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I'm having so much fun watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  If she is married, then whey doesn't she have kids?  It's just another relationship to complain about to everyone and to like just talk about that ha the time.

I feel guilty she spends so much attention on me.  She's better than Tim Burton.  She goes on Twitter each day, but she's on all day!  She shouldn't be.  She needs to get a blog.  End of story.  For me, Twitter is something on the side.  Basically, I feel bad that my life is all about business and making others smarter and not about me being treated as I should be, like I can feel but really I'm always in the wrong and can't really function how I wanted.  I already was set to make things as they should be, but I see that people have all pretty much abandoned me.  8|

With Tim Burton, he veered off obsessed with his daughter, which he really may be in a way, unsure.  Maybe, he just listens to my dad, who just answers to his mom?  It's, like, my life is an experiment!

All he thinks about is that.  Johnny Depp seems to have admitted that that's what, it's about your kids, not your fans.  I don't approve of that, at all.  I always get in the fun with others.  You can't control it when I become the center of attention.  People even give me a respectable distance when they esteem me or rub in how good I am in ways I don't even care about by saying they are willing to commit themselves to a dedicated relationship with me or just hang too friendily and too respectfully.

I think Helena Bonham Carter has made it clear that if she's not respected or something she doesn't want to be in the relationship.  Even her daughter, who people acted like she wanted me to call her the "n" word when she was only just about 2 years old, gets in trouble for being nice to me when it like doesn't make sense or feels like or senses that it irks someone, perhaps for no particular reason, and it also may be that things happen for no good reason, from people like Tim Burton.  It's my dad who comes up with things that don
t "feel" good and at random, like it's cool.  Basically, going back, if that's okay, the world centers on Tim Burton's daughter because I thought people wanted me to call her the "n" word and just for fun because she thought it was cute, kinda like for fun, you know?  Like black people do except I guess there was a reason and it was actually like what I said but as though it was and there existed the reason for self-defense.

So, I don't want to just be thinking about how good other people are for being born, like me being born was a mistake because I'm mixed race.