-colored hair.  I guess I wanted to be like my parents.  I saw it got pretty light as an infant and sometimes even had like white at the tips.  I've had that as a young adult, too, but I guess my life got worse and it stopped.  I wasn't as healthy and stuff, for some reason, and looked better with darker hair.  Maybe I went to crazy doing things to change it.  I found hairspray made the biggest difference, when I did my bun for ballet but quit so I would grow taller, to become like an actor and model and just as a person.  I wondered probably about being 5'5"-5'10", like you!  I guess I wanted to look more European.  It seems I'm "workin' my way back to you, babe..."  I was taking a walk, as I usually do, try to go every day or every other day, along the road with cars roaring past constantly, almost, it seems, sometimes.  I saw my shadow, with bangs and ponytail for the first time, and I noticed I seemed obsessed with dancers from when I did ballet at a modern dance studio.  I was into modern music and clothes before I left Florida.  Then, I started dressing like you!  Or people born in 1970 or 1950.  I was only 12!  I don't think I ever went back until now, though I did try to dress as a kid, all through high school.  I guess kid clothes became more childish.

You know, so, you think about America ... and then you think like of things like Logan's Run, which I saw once, so far.  My dad actually bought it on our TV like a month or so ago for me.  The actors are English, though, and I was kinda thinking of it more for what it was than as being European.  They're doing a remake, and I wanted to be in this movie, but I guess I can't.

It seems that people born in the 60s and 70s really have it going, you know?  I like how you're born in the 50s, though, nice and cozy and smart and powerful.  I don't knwo why people don;t trust me.

My arms aren't really that dainty, but I've gotten them to look skinny because I grew up with strong arms.  So, I've suffered in that way, actually.  I wanted them bigger for a different reason.  I wanted to look like a "coral girl" saw working at a "coral store" in Downtown Disney, years ago.  I went with my mom.  She had bleached hair and was like hairy with white hair on her arms, looked like the ideal person, to me, totally knocked me out.  She, like everyone who is accomplished, seemed to have an affinity for me.  She was probably born in like 1975 or a little later.  What about that bleached blonde who did the New Year's celebration around 2000?  That English girl.  She was pretty small but cool.  Bigger than me, though, maybe not a bigger head than I had|have.  I'm not sure my head is still big.  I think when I had problems keeping up in school it got smaller and smaller, eventually.  I didn't graduate but see you didn't, neither, though, apparently, you made the decision to leave and get a job.  I enjoy living with my parents.  I had fun on campus, even the semesters I suffered.  I should have either taken less courses or come home.  Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I considered not even going to college, but that was after I got in.  I did Music Education and was trying to graduate early and did some extra things.

I feel I've past that stage, wanting to look like a "coral girl."

I want to work at Disney World.  It would be an awesome experience.  My friend, a year older by shy of a month, worked there, pretty big, and she hasn't talked to me since ... well, after.  We were keeping up.  She's originally from San Fransisco and moved to Slidell as a pre-teen I think.  We were on Facebook.  I want to work for your ride.  However, my hair is dark.  I liked it frizzy because I guess it seemed cool, but it's not as thick, anymore.  I don't know why, but, when people cut my hair, they said I had thick hair.  I had a friend with lots of fine white hair.  She was part Swedish, I remember 5% Swedish 5% French.  I see my hair is getting less frizzy but in a bad way.  I don't have as much hair.  :(  It was so thick and frizzy.  I couldn't even comb it.  Neither could a new friend in our group who had smooth black hair who was rich and was Clara in ballet, though she looked like a normal girl, not bony or anything.  She looked like another rich girl I did baton with with like gold hair.  They both had freckles and sparkly eyes and had that same look, for some reason.  The baton girl was thinner.  Her mom came in and cut her nails because they grew like a few centemeters every 2 days.  I know I'm very sensitive and always have been very sensitive about my nails and cutting them.  I think everyone else shares that same feeling.  So, I was a bit weird and said I didn't like long nails, was a bit obtuse, and her mom said her nails were disgusting.  A girl from NYC with fluffy black hair and blue eyes told me I was disgusting, too, probably after.  I'm not sure why, maybe because I'm mixed.

So, yea, I used to have like big ball eyes and a big sorta rounded out head.

Ugh, I just went to the bathroom!  And I felt so bad.  I mean, I look like I'm addicted to fish or something, which I have a hunger for.  Just not when I eat out.

So, it seems that, when you aren't mostly European, that when you look more generic that it seems more pleasing.

Your mom looked very good.  I saw a picture of her as a kid next to a picture of you.  You look kinda like my mom.  I guess my Grandma is kinda in the middle when she was younger.  I don't know why ... nevermind.  Her mom I think had a supple nose and was suppsedly all Dutch, seemed reminiscent of Audrey Hepburn's mom, but her last name is from the northern Scottish islands.  Actually, her dad's last name is supposedly from either Scotland or northern England.  However, my dad's dad's last name isn't real Irish.

So, yea, I've definitely connected with my dad's race, primarily.  I guess I see myself like as my mom and not as her race.

It seems my dad is definitely supple, not like you, though, but more supple, very supple.  My mom is from Indonesia and so is different.

I find that with my German that I'm not really cut out like most mixed Germans are.  I'm more European.  Wait, but all I'm thinking of at the moment is people mixed with minority ethnicities.  I was thinking in some ways that was from being Dutch, so it's more European, and I don't feel anything.

So, I guess I want to look cut out like you!  Like all those other people.  I'm not quite sure what program I was milking to.